Chapter 35: Chapter 35

I am frustrated that made me throw my phone on the bed. Emily is not answering my calls. I just woke up and immediately dialed her number. We arrived in the Philippines this morning and now it's already afternoon and I am sick worried about her. That woman is really stubborn I insist to take her home but she declined. Now I regret that I let her go home alone.

I am pissed off right now but as soon as I remember what happened between us in her room the day before our flight all the bad feelings fade automatically. I feel so alive and I never felt this happy before. Emily is such a miracle to me.

It felt good that I have finally admitted and confessed my feelings to her. I don't know when it started and how it happened but I am head over heels in love with her. I have been avoiding the strangely mixed emotions that I feel when she's around but then again I surrendered.

Lately, the feelings became deeper and deeper especially when I see how she takes care of my son and how she makes him happy until it is so hard to breathe and I thought I really need to admit and accept that I fell in love with her for such a short period of time before I lost my sanity.

I went outside my room to check my son in the next room. I am also worried about him. He tends to get panicked when he woke up and doesn't see Emily but when I opened the door he was not there. So I went downstairs to ask the helpers.

"Hi, Martha." I greeted one of Mom's oldest housemaids. She smiled and bowed at me.

"Good afternoon, Sir." She greets me back.

"Do you know where's my son?" I asked.

"Oh, he went out with Madam." She replied.

"Do you know where they went? I asked again.

"I'm sorry Sir but I have no idea." She replied.

"It's okay, Martha. I will just call her." I said.

I dialed my mother's number but the same with Emily she is not answering my calls. So I decided to go straight to the company and try my luck maybe they are there. I look at my wristwatch and it is only 4:00 pm so my parents are still in the office for sure.

I just reached the parking lot and parked my car there but a person who is very unpleasant in the eyes blocked my way as soon as I get out of my car. She has this very annoying look as usual.

"Fede baby. I'm so glad to see you. It is true that you are here. At last, you come back." She said.

"Yes, I came back but not for you," I said and look straight into her eyes. Now I am one hundred percent sure that I don't have any feelings for her. Not even anger, she means nothing to me. But I just can't help myself to feel annoyed when she gave me that playing the victim stuff.

"Fede, I know what I did to you is too much. I can't blame you if you can't forgive me but please let me love you. Let me prove to you that I am not the same Lindsay anymore." She said while pleading. I just sigh deeply before talking.

"Lindsay, listen to me. I already forgive you okay. I am not angry with you anymore. There is no more hatred in my heart I'm sorry to say this but I just want you to understand that you mean nothing to me anymore. You are just a part of my past a woman I used to know, my priority now is my son. I love him more than anything else. Aside from that, I met a wonderful woman who made everything easier for me. Thanks to her all the hatred that I felt for you went away as well as the pain you caused she healed it." I explained.

I want to yell at her but I did all my very best not to do so. I still don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.

"I don't believe you. I know you still love me so much. I am your first love and the love will not disappear just like that." She insisted.

"Lindsay, it is up to you if you believe me or not but that is the truth," I said.

Once again I did my very best to hold back the irritation that I am feeling right now. She is really testing my patience. She is very hard-headed and I don't have time for her. My hands are itching to push her to get her out of my way.

"No, you just want to hurt me. Fede it is very effective you know. You are hurting me, I am so much affected by all the things you are doing. I will accept it for now." She once again insisted.

"Lindsay, why can't you just be at peace and accept everything. I am really sorry if I am hurting you but I did not mean it. I don't want to hurt anybody. But please let it go, let me go so that you will have a peaceful life." I said while holding both of her shoulders hoping she will realize what I'm trying to tell her.

Somehow, it was a wrong move because she take both my hand and brought it to her lips. She kissed my hand with her both eyes closed. I feel pity for her, never in my wildest dreams, I would think we will end up this way.

"I guess this is my karma. But I know and I can feel it that you still love me, my baby." She said while crying. I am not sure if it's a real tear because she is a very good actress. She is a drama queen.

"Lindsay, you will find a man for you," I assured her but her emotions suddenly change and I saw anger in her eyes she let go of my hands as if she was burned to hold them. "No, there is no other man for me but you and there is no other woman for you but, me. We are the ones who are meant for each other." She said desperately.

I shook my head and calm myself.

"You are just using that b*tch to get even with me, I know. But you don't know her she is nothing but a worthless slut." She shouted.

"You don't know her, so you have no right to call her that. She is far way greater than you. For your information you are nothing compared to her you know that." I angrily said while gritting my teeth and holding her on both shoulders with a tight grip and violently shaking her.

The moment I heard those words she used to define the woman I love so much, I suddenly saw red. That's it, she was testing my patience and I can't hold off anymore. So before I could hurt her I quickly let go of her and hurriedly turned my back against her. She was still continuously chanting awful words describing Emily. But I just ignored her she is not worth it. She is not worthy of my time. But I did hear the last words she said before I disappear in front of her.

"One day you will realize that I am the one for you. That woman is much worse than me. She doesn't love you she is just after your money." She screamed over and over. I tried my best to ignore but I can't help myself to get affected. I wonder if it is true. Am I loving the wrong woman again? Did I just fall in love with a woman just the same as Lindsay who is a greedy evil creature disguised as a heavenly angel from grace?

=Sarsi=