Chapter 40: Chapter 40

I decided to go back to work. If I'm always here at home, maybe one day I'll feel numb. This is my life and I will do what is best for me. I will leave the child to Mela and take care of her. It's also embarrassing that I'm going to make the man live. Maybe one day, he'll blame it on me. So right now, I have to scrape for myself and for Jai. If only we could bring back that quiet life, I would have done it. But I can't go back yet. Maybe that witch will grow old. He would destroy and hurt Jai's feelings again without me and I would smear his face on the roof.

"Kiera?" Esan's handsome face reflected the pleasure when he saw me in his office the next morning.

My mind was determined to return to work with him. Any job I will accept. I knew he would not disappoint me.

“Good morning. Am I welcome to come back here? ” smiling I asked.

"Of course you will!" He stood up and approached me to help him sit in the chair there. "I'm really surprised you're here."

“I need a job Esan. Can I come here? ” my introduction.

“Right, I need an assistant. Can you do that? ” He went back to his desk and still didn’t lose his smile.

I nodded. I can do this. I know he will help me when I can't get something right away. “Thank you so much Esan. This is a big deal for me. ”

He stood up again and approached me. He took my hand and kissed it. I felt awkward at what he did but I didn't say a word. I just let him.

"Does Jayar already know this?" When he asked.

I shook. "No."

He shrugged. "Okay you can start working now." It smiled again.

I was happy to think that the young man had accepted me. That same day I started the work he assigned me. It’s hard but I know I can practice that too.

He was the one who took me home in the evening to the big house and he was also when Jayar arrived. I got off exactly when Jayar's car first entered the big gate when it opened. I just followed him and turned to Esan. Grateful and only smile was his answer before leaving.

“Damn! How long is the water? ”

These are the words I heard from the young man when I entered the house. He asks the maid for water and it takes him a while to return. Confused, the maid returned with a bottled water and handed it to him.

“Why is it cold? Damn it! Shoot me again! ”

"But sir ..."

“I said get me a new one!” he commanded loudly and was afraid to run it towards the kitchen.

He was really stubborn and always hot -headed. Our gazes met and I could see the blade in the twinkle in his eyes. It was as if I had done something that made him angry. I quickly looked back and went to Jai's room. It didn’t greet my arrival so I knew it was just in the room and playing with Mela.

Chilsea, on the other hand, returned to the States for a while and is recovering here. I think he suddenly had a fever or maybe his body was just full of maple. He said he would return and when he returned, he would expel me from Jayar at the same time he filed a case against me. If that’s what’s make her happy, then go. I will not turn him down. That was good so that if Jayar and I were to leave, I would no longer be in pain; we have not yet been visited by the Chilsea witch. Though difficult, I will bury everything in oblivion.

I WAS on the terrace these hours while breathing the night air. The whole household was quiet and I was the only one awake at the moment. I just want to be visited by drowsiness. There are so many things that bother me.

Then I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Why is my heart so tight? Very heavy.

“Can’t sleep?”

I was startled by my silence when I heard Jayar's hoarse voice behind me. I was hesitant whether I would look at him or not.

"Me too," he said and I heard footsteps approaching in my direction.

I sighed and decided to go back to my room. That’s where I’m going to visit sleepiness. I don't think he will come here either.

"Leaving?"

I looked at his behavior. A dipa is at a distance from me. There is no drink in hand that I always notice when he comes here once in a while. He also looks away and seems to have a problem. I did not answer. I have no plans to open up a conversation.

I decided to go back to my room. This is where I will visit drowsiness and maybe my bwesit heart will betray me again. That’s enough ‘cause I’m a fool once. No, it's just stupid! I stepped back to my room.

“Kiera… I’m sorry, really I am.”

I stopped and was stunned. Is what I heard correct? He say’s sorry? Should I believe it? ‘Isn’t this what I once expected him to tell`

kin? I bit my lip and breathed too deeply. I continued to walk and left him completely.

"Damn!" he was angry cheaply in the air.

A bead of tears automatically dripped from my eyes as I entered my room. I gently wiped it and went to bed.

As I expected the next day, Esan was already outside the gate and picked me up so we could enter the office together. He informed me yesterday that he would bring me and I did not reject it.

There is nothing wrong with what he will do and I will not be angry to pick up and he will deliver me every day. I even noticed the dark face of Jayar who left us first. He also ignored Esan's warm greeting.

Within a week, this is how the three of us set up. Esan picks me up, and I can get Jayar's temper. Like now.

“Damn! Jai almost disappeared from school earlier. God! ‘Aren’t you the one watching over him? Wherever you flirt, even the child disappears from your mind. ”

I slapped him hard in the face. We were outside Jai's room. We meant that so the child wouldn't hear us. He rubbed his affected cheek and looked at me darkly.

“I’m not flirting Jayar! I work for my son and me! ” I angrily promised him.

“Work? Did I ask you to go back to work? No. You mean, you're just doing it to flirt with my cousin. ” It grinned.

A strong slap on the other cheek he tasted me again. Flirting? Does he look down on me like that? I'm just doing it so that somehow, I'm not a burden to him. He can't blame me for feeding me, that I don't keep him alive. The corner of my eye heats up and I know my eyes will betray me again at any moment.

Mela told me, she turned around to take a shower. But when he returned, Jai was gone. He said he came out because he saw a woman walking, I thought. Jai followed it and Jayar passed by to pick it up. Occasionally, Esan and I would pick them up when they got home early. Coincidentally, he was the first to pursue the child.

"I'm not that low if that's how you think of me Jayar!" the vein in my neck almost came out of the anger I was feeling. “Yes! You didn’t tell me to work. But I can't wait for the day when you will criticize me too! ”

He smiled wryly. “If you really loved Jai, if you really considered my nephew a child, you would sacrifice everything. Everyone! Work, everyone! It’s not about flirting. ”

I was shaken and stunned. I want to punch him. What else does he think I’m doing? I've given up everything. I have nothing left to myself! If anything, pity. I felt sorry for myself why of so many men I could love, I still fell in love. Then he will say sacrifice everything? Isn't it a sacrifice I made now?

“Sacrifice? Flirting? ” along with my bitter laughter were the shedding of tears in my eyes. “Don’t you see how much sacrifice I made? Can't you see how hard my life is? God! You've taken it all Jayar! Aren't you happy yet? It's all yours. If I were the only one to follow, we would have left your house. But because of Jai, I choose to stay so he won't get hurt. I choose to stay even if it's hard to live in a house with you! Before, you called me greedy, now you call me flirtatious. What’s next, ha, Jayar? Well I’m telling you, I’m not flirting! And if I'm flirting, it's mine and you're not there. This is my life and I have the right to be happy and loved by others! ” after I said those I gasped and wiped the tears from my cheeks.

I immediately turned around but I was just surprised when he suddenly grabbed my hand and suddenly pulled me and hugged me very tightly.

"I-I'm sorry Kiera." rattle he said and kissed me on the hair.

He’s crying? I do not understand. What did he mean by the hug he gave? My mind became more confused and I couldn't stop sobbing in his wide chest. What really!

“I admit I was hurt. I get hurt every time I see you and Esan together. I felt thousands of pain running inside me! I'm jealous. It hurts! I want to criticize you for doing this to me. You told me before that you love me but Esan is always with you. Then I realize we don't exist and I don't own you but ... God! Kiera, I love you! Very dear. ”

I cry even more in these moments. I don’t know if I will believe him. Maybe this is another one of his ways how I fell before. But here syes, hug me very tightly and cry. I am said to be loved. Should I really believe it? ‘Isn’t she getting married soon? God! The mess.

“Do you still love me Kiera? I’m willing to sacrifice everything, just for you. Just don't get lost in me. I can't bear to see another man love you and you'll love him. I just want me. I'm just Kiera. I'm just a baby, huh? ” He let go of my hug and stroked my cheek.

I couldn't help but smile even though my eyes were blurred with tears. He called me baby and the words he uttered melted my heart. Wouldn’t I still believe if what my heart was screaming for now was his name. God! How I love this man so much.

All awhile I thought he just didn’t care that Esan and I get closer to each other, I was wrong. That's why he always has a hot head and looks dark.

I nodded slowly. "Yeah, you're still the one I love," as I said this, he wiped away the tears that never stopped disappearing from my eyes.

"Thank you Kiera." He hugged me again and kissed my forehead with all his heart. "Promise I will never hurt you again."

I returned the hug. All resentment, resentment and anger vanished like bubbles. It was enveloped in countless pleasures. But I was immediately taken aback when I remembered his woman. I let go of the hug.

"You're getting married to your fiancee." I looked down but he also immediately raised my face.

"You are the one I will marry Kiera."

My eyes rolled. Is what I heard right or is my imagination playing tricks on me? I looked around at his pale eyes staring at me. I’m looking for the answer I’m trying to clarify.

"T-did you hear right—" but before I could finish speaking, it was his sweet kiss that stopped me. I chased my breath as our lips parted. Again, he put his hand on my cheek and stroked it.

“Will you be my wife? Please say yes. I take no for an answer. ”

I laughed softly. Even when proposing marriage, the former is very bossy and doesn't want the answer. If I just didn't love him, he probably wouldn't have gotten a response from me. But because I still love him dearly to this day, my answer is yes. ‘Isn’t this the happiest day for a woman in her life when she is offered marriage to the man she loves? Don't I still hate it?

"Yes… Yes!" I answered happily.

Suddenly he lifted me into the air and turned me around. He looked like a very happy child and almost didn't want to let me down. The last thing I remember at that time, in my room was the final destination of our love reciprocated to each other.

I watched Jayar next to me with a smile, sleeping soundly. He faced me and hugged me. It was as if I didn't want to be released even early in the morning. All night we responded to each other and I was almost overwhelmed with her sweet nothings.

I felt his thick eyebrows, followed by his closed eyes that I once feared. When his sharp nose gives it a unique charisma and the last is his red lips that will be delicious to kiss forever. I already own this man's heart. Until now I still can't believe it but he's here, hugging me.

"Jayar, get up." I tapped his cheek.

He moaned and looked like a child sulking. "Later."

"We still have work."

"Start now my baby won't work."

I was no longer surprised. I knew that would happen. But somehow I feel guilty. It's like I'm just kidding Esan but I'll tell him the truth. So I was unable to respond to his insistence on entering my heart because Jayar was the first to enter.

"Okay I'll just take a shower and make you breakfast." I was about to get up when he suddenly pulled me back and pretended to be me.

"Later." He opened his eyes and mischievously winked at me.

“Oh what are you! My smell. Get away from me. ” I tried to push him but he was heavy.

He laughed and his handsome look made him laugh. "You don't stink, eh." And I smelled. "That's your scent."

“Jayar ha, I know what’s on your mind. Ayuko. Maybe Jai will come in. ” I glared at him and pinched his side slightly.

Laughing, he grabbed my hand and placed it on my head. "Don't be there, I have a tickle." he mischievously kissed me on the lips.

"Jayar ..."

"Hmm?"