Chapter 39: Chapter 39

Naina's POV

I wore red kurti with yellow leggings and went in the hall to see uncle cooking.

"Uncle today I will take lunch for Ranveer,” I said as he was cutting onion.

"Madam, is sir fine?" he asked and I realized why he was asking it.

"Yes uncle he is fine. Thank you for helping me yesterday."

"You don't have to thank me again and again. Ranveer sir never drinks that's why I was worried when yesterday I saw him in such a state,” he said.

It's all because of me uncle.

"He is fine,” I said and he nodded his head in a yes and I went to my room.

I was already ready.

I did my hair and applied some lip gloss.

I decided to read a story book in the meantime because whenever I sit idle Ranveer's words were echoing in my ears.

I tried to read a chapter but failed miserably.

What is going on in his head?

I am sorry Ranveer.

I am the reason for all this.

I tried to paint.

I sat on the chair to paint but my mind was blank.

Nothing came in my mind so I just sat there and thought about everything that happened.

He was hurt because of me.

He got drunk because of me.

All those hurtful words he said when I called him.

The more I tried to remove the thoughts, the more it came.

So many beautiful Moments we shared and I messed everything up.

I decided to go to the kitchen and take a look on what uncle was doing.

He had made rice and now he was making matar paneer.

I stood beside him and was looking at how he was making matar paneer.

After he made matar paneer, he packed the tiffin and gave it to me.

"Thank you uncle,” I said and we both left the house.

I took an auto towards his office.

After almost twenty minutes I reached the office.

The peon greeted me while I was entering the office.

As everyone saw me each and every employee left their work, stood up and greeted me 'good morning' as if I am the boss.

I was astonished by their reaction.

I went towards his cabin.

I remembered the Moments we spend together in his cabin.

I opened the door of his cabin and he was writing something.

He was looking so tired.

"I told all of you to knock an.." he looked at me and stopped what he was saying.

"Hi,” I said as I sat on the chair.

"What are you doing here?" he asked but I didn't reply and took my chair in front of him and now I was sitting in front of him without the table as a barrier between us.

"Today uncle had made matar paneer for you. It's one of your favourite, right?" I asked as I opened the tiffin and gave it to him.

"What are you doing here? Is this some of your new plan?" he asked.

"Have your lunch,” I said ignoring him.

"Tell me one thing Naina the basic things like lunch, dinner, coffee was also planned?" he asked but I didn't answer him.

"Anyways, leave all that, tell me how both of you planned it? After I came to office you used to call him and tell him about the day and you both used to plan together to fool me?" he asked.

"Ranveer..."

"No..no.. just tell me. Or you used to take a pen and paper and write the dialogue you will say to me and Sameer used to write my dialogue, right?"he asked.

Naina don’t let his words affect you.

"But how did Sameer know my dialogues?" he asked and was quiet for few minutes.

I took that time to look at him.

How can everything change in a day?

"Oh I got it now. He knows how much stupid I am and that's why it was easy for him to write my dialogue, right Naina?” he asked and I could not control myself.

The tears started rolling down my eyes.

"So today this was the plan, to bring matar paneer for me?" he asked and his each and every word were piercing my heart.

"Ranveer I...I...lo...ve...I love you,” I confessed while stuttering and wiping my tears.

"I have only seen it in movies but for the first time I saw the effect of it in my real life,” he said and I looked at him.

"Ask me what?" he continued.

"What?"

"The effect of glycerin,” he said and I was too dumbfound to say anything.

"So tell me Naina how many bottles have you used for those fake tears?" he asked but I didn't reply.

"Answer me,” he demanded.

"Not..I..I have not used it.”

I was too afraid by the angry side of him.

"Then I must say you are a good actor. You can join in the movies,” he said.

"I love you Ranveer. I am sorry,” I said ignoring whatever he was saying.

"No, you don't love me you were pretending to love me. Everything was a lie,” he said as he threw the tiffin box and I hurriedly stood up.

I decided to leave his office.

"But you know what?" he said and I stopped in my tracks and turned around.

"Among all the lies one thing was real,” he said as he came and stood infront of me.

"Ask me what?" he shouted once again and I flinched.

"Wh..at?" I asked controlling my tears.

I hate when he is like this.

"The party in which you got drunk and you mumbled Sameer's name in your unconsciousness,” he said and left his cabin.

He left me alone in his cabin.

Alone.

Ranveer I love you.

Only you.

*****

I reached the house and laid on the bed and started crying.

Ranveer I am sorry. It's all my fault but I love you.

Nothing in our relationship was planned.

Everything happened naturally.

I wanted to tell him everything but he doesn’t want to listen to me and I don’t know will he believe me or not?

"You are crying?" I heard his voice and turned around to and found him looking at me.

Again I kept the door open.

But why did he came home so early?

"Oh ! I got it. You have put excessive glycerin and that's why you are crying again? Right?" he asked.

"My tears are not fake Ranveer,” I said as I sat on the bed and he sat in front of me.

"Tell me the times we kissed, we made love, oh sorry, I made love to you but it was only sex for you. Just a part of your plan. Right?" he asked and now I was getting angry.

"Anyways you and Sameer shared everything? The kiss, sex, our positions?" he asked and I was feeling disgusted by his words.

"A woman only sleeps with someone when she loves him,” I said and he looked at me.

Then he was quite for some seconds as if he was remembering something.

"Now I understood that why you were not ready to sleep with me after we got married? You wanted to be with him. Right? Then what changed? You both made a new plan or you pitied me and planned to sleep with me?"

"You are disgusting,” I said as his each and every word were breaking my heart into pieces.

Yes, at our wedding night I didn't gave myself to him because I thought I like Sameer and now I am facing the consequences of my foolishness.

He was right about our wedding night but he is wrong because I love him and decided to give myself to him just because I love him and wanted to be his in every way.

I decided to leave the room as his words were breaking me but as I was leaving he pulled me and pushed me on bed and in seconds he was on top of me.

"I am disgusting! I am disgusting! and what about you Mrs....Sorry Miss Mathur? Can you imagine what I am feeling right now? Everything was a lie. Every Moment, every minute, every second spent with you was a lie. You planned everything with your boyfriend and you are saying I am disgusting?" he shouted.

"Ranveer I love you and I am sorry,” I said softly as our eyes met.

He looked at me for few seconds and got up and then something caught his eye.

The photo frame which had a photo we took in Kashmir.

The day he proposed me.

We were so happy.

But everything changed.

"Ranveer nothing was planned,” I said as I walked towards him.

He went and took the photo frame in his hand.

"Have you shown the photos we have taken in Kashmir? You were looking so beautiful in that photos. Did he compliment your beauty?" he asked still looking at the photo.

"Ranveer please believe me. Nothing was planned."

Why are you hurting me so much Ranveer?

I know I was wrong but it's hurting.

"Believe you Naina? Really? Each and every time you lied to me and you want me to believe you? From the day we got married till I found your lies, you are making me a fool and lying to me and you are asking me to believe you?" he shouted as he threw the photo frame.

"No,” I shouted as the frame shattered into pieces.

He removed the glasses which was there on our photo and picked it up.

"I loved you Naina. I gave you everything. I trusted you because I loved you. You were my everything and I always wanted to make you happy because I loved you and then one day I come to know that you never loved me, you were pretending to love me and everything was a lie. You can never understand what I am feeling right now.” he said.

Loved ?

He looked at the photo which was in his hands and tore it.

I gasped.

"No,” I shouted.

"Can you see the broken photo frame and the photo which is torn?" he asked.

He broke the photo frame.

He tore our photo.

"I am asking you something Naina."

"Yes,” I mumbled.

"You have broken my heart into pieces like the broken pieces of the photo frame and you threw my love, feelings, emotions and trampled on it because you never wanted it and it's lying on the ground just like our photo,” he said and left.

Ranveer, you are wrong.

I never threw his love, feelings and emotions.

I looked at the photo frame and ran towards it.

"Aah.." a glass had pierced in my foot.

I removed it and sat on the floor and looked at our photo and the frame.

No Ranveer your love is in my heart.

I will never throw it.

I will preserve it.

I will never let your love stay on the ground.

I love you Ranveer.

I gathered all the pieces of our photo and as I joined the whole photo I caressed it with my hand.

We were so happy.

The tears rolled down my cheek thinking about how everything changed between us.

I will fix it.

Adhesive tape. I need tape.

It's in the drawer. I ran towards the drawer but in the process few glasses pierced my foot.

I removed the glass and went to the drawer and took out the tape.

Tomorrow I will look at my foot.

Now joining his love is important.

"and you threw my love, feelings, emotions and trampled on it because you never wanted it and it's lying on the ground just like our photo."

No this is wrong.

Your love is very precious for me.

I want your love.

I tried to join the photo and after few attempts I finally joined it.

Even though it was not perfect but I did not let Ranveer's love stay on the ground.

I looked at the broken pieces of photo frame.

"You have broken my heart into pieces like the broken pieces of the photo frame."

Ranveer I am sorry.

I walked towards the broken photo frame.

"Shit!” again a glass pierced my foot and I removed it only to realize that I was bleeding but at this Moment this was not so important.

I will fix the photo frame.

I gathered the broken pieces of the photo frame.

I will fix it.

Ranveer's heart and love.

I put all the pieces of the frame in its right place and now I have to joint it.

"What are you doing?" I heard Ranveer's voice and looked at him to see confusion written all over his face.

*****