Chapter 49: Chapter 49

She hurridly came out of the siblings' house.

Jem could hardly keep up with her because of her speed.

"Ash waits. Please talk to me." Storm came after her.

Sh suddenly stoped she confronted him and gave the couple of slap he dserved.

"All right, hurt me if you think that can help you express how you're feeling. I'll accept because I know you're feeling even more hurt right now. Forgive me if I didn't tell you right away. I know, but I have no right to interfere in other people's lives." Its explanation: "He's my brother but he has things to tell you."

"You knew. But you didn't tell me. You just let your brother make a fool of me. While I was fooling around arranging our wedding alone. Every time I waste time with that nonsense wedding preparation, it hurt twice more than it should be...in here." She pointed to the part of her heart.

"Why Ash? If had I told you before, would you believe me? When I told you that he was just using you to get his inheritance, did you get mad? You didn't. Because you chose to understamd him and wait for him to explain. I thought that when you found out who he really was, you would do the same. You would forgive him immediately and you would understand him. " His answer was that he hardly knew what emotions he should feel.

"It seems easy to forgive,"

"It's easy, especially for you. I'm really jealous about how easy for you to forgive others. Because it's easy for you to forgive him. While I even explained to you a few times, your heart is still closed. Everything I tell you seems like nothing. Everything Why Ash? Are you really that angry with me? Now, about what you found out will I be the one to be blame again? when will I be able to make up for it? If other people's sins are also heaped on me? " A simple question that requires an intense answer.

Even Jem was in tears at the intensity of the emotion she was seeing. It was only then that she saw the two talking about such things.

"You don't have to take it back because that doesn't matter either. I didn't ask you for that. If I were you, just fix your relationship with your brother in case there's still hope." Ashy just looked at him and turned her back on him.

"Let just fix it Ash, don't you see even a little hope? Even a little hope that comes from you. I will make that only hope left grow so that we can fulfill our dreams before." It is a pleading question.

"I don't know the meaning of the word hope Storm. And the dreams you say, you can achieve on your own. At least sometimes, I'm not a part of the dreams you say and I don't expect to be a part of it. You two are a nightmare in my life. " After saying this, she hurried out of the gate of the house.

As she walked away, she couldn't barely see the road because her eyes were covered with tears.

Intense emotions enveloped her so that she felt her heart would explode. explode with the intensity of pain and shock.

She felt very weak in those moments. She couldn't help heeself and just sat on the side of the road. Fortunately, it was a bit dark.

Jem caught up with her and was almost depressed when she saw her friend sitting on the side of the road. She immediately hugged it. She felt the pain she had.

"That's enough, that's enough Ash. Let's go home." She tries to calm her down, even though she knows it won't be that easy with her friend.

"Why Jem? What has been my fault in the world? Why is this happening to me? Why do pains keep haunting me? Why do I need to get to know the people who will be the cause of these pains? Where am I lacking, what do I need to do to be just enough?" She leaned on her friend's shoulder while unable to stop crying.

"You have no faults, Ash. There is nothing wrong with you or with how you treted people. No matter what happens, don't think that you are being punished. If you have anything to trust in these times, there is no one but God. There is a reason why all this is happening. It hurts, yes, but sooner or later you will know that the pain you have now is worth it. It will also pass, " she stared at her friend then helped her to stand up.

"Thank you Jem, it's a good thing you came with me. Otherwise, I don't know what I'm going to do with the weight of how I'm feeling right now. I feel like heaven has fallen on me." She wiped away the tears as they walked away.

"Fix yourself. You're not at fault. They are the ones who should be persecuted by conscience and not you. If there is someome who can't sleep tonight, it's them and not you. " her friend led her back to her car, which they had already passed because of her running while not knowing where to go.

"I'm sorry Jem, if I got mad at you."

"Let it be well understood why. The important thing now is that you know the truth. You don't have to be able to explain it to Paul because the deception he did to you is even heavier than the heaviest. " she gave the friend a meaningful tip.

How can she admit with her that there is something happened between her and Storm not just once but twice.How can she tell a friend that she likes what happened to them and isn't just forced? That tje truth is that it happened because he still loves him and it never changed?

While they were in the car, they were quiet. They remained silent to one another.

"What's your plan now?" Jem asked later.

"I don't know. But please don't tell mom first, let me tell her. Somehow, Paul and she also became close, and I can't deny that to them. Right now I don't want to let her know." It is a serious answer to her friend's question.

Ashy gave her friend a meaningful hint before they decided to get out of the car. They had to act normal because she didn't want her mom to notice.

"Ohh there you are. The food is cooked perfectly. Let's eat while it's still hot, "they could do nothing but follow her mother.

"Wow, it's delicious. It's really good that I insisted on Ash going with her. " It's laye for her to take back what she said.

Ashy stepped on her feet from under the table.

"Accompanied? Where are you from? I thought you were still from the office?" her mother asked.

"Yeah, but I stopped by the boutique to look at the clothes. She then insisted on coming here as well. It's a good thing you cooked a lot." Ashy joked to cover up what her friend said.

"Yes, I know you're good at cooking. Besides, I don't have this kind of dish at home. Mama doesn't have it, so I'm just really hoping for delivery. Ash don't even want to adopt me." Supposedly, this begs the question.

"Hey, you're open here. Any time you wished to have meal with us just tell me earlier," said the lady cheerfully.

"Well I'm okay with that,"

"What happened and are you okay again? It's good that you understand each other." Ashy's mom asked.

"Nothing like these will happen when I'm still angry with her, mom. It won't help either if I use my anger. I can't bring back anything that happened." Ashy replied while secretly looking at her friend.

"Of course. Besides, Ash's wedding is also near. The ugly thing is, if we're not okay, he doesn't have a maiden when I don't show up. " It is still a joke.

They were happy to eat. Talking for a while as if nothing had happened. Later, Jem said goodbye to them. Ahe even go with her outside.

"Thank you, Jem. I hope it stays with us first. I don't want everyone to be confused. I'll still come in tomorrow. I'll come in because I have a job. I won't leave until they remove me from my position." She looked boldly at her friend.

"All right. If there's a problem, just call me. I'll rescue you right away." she answer, then permanently left.

Ashy was left as she watched the car leave. She took a deep breath before entering the other house.

Arriving inside, she saw her mom while carrying coffee.

"It's late, aren't you sleepy yet? You still brought coffee." comment on it. It's because she's used to having coffee before going to bed.

"You know me. Do you want to? I'll make one for you," she offered.

"Thank you but no mom. I also need to go to bed early. I still have work tomorrow."

She avoids looking at her. She prays that she will not ask any more questions.

"How is Strom Ash? He hasn't visited me in a long time. Has he returned to America? " she ask later, while facing the TV.

"He's okay, sometimes he's in the office. When there's an important things that he's needes, and when he's taking Paul's place when he's out of the country." She answer. She just sat next to her. mother.

"Paul? He hasn't come here for a long time. How are your wedding preparations? You'll be married in a month." she stared at her as if her gesture was obvious.

She leaned back in her chair and closed her eyes.

"It's tiring, mom. It's tiring to take care of the wedding. It's so hard when you get married. A lot of people to consider. I really don't know how to be okay until the wedding day." she hugged her.

"Do you have a problem? Do you have a something that should be telling me?" The mother looked at her.

She just looked at her. She has no plans to tell the truth because she doesn't want to hate the man who once was close to her.

"No, I'm just really tired. If there's a problem, I'll tell you right away. Don't worry because I can still do it." She smiled at her.

"I'm going up, ma'am, I'm going to rest too. You can go to sleep too. You can't sleep late, "she reminded hermother. She kissed her then went up to her room.

When she went up to her room, she saw someone throw a stone at his window. she pulled back the curtain and she saw Storm throwing it.

She hurriedly go downstairs to her room to stop what he was doing. She was very greatful to see that her mother was no longer in the living room and the light was off. She went out to see Storm.

"What's your problem? It's late, so why are you here? " she asked the person in question, who was obviously drunk.

She couldn't understand what he wanted to do, but she didn't like what he did.

"Ash, talk to me. Please! I can't afford to lose you again. Give me a chance to prove myself to you. Give me at least a little hope." It almost kneeled in front of her.

Her heart almost broke as she faced him. Not because she is angry, but because she feels within herself that she still loves him but she is trying to control herself.

"Stop it, Storm. It's enough that once we made a mistake and we were hurt. The pain you gave me is enough. I can't handle another one." its bold answer.

"Why Ash? Are you the only one who feels the pain? Me, I wasn't hurt? Didn't I suffer? Are you the only one who feels the pain? Is this the time I should apologize to you, to go through? Isn't everything I've done yet is enough for you to gorgive me. " It stings so badly that it can hardly control his body.

"I didn't tell you to do those things to make me look like your making up all your faults. Whatever you did, it's your decision and I didn't tell you to do it. Now if you're tired, I don't have a problem with that. If you're tired, then its more taht I am.. I'm so tired. There's nowhere to go in any of our conversations. That's enough. Don't expect us to get back together again because everything is closed for us. Go away." She said and entered the house.