Chapter 39: Chapter 39

JAYAR’S P.O.V.

"Damn!" In my car, I went straight to a bar. I just let my feelings pass. My phone rang and Chilsea was calling. I didn't answer it. I wanted to be alone.

I hit the steering wheel. I hate myself. I was sending too much of my anger when Kiera lied. I exercised my pride too much. I was just shocked when he blamed me for everything he was upset about.

Kiera has a point. I became too greedy. Selfish. I used to not care about the people I stepped on. For me, I am the one to be obeyed and when I don't follow what I want, poor person. But when it's time for Kiera to run away and take my niece away, I will do everything. He will stay in my house as long as I want.

"Bullshit!" I braked in the middle of the road and got hit in the head. Kiera's teary eyes seemed to be temptingly appearing in my mind. It's like my heart is pounding and I hate this feeling.

I only loved him one night and that night was over. But why did I feel the strange emotion that began to emerge?

KIERA'S P.O.V

Ever since my criticism of Jayar happened, I haven't noticed that he even touched me with a simple glance. Work, the child and his fiancee only focused his attention. It was like I was reading in that house. Okay, I know that's what's going to happen.

I am thankful because in the morning, I am the one looking after the child at school. Somehow, I managed to avoid Chilsea’s poisonous tongue. Jayar also takes us every time we come in and picks us up every time we go home at noon. Jai only works for half a day.

A lot has changed since Jayar adopted me and since he found out the child is a nephew. It's even better, he gives me a reason not to love him anymore but my bwesit heart, doesn't want to listen to me. It still keeps beating him and he will remain the only one.

"Hey, my fiance!"

I was about to enter the kitchen when Chilsea called me that. I pretended not to hear him. It's starting to take over my life again.

"Aren't you leaving this house?"

I still haven't listened to him. I just continued in the kitchen but he artistically blocked my way.

“And where do you think your going? I'm still talking to you, gaga! ” he raised an eyebrow and artistically greeted me.

"Okay, I don't have time to fight with you," I said calmly. I fought an evil stare at him.

“Wow! Mataray. Who are you? You're just stuck here, ah. And if I let you go, I can do it. ”

"Really?" Then I passed him. I don’t care if she’s the man’s fiancee.

We both just love Jayar. But she should be thankful because she is the one the man loves and will marry her. I'm not kidnapping Jayar from him. So I wonder why this woman's blood is so hot to me. I have no opponent for him after all. I’m just a poor person but I won’t be oppressive. He’ll just try to hurt me physically and he’ll find what he’s looking for.

“Aba’t!” He held my arm when the maid approached us and informed me that Jai was calling me, who was now in the yard and playing.

I boldly dismissed his clasped hand and headed for the boy's whereabouts.

"I hate you!" he insisted.

"Same to you," I said in a whisper but the truth is that he liked to cut off his hand.

AS THE days passed, my load grew heavier. Time seems to be running out for me. Instead of wanting to plant my love for the man in oblivion, it presses even harder into the deepest corners of my heart. The difficulty! Especially when I see the two of them with his girlfriend. I was hurt but I just pretended to be okay. Somehow I want to regret ‘that night I gave up everything but even if I turn my mind around, I have no regrets.

Like today, day of the week. After we went to church, they happily took a dip in the large pool. While I was here in my room and secretly watched the three of them from my window happily paddling in the water. I heard Chilsea's shrill laugh from here. I felt jealous when I saw him lifted into the air by Jayar. They look perfect couple.

Chilsea is beautiful, sexy, radish -like in whiteness and rich. Me? I have no wealth to match the woman.

What if I join them? If it's just beauty, the beauty I have doesn't give up. I don't know what came to my mind when I started rummaging in the drawer for my new swimsuit. I bought it before when Jai and I went for a walk so that in case my son cheers, this is what I will wear. But I still didn’t use it because I was afraid to take a dip in the pool and I couldn’t swim. But now? Let's see.

I will not lose to Chilse a. That's right. I will not give up. Jayar once told me that he loved me one night. Maybe I can do that forever.

I smiled at the nonsense I thought was even very impossible. But nothing is impossible if you just try. I changed into a red two piece swimsuit and looked in the mirror. I find myself seductive and the color seems to suit me in a non-losing plan. I look seductive and naughty in the bath I'm wearing. After putting on the clothes, I went out and didn’t seem to care to join them.

I took off the clothes I was wearing and the body I was hiding appeared. Jayar looked at me in disbelief. I could see his admiration for my body. While Chilsea smirked and stared. I was secretly celebrating.

Jai ran quickly towards me and was happy to see me join.

"Let's take a bath baby?" my nanny is smiling.

He nodded and pulled me into the children's swimming pool, which was probably only waist -high. I laughed in my mind but I accompanied the child. In a few moments, the two of us will be playing.

"Join Mommy!" Jai passed the ball to me.

Smiling I caught it and passed it back to my son. Out of the corner of my eye, I was overjoyed to see Jayar lose his attention to Chilsea. I notice that he is sneaking a peek at me.

"Honey, teach me to swim," the lame woman softened to him and artistically hugged his neck.

I took a deep breath. I am encouraging myself. I think, I’m the winner these times because I have Jayar’s attention. Could it be his heart? How can I win it?

"Wait here honey, I'll just get something to drink."

I laughed secretly as he climbed up and left his lame fiancee, whose eyebrows and snout almost stretched in utter annoyance.

“Hey Tita Chilsea, come here! Join us. ” Jai hated him. He just frowned and stared at us. "Auntie, come on!" the child barked at him and went up to go to it.

I wanted to stop my son but he was close to Chilsea who is now on the sidelines. Sitting and seemingly hot -headed because the man left for a moment, or because I overcame his presence.

“Jai,” I called.

"Just wait Mom." He turned to me for a moment and allegedly carved his Aunt. "All right, Tita, come on."

“I said I don't want to! You know, you're a jerk. You look like your raw Mommy! Do you know that you are not his child and I am not your Aunt and Jayar is not your real Daddy ?! ” He is now standing and he is still pointing the child in the forehead.

Suddenly my blood rushed when I heard Chilsea say that. I will never forgive him! Jai cried and could not move from the stand.

"How dare you!" I gave him a loud slap after I put Jai aside. "The thickness of your face tell my son that!" I almost blushed in anger. At no time, he had no right to hurt my son in such pain.

"You slapped me?" he ejaculated in disbelief and looked at me angrily. "How could you!" He was about to slap me but I preceded him.

“Yes how could I!” I slapped her cheek twice and it blushed. "You don't know so you have no right!"

He was four inches taller than me so I just looked up but I couldn't let him go. I will make him undo the hurtful word he left to the child.

"Bitch!"

I wasn’t prepared for what he did. He suddenly pulled out my long hair. I didn't beat him, I also pulled him and scratched him. I was furious and wanted to let him know that I was angry with him.

My son's feelings are in question here and how easy is it for him to destroy and hurt that? I can't even hurt Jai's feelings because I'm the one who's hurting the most but he, he did it so easily. He should, wipe the face and teach a lesson!

It's okay for me to be the one he steps on, the one to insult, the one to hurt and make me look miserable. But if the child is involved, that's another matter and I can't let him go. Because her nails are long, they get dirty on my skin but I can't stand the pain. I also scratched him and slapped him and consciously. If I could only swim, I would probably have dipped this woman's face in the big pool.

The helpers shouted for mercy but none of us waited until the man came and then suddenly cried as if he missed Chilsea. It approached the young man and seemed like a child crying.

“Damn! What’s going on here? ” Jayar is angry with me.

I did not answer. I averted my eyes and called the child.

“That bitch! She tried to kill me! ” accusation of Chilsea. "I was just sitting here quietly when he grabbed me and fought."

My heart ached at this woman's fictional story. K looking at it, we were just the same because my body was wounded by his nails but his face and body were swollen and red.

That is not enough, after all.

"Is it true?" Jayar looked at me darkly.

I bit my lip tightly. I don't have to explain. I already know the result. From the tone of her voice and the twinkle in her eye, I knew that Chilsea was on her side. After all, who am I to listen to?

"Come with Jai." Before the tears I was holding back were about to drip, we quickly turned our backs on the child. We went straight to the bathroom of Jai’s bedroom and he still didn’t settle for crying.

"T-is that true Mommy?" he asked sniffling as I cleaned his body in the tub.

I wiped the tears from my eyes. I am in pain for my son. It was not yet the right time for him to find out who he really was. He is still too young.

"B-baby ..." I stroked her hair and kissed it. “Don't listen to what other people have to say. The important thing is, we are together. Mommy and baby. Two of us."

He nodded and hugged me. "I love you Mommy!"

"I love you too baby." I also hugged my son tightly.

After I bathed him and changed his clothes, I took care of myself. I had just finished getting dressed when Mela knocked on my door. Jayar seems to be talking to me at the library.

The first thing that came to my mind was that he would not be confronted. It was enough that I competed with him earlier when he was a woman. I was the loser and his fiancee was the winner. Why else would I assume. But when I remembered the disgrace that his woman had done to the child, my blood flowed. I don’t care if I’m the bad guy anymore. Just when it comes to Jai’s feelings, I’m willing to take the risk.

“Damn Kiera! Chilsea is in the hospital now because of what you did to her! ” Jayar's angry voice greeted me exactly as I entered the library room.

My anger lived on. And am I still at fault today? If I only knew he was hospitalized, I would have gone too far.

"Speak up Kiera!" He knocked on the table in front of him and got up from the chair he was sitting on.

I opened my mouth but no words came out. The anger I felt earlier towards the woman, was replaced by pain when I saw that Chilsea was very important to Jayar.

“What is your real problem? Are you doing this to get me to evict you from my house? ”

Both sides of my eye got wet and my chest began to constrict. It hurts. "I-I'm s-sorry." I looked down. I couldn’t bear to watch the anger enslave him.

“Sorry? After you hurt Chilsea, all you're gonna say is sorry? ” he sarcastically suggested and jokingly laughed.

"Look!" I looked up and met his gaze. “I’m sorry why I did that to him! Im sorry if I hurt her but I hope your animal-mannered fiancee at least thinks about my son's feelings. Jai is still young and he is still very innocent of the circumstances. So he has no right to hurt me with the child and hurt his feelings! ” I refrained from crying in front of him. I will not show weakness to him. Absolutely not!

“Now you are joining the child. God, Kiera! Chilsea will file a case for physical injuries. ” She was able to tweak her own hair.

“I didn't tell you to believe me, eh. Who am I for you to believe? I was just a woman after giving my heart and body to the man I loved but that man, did nothing but hurt and step on my heart. ” And my bwesit tears, did not listen. They stamped like rain.

I saw him stunned and unable to breathe. "You love Me?"

I quickly turned around and wiped away the tears. "Please tell Chilsea ... I'm… I'm sorry." I couldn’t help but sob when I left that room.

I went to my room and there I poured out the pain and resentment. The pain! The person I’m trying to forget, the more it seems tempting that I’m having a hard time doing that. File a case? Fine! If that guy was happy with what he was going to do, I didn't care. I’m just doing my right as truly loving Jai.

After I poured out all my resentment, I looked in the mirror and examined my face. Ever since we came here, all I have done is pain and humility. I gently wiped away the tears that stamped the tears in my eyes. My eyebags were red and swollen a sign that I had gone through long crying.