Chapter 47: Chapter 47

NAINA KUMARI

"Leave it. I became emotional. Just forget what I told you a while ago. It's fine. There is no need to put so much stress on your heart and mind." I felt his grip on my legs get loosen so I pulled them and sat on the bed folding my legs so that he can't hold my legs again.

"Please sit beside me." Patting the bed next to mine I asked him to sit with me in a calm tone.

"You told me earlier that we should talk. You told me what you wanted to do. Now it's my turn. Let me speak out my thoughts too." He silently sat next to mine.

"Wipe your tears first." Pointing at his tears I told him. If you're expecting me to wipe them then keep dreaming. I watch him do it himself.

I looked down at my hands which were resting on my lap.

"Kunwar Sa, I know you don't consider me as your wife. I am only the daughter-in-law of your house and a burden imposed on you forcibly. You had told me clearly on the first night of our marriage that there is someone else in your life and you do not want to spend your life with me. You brought me here. Why? Cause Pitaji and Maa Sa told you to do. Okay. Then you bring me to this apartment. You called me so many names. I haven't opposed you ever. I wasn't at fault still I have to bare all your accusations. It's not that I don't know how to fight back. It's because....."

No, I can't tell him that I love him that's why I didn't say anything to him.

"I have my reason. I came up with the decision to join your company it's not that what you think of me. It's about my self-respect. If I live on your money then every word of yours will come true. That's why I joined your company. I joined your company not because it is yours. Because I am new here. And I didn't have time. I saw the opportunity and grabbed it."

" Fortunately, I get the job. On the first day, I come to know who's your girlfriend. Many times I have witnessed you both in a very intimate situation. I tried my best to make me understand that you both love each other. And I'm nothing to you. I have died a thousand times whenever I used to see you both together."

I didn't realize that I was crying until I felt his cold fingers touching my cheeks wipping my tears.

He pulled back his hand and gave me his handkerchief. I took it and wipe my nose. I sniff and again continued.

"I know that night why you announced that I'm your wife."

"Why?" He asked me sternly.

"You cannot tolerate that someone else is asking the daughter-in-law of your house to be his life partner. Who is your namesake wife." I said bitterly.

"No, it's nothing like that." He quickly opposed me.

"Then what's the truth Kunwar Sa? Why did you announce that I'm your wife just when Vansh proposed to me? Why didn't you do it earlier? What do you want to imply, Kunwar sa? Just tell me. I really want to know today, what's going on inside your head?" Suppressing my anger I asked him.

"What you have witnessed that night is not true. Sometimes we misunderstood thing what we saw. What we saw with our eyes everything is not true. You just leave after seeing us kissing. You didn't stay. If you would have seen what had happened after you left you wouldn't have been arguing with me at this moment."

Now he's trying to make me understand that what I saw that night was all my hallucinations? Huhh! I can't believe this man.

"I'm not buying your words. I just want proof. Prove what you're saying is true. Only then I'll believe you otherwise forget it." I said sternly.

"I have no proof." He said in no voice.

I laugh in sarcasm. "Hmm. I understand. You know why I'm being so emotional about this matter?"

"Because I thought you are changing. You used to keep yourself away from her. You used to come early these days. You used to spend time with me. Either in the office or home."

"There's a ray of hope telling me that your relationship is not going to end. You are going to get your beloved one very soon. I was waiting for that day when you will come back to me." I chuckled with sarcasm and again start.

"But my hope shattered into pieces giving me unbearable pain in my heart when I saw you both together. That's why I'm behaving like that. Now don't act like you're not aware of my feelings for you." I found him bowing his head down. That means he knows. Still, he's doing this with me.

A sob escapes from my lips and I control myself from breaking down in front of him.

"Kunwar Sa I don't want your apology but love. What you can't give me ever. There's no place left for me in your heart. Legally you belong to me but emotionally you're hers. I can't stop you from loving her. I have no right on you." I said and looked down.

I was fighting inside against my emotions.

"I broke up with Rasiya."

What??? What did he say just now???

"You heard me right. I have broken up with her. And from onwards I'm going to try my best to improve our relationship. I want to give a chance to this marriage. Will you give me a second chance?" He asked me with a hopeful look on his face.

Ohh! Now he wanted to this marriage worked.

But why so sudden change? Why do I feel like something is fishy?

"Kunwar Sa, I don't want your sympathy. Out of pity, you're giving up on your relationship. You don't have to do this. I don't want to keep you in a relationship forcibly. Because of this, both of our lives will be ruined. It'll be better if we separate." My heart clenched with pain.

"I will go somewhere far away. So far away that no one can find me. You tell others, I ran away after deceiving you.

Then no one will blame you."

Suddenly he stopped me from talking further by placing his forefinger on my lips.

"Shut up. Keep your mouth shut. No more single words. Stop this nonsense. You're not going anywhere. You'll stay with me only. You're my wife. How can you even think about leaving me? I'm warning you, If you ever thought of leaving me again, no one would be worse than me."

He said with dominance.

Saying that he removed his finger off my lips and point at me.

"You're my wife. My better half. Right? I consider you my wife from the bottom of my heart. Now if you do not believe me, then should I write it down for you?"

I shook my head in no.

"Good. Now go to sleep. It's getting late we should sleep now."

Saying that he walked and lay down on the bed on the right side.

I sighed and get up to set my bed on the floor.

"Where are you going?" Suddenly he asked me from behind.

I turned and say. "Yes, I'm going to prepare my bed on the floor."

"What are we?" He asked something that went beyond my head.

"Pardon?"

"What's our relationship?" He asked.

"Ji, we're husband and wife." I give my response simply.

"Hmm. So it's obvious that we'll share the bed." His words fall like thunder on my head. And my eyes went wide.

"No, no I can't sleep with you." Shaking my head right to left I denied it quickly.

"Why? Does my body smell bad?" Saying that he began to sniff his own smell lifting his arm.

"No, no that's not the case," I said making a pout, playing with my fingers.

"Then hurry up and sleep beside me."

Patting on the empty place of his bed he beckoned me.

"No, no. You can sleep comfortably there. I'm fine with it."

Saying that I started spreading the mat on the floor. Suddenly I found myself in the air.

Guess how???

Kunwar Sa scoop me in his arm in a swift motion that it was like I were a feather.

He put me down on the left side of the bed carefully. And tucked me with the sheet properly.

"Don't be stubborn in front of me."

Saying that sternly he went to his side after switching off all the lights. He lay down next to mine and I instantly closed my eyes tightly. I never ever sleep with any male. But he is my husband.

My heart was beating so fast that he could hear it clearly from his side. Suddenly I felt his hand on mine. I didn't open my eyes but tried hard to get asleep. We were facing each other. But I couldn't dare to open my eyes. He's so close to me. I felt him take my palm into his both palm. Is he going to sleep holding my hand?

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"Jija, you know what happened last night?"

I exclaimed in joy jumping on the floor.

"Tush! Tush! Tush! Girl, have some shame. Such matters are not for discussion. Have you lost your nuts? She smacked my head and said.

"What?" I whined being confused while rubbing my head where she hit me.

"Wait a minute, what do you think I want to talk about?"Suddenly Something clicked into my brain.

What is she thinking?

"About that matter, What happens between husband and wife."

I found her blushing while saying.

"OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! JIJAAAA!!!

What are you even thinking?"

I slap my forehead.

"Nothing happened between us. You're mistaking." Folding my hands against my chest I said.

"Then you tell me what happened last night?"

"I wrapped him around my finger last night," I said grinning like a winner. I narrate to her everything that happened last night.

"Then have you forgiven him?"

"Nuhh!!! I don't want to forgive him so easily. There's a saying, If we get something easily, then we do not appreciate it. That's why I'm not going to accept his apologies now. Firstly, I want to know why he's asking for my forgiveness. Secondly, why did he break up with Rasiya when he loves her a lot? I have to find answers to all these questions first, then I will think about that should i forgive him or not."

She sighed and said, "To be honest, I did not even understand why did he break up with her?"

"Hmm, there's something we need to find out as soon as possible. Now leave it aside. We should cook fast otherwise Kunwar Sa will get late for his office. And if he gets late for office then he would leave without having breakfast. So we should do it fast." I said and Jija nodded.

We started making breakfast while discussing about how to find out his real intention.