Chapter 12: Chapter 12

Ingrid's POV

"Hi," Indigo greeted me.

"Good evening, how's the movie fest?" I asked him. He smiled at me because of that.

“It’s cool. There are many good indie movies there,” he said. He started to tell the story while I was very interested to hear it.

“How about you? How was your day?” he asked still smiling at me.

"It's fine, nothing unusual," I said.

"Is there many customers yesterday?" he asked further.

"Hmm, a little bit," I said, still thinking. We continued the conversation while there were no customers. I slightly frowned at him when he handed me a ticket.

"What is this?" I asked.

"Let's watch that when you have a day off," he said while smiling at me. I felt sorry for him because of that. I want to try but it's also a waste of time to do that. I still want to spend my time with my siblings and of course Mama.

"I can't," I said so he immediately nodded.

“We can watch if you're free. After that, we will go home immediately. Just think that I treated this for your graduation,” he said.

“I can't accept that. Apart from being embarrassing to take something from someone, my siblings also need me,” I said with a small smile. He stared at me because of that. He just sighed.

“Alright, if you ever change your mind, go with me. I won't take it back, I won't have someone to give it away to begin with,” he laughed.

"Why are you good to me?" I couldn't help but ask him because it was really amazing how kind he was to me. People usually tend to be kind so that the kindness shown to others will return to them. Such is what people around me always do so it’s amazing that he hasn’t asked for something I return.

"Why? Do I have to be mean to you?" he asked with a frown.

Eventually, I just couldn’t help but think about it.

When I got home I couldn't help but stare at the ticket he gave me.

"Wow, did you buy a movie ticket, Ate?" Irah asked in astonishment as she approached me to take a look at it.

“Ah, no. Someone gave it to me, I won't use it either,” I said so she immediately looked at me in surprise.

“Huh? Why, Big Sister? You only have that once!" Irah said.

"I don't have time for this, Irah," I said, still shaking my head.

"What's the use of your day off, Big Sis?" she laughed while questioning me. My eyes were glued to her because of that.

“If you are thinking about us. Sandro and I won't go anywhere. We are big. Don't think about us, Ate” she told me. Irah is only in grade 6 but she's becoming more mature these days.

“I will rest here at home, Irah. Don't worry,” I said while laughing at her.

"Gosh, if you don't want to go there, why are you staring at it, Big Sister?" she asked me with her eyes still narrowing. I was silenced by her question.

“It's really okay, Big Sister, promise! I will watch over them! It's your time for yourself now,” she told me. I can't help but mess up her hair. I'm kinda thankful for them but at the same time, I also feel sorry for my siblings.

"Is it really okay?" I ask. Shee immediately nodded.

"You should enjoy it, Big Sister," she said to me so I just smiled.

When I told that to Indigo, he was really happy.

And now, the time has come. I don't know what to wear even though almost all my clothes are faded because I haven't bought a new one. It can still be used anyways.

I just wore my fitted pants and the white t-shirt before wearing my sneakers. When it was over, I went out and said goodbye to my family. Before I could leave the two of them, they even thumb up to me. I couldn’t help but laugh because they were so considerate at their age.

"Hi," I said to Indigo. Our meeting place is in front of the convenience store. I laughed a little when I heard Aling Gloria screaming while teasing us.

"You're beautiful, Lodicakes," Indigo said with a wide smile when he looked at me.

"Don't even say some things that I won't believe, this is how I look every day," I said. Except for the lip gloss that was simply applied, nothing has changed in my style so I know he was just really teasing me.

"That's it, you're beautiful every day," he said so I looked at him. It's just embarrassing that he's telling me things like this.

“Stop that, Indigo. Don't try to even make a move. I don't have time for that,” I said so I only heard his weak laugh before he followed me.

We just tried to ride a jeep to the cinema. When I got there I also couldn’t help but get excited. This is the first time I entered here in the cinema after Mom and Dad separated. We used to be here but now it's already done. Our relationship is already messy.

We were quiet when we started watching the film. Neither of us spoke. Both are just focused on what is being watched. The film is good, the story teaches a lot.

"I can say that it's kinda cool, only one setting is used but the whole plot is wholesome," Indigo told me. I couldn't help but nod there.

"You said it right and I live for the transition. Did you see it?” I asked. I can't help but smile as I remembered that. We just continued the conversation while walking in the mall.

"They said we never watched the whole movie," he randomly said.

"Huh?" I ask confusedly. We just finished a whole one. What does he mean?

"We never watched a full movie because we blink all the time," he said so I stopped walking and stared at him for a long time.

“What the heck, Indigo? I already have too much to think about in my life. Don't even add more,” I said when I realized what he said. I made him laugh because of that.

"I can't just think about it before going to sleep, Ingrid," he laughed, still shaking. He's really random but it's really entertaining. I know I was boring to talk to because often I have nothing to say but with him? He doesn’t seem to be running out of topics.

We're eating ice cream when someone suddenly grabs me.

"Big Sister Ingrid!" I was a little surprised to see Marga, Jayvee’s sister.

"Hey?" I ask.

“Can you come with me? Big Brother had an accident, Ate!” she said to me so I was immediately overwhelmed with concern. Even though I kept saying he cheated on me, we were still friends before we dated. He was there when I was on the verge of giving up.

"I'm sorry, Indigo, I need to go," I said to Indigo who just look at me. I didn't even wait for him to say anything. I was just focused on leaving.

I got in Marga's car. I turned to her after that.

"How did you know I was here?" I ask.

“I asked your brothers and sisters, Ate. They said you're here,” she said.

"What happened to your older brother?" I ask.

"Car accident," she said while looking nervous.

When we got there, I couldn't help but frown because we only went to their house. He was completely fine. I don't know if I should be angry or relieved but when the asshole smirk at me, I can't help but feel my blood boiling.

"As I said, you can't really stand living without me, Ingrid," Jayvee said with a smile when he saw me. The concern on my face disappeared. That was replaced by anger and disgust. What the fuck is wrong with him? Does he really think that everything just revolves around him? What the heck is wrong with them? I have a plan but I went here just because I was worried.

I looked at Marga who immediately averted her gaze.

"I'm sorry, Big Sister," she murmured. I don’t know how I will feel but only one prevailed. Madness.

"Hija, you're here," Auntie said to me. She smiled broadly when she looked at me.

"Eat here first, Hija, it's time for lunch," she said to me. Auntie has been kind to me and I won't be able to show her how badly I want to punch her son. I just smiled sparingly before nodding at her.

When we went inside I was very welcome in their house. I was next to Jayvee at the table. They are used to us because they often take me here to their house as a friend of Jaybee.

We just kept quiet while eating, Auntie was asking questions about me.

"Why are you not visiting here often, Hija?" She asked me.

"Ah, I'm busy, Auntie. I already have a job," I said.

“Oh, Jayvee told me too. Are you looking for a scholarship for this school year? Just tell me, Jayvee's dad is looking for hard-working students,” she said, smiling at me before simply glancing at his son. I just smiled.

"Thank you, Auntie, but as of now I don't need one," I said with a small smile. As much as possible, I want to try to stand on my own two feet.

Until the meal was over, they asked me so many questions that I answered simply. When it was over I turned to Jayvee.

"Can we talk?" I said, smiling at him.

“Is it about us? Do you want to get back together?” he asked. I just said to him that we should talk outside. Their village is full of trees so it's not that hot.

"I still remember how we first talked to each other, those times when no one even talked to me but you… You chose to talk to me."

“I still remember that you were my bestie in this scary world. You've always been that person I think of when I need someone to lean on. ” I even smiled when I looked back at him. I saw that he was just stunned while listening.

"I still don't know why? Where did it all stop? Where did everything start to change? But I'm still happy that I somehow met you,” I said so he immediately turned to me. He's shaking his head now.

“Ingrid, don't be like this, I don't want to listen. I won't have anything to hold on to anymore if you do this,” he said, still covering his ears. I just looked at him before smiling a little. When he removed it, I continued.

“Thank you for those 2 years, Jayvee. Thanks for the happy memory. Thanks for being my boyfriend. Thanks to all of those things you have done for me. I'm sorry too, I don't know why but still forgive me for not being good enough. I'm sorry if you had to look for someone else because I wasn't good enough,” I said.

“No, Ingrid, I was wrong. I'm at fault, I'm sorry… ” he said. I just smiled at him.

"Now, I'm closing our book, this is the last part of it and this is also the last time I'll talk to you about it. I'm serious this time," I said smiling at him before tapping him on the shoulder. He just remained stunned there when I left him.

Instead of thinking about that breakup, I don't know why but I keep on thinking about someone else.

For one week, I could barely see Indigo so I couldn’t help but wonder where he was. I'm used to him always hanging out here at the convenience store. I bit my lip so hard to think that he might have been angry when I left him just because someone needed me. I haven't even apologized yet because first of all, I don't know where he really lives. Second, I don’t have a cellphone to call his number. Third, he never came back here to the convenience store.

I just stopped to think when I saw who was coming inside. I immediately straighten my back when I saw who was on my mind. It's Indigo.