Chapter 4: Chapter 4

Living With Rejection

It's been two weeks since my birthday, summer break had officially started and I've now moved into the pack house. Lana stayed true to her word she got me a room across from hers and that's where I am now drowning in my sorrows.

The day after my birthday I felt a wave of energy wash over me then I fainted. At first we thought someone had casted a spell on me but Lana couldn't find any evidence of foul play and I didn't feel any different so we just ignored it.

Also remember when Harley told me that Noah would regret rejecting me? Yeah well she was wrong because he doesn't, instead he dedicates himself to tormenting me and sleeping with every girl he could find just to try and hurt my feelings. Sylvia had even forbidden him from seeing any other girl and tried to get him to take back his rejection but I told her not to because I wanted nothing to do with him.

Dominic has moved into the pack house to be closer to me. He also made it clear that no matter what mom and dad or rather Lara and Emerson as I'm suppose to call them now say; he's still my brother and nothing will change that. I also found out that he practically disowned then and is currently giving them all the silent treatment and ignoring them. There is nothing worst that Dominic can do to you than to ignore you, when he gives you the silent treatment it drives you crazy because he's the type of person you just always want to talk to.

I was about to go down to the kitchen when a heart wrenching pain shot through me, I don't understand why I'm feeling pain after all I did accept Noah's rejection.

After about an hour the pain subsided to a dull ache and I could move again. Changing out of my pj's I threw on a Jean shorts, a black tee and my flip flops.

Making my way down stairs and out the front door ignoring the whispers and laughter I head in the direction of the only elder in this whole pack that would talk to me, elder Norris. She's one of the oldest witches in the pack she lives near to the borders of our territory by herself she had a son but he died in the war so now she's all alone.

I knock on the cabin door twice before she answered, she had a surprised look when she saw it was me

"catty long time no see come on in dear I just put on a pot of tea" she said inviting me inside

"thanks I hope I'm not interrupting anything I was hoping to ask you a question" I replied as I followed her to the living room

"oh no dear I wasn't doing anything of importance, let me go get our tea then you can ask me your question" she said as I sat on a chair.

A few minutes later she came back out with a tray filled with biscuits and cheese along with two cups of camomile tea.

"Ok dear what is it that you wanted to ask me?" She questioned while placing the tea on the coffee table between two chairs one of which i occupied.

Taking a sip of my tea I said

"well am sure you heard that I found my mate and that I was rejected and humiliated in front of the whole pack"

she had a sad look on her face as she said "yes I heard am so sorry you had to go through that"

"it's ok besides I'd rather be rejected and lonely for the rest of my life than be mated to noah"

she simply nodded at me

"what I wanted to ask you though was if a person is rejected and they accept the rejection should they still feel the pain when their mate sleeps with someone else ?"

She looked questioningly at me before saying

"well yes and no. You see they will still feel pain but not as much as they would if they didn't accept the rejection it would be like a dull ache in the heart"

"then why does it feel like a truck is running over me when noah sleeps with someone" I asked frustratedly

"what!!? You shouldn't be feeling that much pain" she said surprisingly

"yeah well I feel it almost every day" I said

"Unless-" she started

"Unless what?" I asked

"give me your hand" she replied

I stuck my hand out to her and she placed it in hers as she used her other hand to draw circles in my palm while lowly chanting some incoherent words. She gasped and let go of my hand with a scared look on her face

"what's wrong?" I asked confused

she sat their trembling before she said

"The first pain you felt was because noah has now marked and mated another girl but that isn't what is triggering your episodes as the marking of another has finally broken any trace of your bond"

I just shrugged not really caring as I expected that from him

"Also someone placed a binding spell on you and a very old one at that it seems to have been there since your birth the problem is though whatever it is they were binding is now free and it seems to be very dark angry and dangerous so I'd be careful if I were you. also I would advise you not to tell anyone about this because I don't know what they would do to you if they found out and you need to learn how to harness and control this power so it doesn't consume you, which it can easily. To put it simply so you can understand the gravity of what i saw, there is a monster inside of you the likes of which I've never seen before.

"What!!! How can that be I'm human" i say in disbelief

"Based on what I've seen you are anything but human" elder norris replied

I sat there frozen to my seat, who could have spelled me I don't know anyone other than the people in the pack and what could this monster be?

Thanking elder Norris and promising to visit again soon I left the cabin to ponder over my dilemma in the comfort of my room.

Opening the doors of the pack house I walked to the kitchen again ignoring the laughter and whispers around me I opened the fridge to grab some left over lasagna.

The moment I opened the fridge it immediately slammed shut, I looked up to see Cassidy she's a vampire

"there isn't any food here to be wasted on freaks so why don't you go get your own" she hissed

I sighed seeing everyone looking in our direction to find out my next move. I have no intention of fighting with her so I just shake my head and walked away, everyone laughed calling me names but like usual I ignore them.

Going up the stairs I bumped into Ashley jasmine's so called best friend

"look it's the freak walk far from her or you might catch something" she sneered

"oh stop it Ashley Jasmine replied

"she's no longer a freak she's a rejected freak"

the both of them burst out laughing running down the stairs I on the other hand made my way up to the third floor and into my room.

My friends had all gone out to the lake today for some party that was keeping there, after I managed to blackmail and force them to go without me seeing as they were looking forward to it all of last week and I didn't want to ruin their fun.

I turned on the TV scrolling through Netflix trying to find a movie; clicking on the princess diaries I snuggled up under my covers and got comfy. Halfway through the movie pain shot through my whole body worst than its ever been this time I felt like I couldn't breathe and my body felt like it was on fire however it also felt like some part of me has been freed.

After half an hour of cringing in pain and breathing exercises I could move around again I feel tears well up in my eyes as I thought about my life throughout the years, why did all this have to happen to me I didn't do anything to anyone and yet I always get treated like crap, why didn't my parents want me why did they leave me in the woods of all places I tried to hold back the tears but eventually they slipped pass my lashes and the water works began.

I cried for about two hours by this my eyes were swollen my throat hoarse and my body felt drained. It was already dark outside and i could hear the party at the lake still going on meaning the guys aren't back as yet the pack house also sounded empty, guess everyone went to the party.

I got up from the floor, my mind wondering back to what elder Norris said, how am I going to control something I have no knowledge about. Maybe I should take a vacation but taking a vacation meant returning when school began again and that wouldn't solve anything I might not feel the effects of the mate bond but I'd still be abused and bullied being all alone wondering why my parents didn't want me so I decided I'm gonna leave. Not just the pack but the country on a whole I'll miss my friends and Dominic but I could always keep in touch.

Grabbing the big brown duffle bag i have in my closet I filled it with clothes and my essentials then I took my medium sized suite case and filled it with my shoes important documents etc. Looking back I'm actually grateful my friends forced me to go to the mall or I wouldn't have anything to pack right now. After packing everything I needed I got a piece of paper to write a note

To my whom it may concern

I'm leaving the pack and I won't be returning ever. Archangel Gabriel i apologize if you see this as an insult that was never my intention. To my five best friends and my awesome brother i will miss you guys so much but I can't keep living a life of misery I know you'll probably be upset with me just up and leaving without a proper goodbye but it was an in the heat of the moment decision i love you guys and I will miss you please take care and tell elder Norris I said thanks for everything.

-Catalaya

After writing my note I placed it on my pillow I grabbed my purse as well as my car keys then made my way downstairs with my luggages. Heading into the garage I close the door behind me then placed my bags in the trunk of my car, I put the key in the ignition then started the car, after taking one last look at the only home I've ever known I drove down the driveway and towards the Western borders.

After twenty minutes of driving I can see the borderline in front of me, the closer I get I see silhouettes of what look like people I hope whoever it is don't cause me any trouble, I sighed continuing my journey.

As I crossed the border someone stepped into the road I slammed onto the breaks before the car could hit them, turning up my headlights I realized it's..

"Merlin!!!?"

I say in shock then Harley Freya Alana and Aquarius walked out of the shadows with luggages in hand.

They all looked upset and I knew why but pretended otherwise.

"What are you guys doing here and why do have luggages with you?"

"Well we were about to leave the party around four in the evening when Lana got a vision, she saw you writing a note and you were crying at first we thought you were gonna try to commit suicide or something  so we hurried home but you weren't there, then we sensed you coming from elder Norris's cabin and we could tell you were distraught. While we were waiting she got another vision of you leaving so we all decided if you were leaving then we would too" Merlin told me.

"I can't believe you would leave without us cat after everything we've been through what happened to our oath?" Aquarius yelled

"I'm sorry guys I just didn't want you to uproot your lives for me" I told them sincerely

"yeah well you can't get rid of us that easily were the only Family you've got so pop the trunk so we can load up our luggage and hit the road" Alana said standing behind the car.

I can't believe their doing this for me I thought as I felt my eyes well up with tears. Wiping my face I popped the trunk and decided this is a new start for us all so no more tears, I drove off again after everyone got in as we made our way to new beginnings.