Chapter 27: Chapter 27

KIAN

Incredible anger spreads inside me. An anger I've never felt so intensely before. And in my life, there have already been a lot of things that I've been angry about. Estrela's mom is definitely a troublesome woman and she has no idea how amazing her daughter is. I think what Estrela said about her mother is pretty fucked up. But when she threw it out with her ex, almost all of my fuses blew. Never, and I mean really never, has the feeling of protecting someone been as strong as it is with her. I had no idea she was dating a motherfucker like that. I actually feel a little bad because I'm not exactly prince charming for them either. But I would never in my life raise my hand to a woman - no matter what she did. Estrela's sobs pull me from my thoughts on how best to kill this guy. She clung to me and buried her head in my chest while I stroked her hair.

"I'm here with you. I won't let anyone ever hurt you again, I'll put my hand in the fire for that," I say. She slowly raises her head. Her cheeks are smeared with tears and her beautiful eyes are red from crying. I put my hands on her cheeks and look deep into her eyes. "I will protect you, do you understand me?" Another tear falls from her eyes and I gently wipe it away. "Never will anyone hurt you again!" I hold her as tight as possible. I mean every word I say seriously. She's my girl now, and what's mine I'll protect with my life. I break away from her and look deep into her eyes once more. I want her to know exactly how serious I am. She breathes a sigh of relief, then smiles softly, which makes my heart beat faster. Her hands run through my dark hair, which hangs slightly over my forehead from the shower. She smiles as she brushes my hair back.

"You are so beautiful," she says as if lost in thought. Then her fingers wander to my left eyebrow, which is traversed by a scar. "A fight?" she asks. I shake my head. She raises her eyebrows questioningly. "Not? Then how did that happen?" I swallow and think carefully about whether I'm ready to tell her something about myself. I mean, after what she just confided in me, isn't it only fair that I also reveal something about myself?

"When I was a kid - I was 10 - there was a guy in our house..." I begin to relate. "I saw something I shouldn't have seen. He noticed me sniffing, then got angry and threw a glass ashtray at my head. Right here." I point to the scar that runs right between my left brow. I grimace. The memory rolls over me, it's still the most harmless thing I had to experience and only a small part of my crappy childhood.

"Who was this man?" I ball my hands into fists.

"A friend of my...mother."

"Your mother?" she asks hesitantly. I realize that I've already gone way too far with my narrative. I don't know if I'm ready to tell her all about my fucked up childhood. After a few seconds of silence where I didn't say anything, she murmured, "I understand if you don't want to talk about it." I look at her and she bows her head before I lift her chin slightly to get her looking at me again. Her eyes light up with hope.

"It's not a subject I like to talk about, yes. But it doesn't matter because it's in the past." She shakes her head.

"But I can see that it's still haunting you, Kian... I just want to understand you." She looks at me sadly. This time I'm the one who lowers my head. I feel her hand on my cheek and look up at her beautiful face. "You still need time... I'll listen to you when you're ready, okay?" God this woman is amazing and I just adore her more. She is perfect. And way too good for me. Fuck! I shouldn't be here. She shouldn't be sitting on my lap and looking at me with such emotion in her eyes. I'm an asshole... But the egoist in me can't let go of her - doesn't want to either. Yes, maybe I'm dragging her into the abyss, but maybe she's the one who pulls me out of the abyss. Maybe she's the right one who can save me She's the glimmer of hope I've always sought but never found.

And since I'm not very good with words, I let her feel what she means to me. I put my lips on hers, letting her feel what she's doing to me. Because she changes me... She kisses me back, digging her hands into my hair as I hold them to me. Our kiss becomes more and more intimate and demanding. Eventually she's lying on the couch, I'm leaning over her and between her thighs. My hands slide under her shirt, I slowly pull it up, exposing her stomach, then lower my lips to her soft skin there. She gasps and wraps her legs around my waist, pressing me against her body, my already hard cock slamming into her midsection. Fuck! I pull away from her and take off her top, then free her from her bra. I examine her closely. this torso, with those perfect breasts that are exactly a handful tall, that flat stomach that starts twitching as soon as I touch it there. I lower myself onto her and place my lips back on hers as my hand runs down her sides. I distribute kisses on her neck and my hand has already reached her right breast, where I gently caress the nipple.

"Kian!" she moans and throws her head back. I grin, loving her reaction as soon as I touch her. I feel her hands on the hem of my shirt, understand what she wants, and quickly pull it over my head. As soon as I'm shirtless, she devours me with her eyes. Examines all my muscles closely. I take her hand and place it on my chest, right where my heart is beating. Along with my hand on hers, I move hers towards my torso. My muscles twitch as soon as her hand touches them. She follows the movements I make with her hand with her eyes, then stops briefly over my waistband.

"What do you want?" I ask in a hot voice and slowly sink onto her. She breathes a sigh of relief when I touch her bare breasts. I breathe hotly into her ear, thrusting my cock in toward her midsection. She holds her breath. I look deep into her eyes. My hand opens her pants and then slides into her panties. As expected, she's already so wet that I could easily penetrate her, but I want her to say what she wants first. "Tell me what you want." My index finger runs through her wet column. Estrela groans, lifting her upper body to accommodate my touch.

"I want you, Kian!" she exclaims, breathless and panting. I grin contentedly, sliding my finger inside her. "O God!" She closes her eyes.

"Look at me," I order her, she does, as a reward I insert a second finger inside her. She slightly rolls her eyes. "You are mine. No one will ever be able to touch you the way I do. You'll only want me!" I lower my lips to hers, kissing her deeply. "Say it," I whisper against her lips, swollen red from our heavy kissing.

"I'm yours." She looks me in the eyes and I'm caught in them. See the sparkle in it, the desire.

"Good, because I'll never let you go again." I pull her into my arms and get up with her, carrying her into the bedroom and laying her gently on the bed. I kneel down in front of her, strip her pants and panties from her legs until she lies completely naked in front of me. Then I sit up and scrutinize her for a moment before I also separate from my clothes and finally free my hard cock. I reach into my jeans and pull out a condom, but Estrela stops me.

"I take the pill," she says, a little nervous. I stop and look at her. I have never been without a condom. Since I've slept with a lot of women, I didn't want to take any chances. It doesn't matter whether they claim to be contraceptive or clean. But with Estrela I am sure for the first time. I want her with nothing between us.

"Are you sure?" I ask anyway. she nods. "I get tested regularly and have always used a condom," I explain to her. I want her to know that it's important to me that she knows.

"I trust you, Kian." Those words mean more to me than I want to admit because I know how difficult it is for her to trust me. I drop the condom and lay over her, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear and kissing her gently.

"That means a lot to me." She smiles and this time puts her lips on mine. I move my hips forward, hitting her midsection, making her gasp in my mouth. My tip touches her beautiful center and I moan into her mouth. "You feel so good. I can't wait to penetrate you," I growl.

"Then do it!" I look at her longingly, looking down to where my cock touches her pussy. Then I fix my gaze on her beautiful eyes again, looking deeply at her and slowly inserting my cock into her. She holds my gaze as I sink into her. It almost drives me insane how good it feels.

"Fuck!" I gasp as my full length is inside her. "You're so tight. You feel so damn good!" I close my eyes No one will ever make me feel the way Estrela does.

"Kian, please move," she gasps. I follow her request, begin to move inside her. She closes her eyes. I scrutinize her. She is so damn beautiful! I feel something wet wringing down my cheeks. My feelings and sensations are clearly going through with me right now. I look at her while her eyes are closed and she enjoys my movement inside her. Her inner walls keep closing around me that I have to hold myself back from cumming right away. It's so damn good. She is so good! I think that's what love feels like. This is exactly how it feels to have arrived. Desiring someone so much, wanting to protect them, and feeling choked when you're not with them. I said I don't know what love feels like I thought, I can never love anyone because I have never felt love. But what if Estrela made it? She subconsciously showed me what it's like to love someone. What it's like to be in love - with her.