Chapter 36: Chapter 36

Yohan's POV

"Are you ready?!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as I get ready for our next song.

A smile escaped my lips, adrenaline eating me alive.

This feeling whenever I stand in front of the stage, I will never get tired of it. It makes me feel alive like I am born to live for this.

I scanned the stage and flashes my gummy smile after seeing my boys playing around.

Josh hyung and Vash was walking around as Josh hyung gives thousands of kisses to our fans.

Jason was on Jake's back as they run across the stage.

Haiden was busy waving on the crowd as well as Rome.

These boys, I am just so glad I met them and they are now part of my life.

I can't imagine doing this without them.

And then my eyes landed back on the huge crowd before me.

Our Army, what will I do without their never-ending support.

To be honest, I've never thought that we will be this successful.

I can't say that we are already at the peak of our career because I know that there is still so much that we can do.

However, being able to stand in a huge crowd like this makes me want to say that, yeah, we finally made it. And we're still up for making a history.

The seven of us knows that not everyone thought that we will make it.

Not everyone was found of the music that we were creating. They said we will never make it.

Well news flash, we did. And we are not boasting. We will always be thankful for what our fans did for us. And as long as there is one, two or three people who still believes in us, we will keep on going.

I scanned the crowd before me as I try to catch a glimpse of that one other person that is very dear to me.

Kim Jessie

Just remembering her beautiful face is enough to make my heart flutter and it's beating gets faster.

We've been dating for more than a year and I have never been this happy before.

I knew we started on the wrong foot but I am just so glad I found her.

She brings the best out of me.

Our relationship isn't perfect. We fight like any couple and we break up sometimes but that doesn't stop us from getting back together.

Jessie may have internal conflicts mainly due to her bad experiences but that doesn't stop her from being sassy towards me and the boys.

I am just so glad Samantha is there to calm the girl.

I remember Jessie running around ready to kick Rome's ass when the other accidentally broke Jessie's piano figure. Yeah, since Rome usually just break things.

And she makes the best music.

Every time she rushes towards me with that huge smile on her face asking me to listen to that new song she had written, I can't help but get smitten by her all the more.

We share the same passion and loves it the same way.

Like what the boys always says, we are perfect for each other.

But then our moments aren't always the sweetest.

Once, we had a huge fight over her not attending her therapy session.

Jessie had a difficult past and she's struggling because of it.

Every time I see her shaking in fear and panic, my heart aches and I am getting hurt for her. That's the reason why me and the boys wants her to get better.

But this little lady is really hard headed. She normally skips her therapy sessions and reasons out that she has a deadline to finish.

The hell with our songs! We don't need to rush in creating songs if that means she will not get better.

Until now, Jessie still wears mask whenever we go out. She stares at the ground when other people talks to her.

And it hurts to know that she's having a hard time and I can't do anything about it.

I know it's not that easy. I've battled depression before and I am still from time to time. But I want her to enjoy life the same way other people enjoys them.

But I know I shouldn't be rushing her.

My heart started beating like crazy when I realized that she isn't on the same place where she was earlier.

Did something happen to her?

Shit.

She has a huge phobia with being in a huge crowd.

Fuck. I shouldn't have let her stay there alone.

In panic, I reached over Rome and Josh and whispered something as I put my mic down.

"Yah, wait, let's stop first, Jessie is not there." I told them and Rome's brows furrowed.

"Relax hyung. Maybe she went to the restroom." he told me but I'm still feeling scared.

What if Jessie is having a panic attack?

"Breathe Yohan, the staff won't let anything bad happen to her." Josh hyung muttered but the feeling of uneasiness still lingered on me.

I can still remember how Jessie started shaking so badly when she last watched our concert from the crowd.

And then the lights suddenly dim.

"What's happening?" I whispered. This isn't part of the concert. We never had this during the rehearsal.

The crowd was silent and so is the boys.

I was too pre-occupied with Jessie earlier that I didn't even noticed that only Rome and Josh hyung was left with me on the stage.

And then the screen behind us turned on Jake and Jason's face appeared.

"Hello!" the two happily chirped and the crowd went wild.

They are still wearing the same clothes that we have on stage.

Are they doing this live? How come I didn't know about this?

I turned my head towards the two beside me and the just shrugged their shoulders.

"Everyone, we know you might be thinking what's happening. However, you should know that it's Yohan hyung's birthday so we decided to make this day special for him." Jason stated and I laughed a little.

The crowd was screaming.

Oh right, it is my birthday.

"Maybe you are all wondering what we are doing back stage." Jake stated as he shows his bunny teeth.

"Well, there are a few people who wants to greet him." Jason added.

I felt Josh hyung hugging me.

"Yah, what is this?" I chuckled and Rome just wiggled his eyebrows.

"Just wait for it. We worked hard for this Yohan so just enjoy please." Josh hyung stated and I just shake my head.

I am never fond of surprises especially if it is directed to me.

As long as everyone is happy, I am good with that.

And the image of my brother appeared on the screen and I laughed so loud.

My brother looks so awkward on camera but I still love him the same.

Next to appear on the screen was my parents.

I started tearing up as they tell me how proud they are to what I have become.

I can still remember how they initially opposed to me on pursuing my dreams bu now, they are so supportive.

"I love you!" I shouted on the scream as if my parents will hear me.

Then a few more people flash on the screen including Choi PD. At this point, I am already crying a river.

These boys. How can they do this to me?

And then Vash and Haiden's face appeared on the screen.

"Hyung, did you think this is all?" Vash teased and the crowd went wild.

"Hyung, there is this one little bird who kept on pestering us this past few days.” Haiden added and my brows furrowed. He was about to speak again when the feed got cut off and the screen turned off.

"Hey, what happened?" I said through the mic.

Just then, a light flash on the corner where the piano was situated.

But my heartbeat skipped a thousand times when I realized that someone was sitting on it.

Jessie...

She was facing my direction and her eyes landed on me.

"I love you" she whispered before her hands went up as she started playing some notes on the piano.

Is she really doing this?

I can't believe it. She's finally broken down his walls. Just the thought of her being willing to show her face to the world for me even though she's scared makes me feel special. I am so proud of her.

And then her beautiful voice boomed the crowd.

Untrue… but I hope it’s true

You You You

Don’t think of anything, stop whatever it is

Don’t say anything, just close your eyes

Just give me a smile

I still can’t believe what’s happening

All of this seems like a dream, a beautiful dream

Don’t try to disappear

Is it true? Is it you?

You You

You’re so beautiful, you’re my all

Untrue… but I hope it’s true

You You You

Will you stay by my side forever?

Will you promise me you’ll never leave?

If I let go of your hand, you’ll fly away and runaway

I’m scared to death, please don’t run away

Will you stop time, stop everything?

If this moment passes

As though it hadn’t happened

I’m scared, so please don’t leave…

Once she finished, the crowd went wild. Her voice is like an angel.

Jessie covered her face and I jogged towards her direction.

For her to do something like this makes everything even more meaningful.

As I reached her, I pulled her in a hug and I can feel hear body shaking a little.

And the screen went up again and Jessie's face showed.

"Ahhhh, I told them not to show that anymore." she whispered and I laugh as she covers her face in embarrassment.

My eyes landed on the screen as my hands still wrapped around her.

"Yohan...." she started, her voice so sweet, her natural cuteness showing.

"Ah, wait a second." she said as she covered her face.

She looked so cute and I swear I heard the boys doubling in laughter in the background.

The crowd laughed at her cuteness.

How come I didn't know anything about this.

"Ahhh, they didn't edit it." she muttered as she squeezed her body tighter on mine.

"That's okay Jessie, you can do it." I heard Samantha saying on the background.

"Yah, just tell him you love him and it's over." I heard Josh hyung saying on the background before his cries of plea went next, Samantha probably hitting him.

The crowd laughed again.

"Min Yohan," she started, her hands fiddling on the hem of her shirt.

She took the video with her natural face, no makeup and all which makes her a thousand more beautiful.

"I know you had a hard time because of me and I'm sorry for that. You have been patient and you never gave up on us even though I am too much to handle." she added, her cheeks turning red.

Ah, so cute.

"I know I'm not a perfect girlfriend but you are a perfect boyfriend. You're always there whenever I am having a hard time and you are always helping me to get better."

She suddenly looked at the camera which almost took my breath away.

"Yesterday, I went out without a mask and I wasn't scared." she said, her face smiling. I can sense that she's really proud of her achievement.

"You know how I did it? I was thinking of you." she said a little proud. "I thought that Min Yohan, my boyfriend will be proud once he finds out that Kim Jessie, his girlfriend had finally overcome her fears." her hands clasped together, her face full of smile.

The crowd cooed at her cuteness. I can't blame them; she really is so adorable.

"Yohan, I know we still have a lot to overcome but I want to thank you for giving me inspiration, for making me feel special and making me realize that the world is beautiful and I don't have to be scared of tomorrow. Thank you for bringing color to my dull world and to every other girl like me. You are selfless and kind. Please know that you deserve everything right now as well as the boys. Happy birthday and I hope you believe in yourself as well. I love you, Min Yohan." she said before ending it with a cute heart.

"Aahhhhhhh!" Jessie wiggled beside me. "This is so embarrassing." she stated and I pulled her away from me a little so I can see her face.

Her face is a little red and she is so damn gorgeous.

My hands slowly cupped her face and the crowd went wild.

"Kim Jessie, I love you," I told her before I pulled her back, our lips touching.

I don't care about the crowd before me or the articles that will surely pop out on the internet in five minutes.

Right now, I am just happy we are together.

I have my brothers with me, my family, and Kim Jessie.

This is no longer an illusion that I was creating on my mind ten years ago when I was dreaming of my future.

Right now, this is just us and our hearts together.

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