Chapter 42: Chapter 42

Ranveer's POV

I opened the room to see that the room was totally dark except the moon light coming from the window.

I went inside the room to see her in a red saree, with mangalsutra around her neck and sindoor on her forehead which made her look different from the other days.

When she moved a strand of her hair behind her ear, the sound of bangles was the only sound in the room.

I looked at the deep scar on her forehead which was caused by me.

Every time this scar made me realize that we will only hurt each other.

And, sometimes it is better to leave apart than to stay with each other and hurt each other.

"Ranveer why are you doing this?" she asked and I scrunched my nose in confusion.

Does she know about it ?

She came and stood before me and traced my cheek with her ring finger.

"I want to spend this night with you and want to remember each and every part of you," she said and started removing the buttons of my shirt.

"Naina I." I was going to say something but she placed her middle fingers on my lips.

"Today I just want to feel you," she said and our eyes met.

She was looking at me and slowly removing the remaining buttons of my shirt.

Today I wanted to spend every second of the night with her. I wanted to memorize each and every part of her so that I could live with those memories for the rest of my life as today will be our last night together.

As she was going to remove my shirt I held her hand and stopped her. I picked her in my arms and laid her on the bed. I looked at her and she closed her eyes as I caressed the sindoor on her forehead. It was making her look more beautiful.

I loved when she wore sindoor but I never told her as it was her personal decision. I caressed her and move downward and looked at her mangalsutra which I had wrapped around her neck during our marriage, which made her my wife.

My wife.

I love you so much Naina but you will never be happy with me.

Today she was looking so beautiful that I wanted to sit here and look at her for hours.

Remembering each and every lines, moles and curves of her body.

I always loved her in saree but as she was not comfortable with it I never told her but now when I am looking at her I knew that she understood what I love without me saying it.

I hope you will know how much you mean to me.

She opened her eyes and looked at me and our eyes met but before she could say anything I took her hands and removed the bangles one by one and kissed her finger tips.

As the moonlight shined on her she truly looked like an angel. Not being able to hold back I lowered my mouth to her and kissed her. I devoured her mouth and found her as hungry for me as I was for her. My tongue plunged between her lips, tasted her, found her tongue twined around mine. My hands drove into all of that lush black hair, grabbed a handful of it as her fingers slid into my hair and deepened the kiss. Our body melted against each other. I could feel her fullness against me. I removed her saree and blouse in a hurry and groaned when I found she was not wearing a bra and need to touch her overwhelmed me.

I kissed each and every part of her body and as I was moving downwards my hands met her underskirt. I removed the underskirt and threw it and at last removed the last piece of cloth which was in my way and I looked at her laying naked infront of me waiting to be devoured by me. At this Moment all I could feel was the heat and the need for each other.

"I need you...please ranveer."

That's all I needed to loose my control. I spread her thighs and slid inside her and started biting her neck softly as I liked my marks over her. She hugged me tightly and when she started scratching my back I knew she was reaching her climax but she was stopping herself as she knew I loved when we both come together. I was close and I knew she felt it when she pulled me close to her and we both reached our climax.

The unforeseen tomorrow was not important and all that matter was right this moment where we were embraced with each other as we both came down from our peak and a small smile came onto my lips as I saw her sindoor and mangalsutra.

But then my eyes again went towards her forehead and all the bitter memories came back looking at her scar.

I should not think about it at this Moment.

Tonight we were peaceful, in love and pleasure all that's all mattered in the moment.

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Next day I woke up and was shocked to see that Naina was not in my arms.

I remembered last night how we made love but she was nowhere to be found.

Was last night a dream?

I looked at myself and as I realized I was naked and then my eyes fell on the chair where my clothes were folded.

I woke up and wore a shirt and a pant and looked all around the house but she was nowhere and then I came back to my room and my eyes fell on something.

There was a page under the table lamp.

I opened the page and was shocked to see the first two words.

Where was she?

And why had she written a letter to me ?

My husband,

I am writing this letter to you because I don't have the courage to say whatever is in my heart in front of you.

You know how I am right? I don’t talk or view my opinions much and I never needed to because you would understand everything without me saying anything.

Each and every moment spent with you were best moment of my life. Ranveer I love you and I will love you till my last breathe but after everything happened in the last few days I know that we can't be the same together. A lot has changed in our lives.

You know if I could go back and change anything I would change the plan I made with Sameer. I will regret it till the end of my life but the thing I regret the most is meeting Sameer. I love you Ranveer with everything I have in my heart. You gave me everything but I didn't have much to give other than the moments we spend together which was not a lie. I never pretended with you.

I will always love you but I know I can't gain your trust again because of the stupid things I did. I know you want to be free from me and this relation and that's why I have signed the divorce paper and kept it in the drawer of our, sorry YOUR room.

I love you Ranveer and I can’t look at you when you ask me to sign the divorce papers. I know you want to leave me and you can never love me like you used to and our relationship can never be the same but I love you Ranveer and I have written this so many times that you might be tired of reading it so I will end this letter by saying that I am freeing you from me and this relationship because I always want you to be happy even if that happiness is not with me.

Yours wife,

P.s. I am writing this letter before signing the divorce papers. Maybe this is the last time I can call myself your wife.

P.p.s. I will never forget the time spent with you. Days with you were the best days of my life. I love you.

And thanks for giving me such a wonderful Mom. She was the Mom I never had. You know it's sad that when we leave someone we don’t only leave them but everyone and everything related to them.

Anyways I should end this letter but I want to just talk with you. It's been days since I last talked with you. Since WE last talked properly.

I love you, forever and always, till my last breathe.

Yours wife,

Naina Singhania.

I also love you Naina.

I love you so much.

I never knew she saw the divorce papers.

The day she got hurt and after looking at her scar I decided that we should part ways because I don’t want to be like him.

I don’t want to hurt her.

Every time what he said in the hospital was going through my head.

And you know first time I hit you I cried in the bathroom but after that it was like a power to me, that I can control you.

I am afraid that like him I will make a habbit of hurting her and it's better to stay apart than to hurt her.

Every time that scar makes me scared that I will be like him and hurt her.

That day I went to the office of a lawyer, who is also my class mate and told him I want to take a divorce from my wife.

After some hours he gave me the divorce papers and explained me where we both should sign and all the legal procedure.

Today I wanted to tell her about the papers and make her understand that it's better to part ways but I am surprised that she already knew about it and signed it before I could talk with her.

Ranveer why are you surprised ?

You wanted this .

Yes. I wanted this.

I opened my cupboard and all her clothes and everything was gone as if she was never here.

As if last night never happened.

Last night she was looking so beautiful. Her red saree, those bangles and her sindoor and mangalsutra were increasing her beauty. She knew about the paper and that's why she was saying those weird things.

She wanted to make me happy and spend one last night in my arms before leaving.

But how can she leave without saying anything ?

I should not be upset because I wanted this.

Naina I don't want to hurt you.

And you know first time I hit you I cried in the bathroom but after that it was like a power to me, that I can control you.

I folded the letter and kept it in my wallet.

I will hurt you Naina.

I am sorry.

I love you.

I love you so much.

I will always love you.

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