Chapter 38: Chapter 38

Ingrid's POV

Until Raya fell asleep, Indigo did not really let go of her. I just stared at him as he watched her sleep. I panic when he stood up so I just pretended to enter the bathroom. I was just there for how many minutes even though there was really nothing to do.

I cleaned my body earlier. I just don't really know where I'm going to sleep now. Maybe he'll be next to our child, and I shouldn't be next to them.

When I came out, I almost jumped in panic when I saw Indigo just standing in front of the bathroom while folding his arms. I couldn't stop biting my lips when I saw that his serious eyes went straight at me.

"Let's talk." I felt like all my hair is standing up because of his cold voice. I just bit my lips so hard before nodding. I was like a puppy who had done something wrong when we went to the veranda of the hotel. I also just play with my fingers because I also don't know what to say to him.

“What do you want to talk about?” I ask. I can't even look at him while I can feel his eyes on me.

“You can conduct a DNA test If you—” I hadn't finished speaking when he immediately talk.

"You think I can believe that Raya isn't my daughter even though I'm the only man who went through your life?" He interrupted what I said. I just bit my lips so hard and didn’t even know what to say to him.

I even heard his weak curse, obviously just suppressing his own anger at me. I know what I did is really not right, I just don’t really know how to say or should I say I don’t know if I should talk. Maybe I was just really scared. I was scared of many possibilities because we are happy now. We had a happy life so I was afraid our lives would be complicated.

"I'm sorry… I just don't know how to say it I just don't know…" I can't even continue to say because I already feel the tightness in my chest.

"I'm just not really ready… Sorry…" I said, still looking at my hand.

"When will you be ready, Ingrid?" he asked.

"I'll tell you too…"

“When? When does she get older? When I'm no longer given an opportunity to take care of her? When, Ingrid?” he asked. There was anger on his face when I looked at him but he was still trying to calm himself. I just quietly accepted his anger.

"Fuck…" he exclaimed. I can still see the anger on his face.

"There are so many times when you can say that we have a child but you still chose…" He could not even continue what he was going to say because of chest tightness.

"How can I tell if I see that you're happy?" I asked without holding back my tears.

“How can I tell if your life is already fine? I don't want to bother you anymore, Indigo!”

“How did you know I was happy? Are you a mind reader now?” he asked sarcastically. I feel like I'm seeing Indigo from college that when he's angry he always retaliates when he answers. I bite my lips because of what he said.

"Sorry… I'm sorry…" I have nothing else to say because whatever I do, I also know that I was really at fault. We just kept quiet for a long time because of that. He also seemed to be deep in thought as I just remained looking at my hands. I don't know how to deal with the anger on his face. He also seems to be calming himself.

"Tell me about her," he said so I nodded. Only then was given the opportunity to look outside.

"Raya Francheska Cornel." I could feel him looking at me because of what I said. Even if we are no longer together I will never deny his surname to her. Although I didn't give him the chance to let her meet our daughter.

“6 years old. She's currently in grade 1. She's easy to get upset but doesn't cry that much. She’s the type of person who is really strong. She doesn’t often say what she hears to other people. Most of the time her true emotions are often hidden. She's friendly, she often talks to anyone. She's polite so most people like her. She's also smart, top 1 when she graduated from kindergarten. ” When I looked back at Indigo, I saw him taking down notes on what I was saying. I don’t know where he got his notebook but he’s just serious about what he’s doing.

“She loves to plant, there are 57 plants in our garden. She's part of the organization who have a platform to plant. She has many friends,” I said.

"How many?"

"About 25 maybe," I said.

"Who?" he asked. I thought it was just a joke but when I looked at him, he was serious as he waited for me to mention the names of Raya's friends. My lips just parted because of that. I just mentioned her close friend.

“She likes palabok, menudo, and halo-halo. She often goes with her Aunts when I'm not around to stroll. She likes nature. She often just wants to look at it. She also loves staying in the school garden. She has ten plants that she has planted there,” I said. I can see the amazement in Indigo as he writes that.

I almost finished telling him about Raya at dawn. He has a lot of questions that I patiently answer. I can also see how determined he is to know his child.

"You can sleep with Raya, I'm going to stay here," I said pointing to the chair in the living room. I know that he also wants to be with our child. I just want to give it to him. Today is also the first night he will be with her.

"It's fine—" I cut him off there.

"It's okay, I'm going to stay here," I said with a small smile and went straight to the chair. I just organize my pillow before I turned around to try to sleep. It wasn't difficult for me because I was really tired of crying. It also feels light because I have nothing to hide anymore.

I just woke up the next day to the faint whispers of Indigo and Raya. I even looked at the blanket that was already in my body. I couldn't help but secretly smile there. I don’t know if it was Raya or Indigo who gave it, whoever it is I’m still happy.

"Good morning, Nanay!" Raya smiled widely at me before she kissed me on the cheek. I smiled there and even managed to mess up my daughter's hair.

"Good morning, Raya," I said to her.

"Nanay, let's eat, Tatay is already cooking," she said so I nodded. She also quickly approached her father. I'm pouted because it looks like I really have a competitor for her attention but they're actually cute. I don't know where Indigo bought the apron but Raya and he has the same design.

"Good morning," I greeted Indigo, who was the only one paying attention to Raya. I know until now he was still angry, just really persevered last night to talk to me because he wants to know about his daughter.

"Morning," he greeted softly because his daughter was staring at him.

I just watched him as he sit beside Raya. I just smiled too when I saw him putting food on her plate. I was about to eat when I stopped because he didn't just put dishes on Raya's plate he also put a dish on my plate. I feel like my heart jumping because of the small gesture from him but it also immediately dropped when I saw Raya just gesturing to him. I just smiled at my daughter.

I was just silent as I listened to him asking questions to our child.

When we finished eating, I was going to go home but Indigo spoke.

“Sandro already brought your clothes as well as Raya's clothes. You can just take a bath here. Let's go to school at the same time,” he said so I just nodded.

As soon as we got there, the students were curious, and add to that, my co-teachers gossiped immediately. It seems like they spread the news to the faculty immediately. I can't help but feel embarrassed when Raya and Indigo seem to see nothing.

“Are you going to drop Raya? This is her lunch box,” I said to Indigo while handing him the lunch box to get away from the gossip but he just looked at me.

"I can't carry that. I'm carrying Raya." My lips parted and I had no choice but to nod.

I wish I could have stayed away from them but I was just holding my daughter's lunch while following them to the elem department. When we passed his team, they immediately smiled at us. I don’t know what they were thinking but because of my haste yesterday and Indigo following us, I seem to already know what they're thinking.

“Bye, Nanay! Bye, Tatay!” Raya said as she kissed us two on the cheek. I can't stop smiling at her.

"Bye, Ma'am, see you later," she said to me so I laughed. She can't really forget her silliness. Indigo looked at me so I just pouted and averted my gaze. I started walking faster but soon he was already beside me. Maybe because of the size of his limbs.

“Good morning, Ma’am, Ingrid! Is he your Mr. Right?” Some students in the high school department tease me. I couldn't help but close my eyes and even managed to scold them. If Ma'am Santillan found out that I was flirting here on the school grounds, I might be expelled in no time. That would be too much.

Faculty is already on the side so I don’t know if I’m going to say goodbye to Indigo or what.

"I'm going here," I said, so he just waited for me to get inside. I just bit my lips so hard to keep from smiling. That man with you is angry right now, Ingrid. Don't even try to flirt!

“Wow, Ma’am, Ingrid! You really have long and shiny hair! That's why you are not answering your suitor her, you have a type! ” my co-teachers laughed at me. Embarrassed, I went to my seat and tried to divert my attention. They didn't just leave me alone.

"Let's just have a drink, Sir Jonan," they laughed at one of our co-teachers. I just shook my head and ignored their teasing.

“Hey, you're amazing! You're too fast, you already introduce him to your daughter?” Gracia tease with a smile as she approached me too. Her table was too far away from here but she even manage to go just to annoy me.

"There are also many handsome people who courted you but your daughter really good at choosing," she laughed.

"That's good. She should inherit that from me," she said, almost applauding. I can't help but shake my head at her because of that.

"Will you believe me if I tell you that he is Raya's father?" I asked her.

"Why not — Huh?" She almost startled me at what I said so I just laughed softly. I wouldn't have paid any more attention to her teasing but it only made her even more curious because of what I said.

“Wow, that's why you're picky! Your ex is really a high standard!” she said loudly so even some of my co-teachers looked at me.

"You know sometimes I want to pinch you to death," I said so she just laughed.

When I went out to enter my class, I stopped to see Indigo who was still outside the faculty.

"You forget your lunch," he said, so my lips parted. I thought the lunch he had brought earlier was for him. I bit my lip hard before accepting the paper bag. He turned around but also stopped to face me again.

"Don't forget to eat." So the butterflies in the stomach are back again.