Chapter 16: Chapter 16
Precious could only be silent. She looked at her mother and her eyes looked doubtful about something. Precious continued to wonder if she should say anything, but fear gnawed at her heart. Even though she was very burdened by all the secrets she had kept from her mother, Precious still could not tell.
Her biggest fear is that her mother will be disappointed in her and will blame herself for it.
So Precious just looked at her mother and smiled while saying "Nothing happened, everything's fine."
Although that sounds like a lie spoken to refuse to tell the truth or a denial. In fact Precious is telling the truth, nothing has happened and everything is fine or in other words she will make everything look like nothing happened. Precious will correct all her mistakes and bury them, even if it means she has to kill the life in her cage.
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Clouds adorn the clear sky and the wind shakes the leaves and flower petals that bloom in the hospital garden. Precious sat on one of the lawn chairs while watching people passing by in the hospital corridor. Some nurses and doctors and patients who walk with their families become an interesting sight for Precious.
A doctor saw Precious sitting alone in the park. She is Precious's obstetrician. Precious who was sitting still looked like she was thinking about something . The doctor decided to approach Precious and sit beside her. She glanced at Precious, but Precious did not seem to see her at all. Maybe Precious just didn't want to talk to her or indeed she wasn't bothered in the slightest.
"Do you know this is a favorite place for doctors?" said the Doctor Rane trying to attract Precious's attention
"No, and I don't want to know." Said Precious as if she wanted to end the conversation immediately
"Yeah, I just wanted to tell you too." Said Doctor Rane
"Are you still thinking about aborting your baby? Are you sure? I know this is none of my business, but what you are carrying is the life of a human whose destiny is related to you, "said Doctor Rane
"Don't try to change my mind. Why do you like to meddle in my business? " said Precious
"I just don't want you to regret having let go of the precious life in your womb. How about you take a class for pregnant women this afternoon? I will pay the class for you. " Said Doctor Rane
"Why do I have to join the class if I want to abort my baby?" said Precious in an annoyed tone
"Just follow it, there is no harm in joining just one class. If you decide to have an abortion afterwards, I won't bother you anymore. I will wait for you later this evening. " Said Doctor Rane
Precious was very upset because Doctor Rane continued to interfere in her personal problems. Precious felt that Doctor Rane was bothering her too much, especially since the Doctor continued to try to advise her on her abortion decision. Precious has already made a decision and she knows this decision may be the wrong decision, but letting the babygrow and be born will weigh heavily on her future life. Precious is very aware that there will be many problems and suffering if she maintains the baby.
Knowing everything made Precious very confused. However this is the first time for her. This is the first time Precious finds it difficult to make decisions when she is the type of person who makes decisions quickly. She who always acts as she pleases she thinks is right. But this time, she could not even be sure of her decision. Even though she made the decision, she continued to waver and questioned her own decision.
Her mind was heavy and she was very annoyed at Doctor Rane who kept bothering her by trying to make her change the decisions she had made. Although she was very upset and seemed not to care about Doctor Rane's invitation to attend the class of pregnant women. But in the end she still went to the class. Maybe Precious just came to make Doctor Rane stop bothering her or she was just curious.
Precious entered a special room facing the hospital garden. Room with glass walls so that people inside can see the garden directly. Although still in doubt but Precious entered the class of pregnant women. There she saw 4 pairs of husband and wife already in the class. The women who took part were also pregnant women with different obstetrical ages, there were those whose contents did not look the same as they did, there were also those who were 5 months old and even pregnant women with 8 months of age attending this class.
Precious increasingly hesitated when she saw everyone coming in pairs while she was alone. Even the eyes that looked at her made her feel burdened as if people were surrounding her while judging her. Precious felt very uncomfortable and intended to leave, but then Doctor Rane came and immediately grabbed her shoulders. Precious suddenly looked at Doctor Rane who was standing beside her. Dr. Rane smiled at her.
" Come in!" said Doctor Rane while encouraging Precious to attend the class
Although initially Precious was hesitant and wanted to leave the class, but in the end she sat on the mat while doing breathing arrangements to give birth and Doctor Rane sat behind her while holding both her shoulders. Even though Precious said she didn't intend to attend this class, but she still did all the instructions correctly.
" How? Doesn't it taste very amazing? Close your eyes and imagine that you are in the wild with tree surrounds and bird song. Feel the sunlight that touches your skin. Then look at your enlarged belly and feel something moving inside your stomach. What is that? Isn't that a kick from a live baby in your stomach. " Said the instructor giving instructions
Precious closed her eyes and imagined what the class instructor had said. Unconsciously, Precious smiled when she imagined her stomach expanding and imagined her stomach feeling kicked from the inside. Even Doctor Rane who was accompanying her smiled at her.
After an hour, Precious and Doctor Rane sat together in lawn chairs. Precious put on a bitter face as if she didn't care about anything. Meanwhile Doctor Rane continued to look at her with a very friendly look.
"Don't you have a job? How can a doctor be this relaxed and follow others? " said Precious
"Of course I have, but right now I'm free. Besides if I don't come to see you, will you come in and take classes? " said Doctor Rane
" Probably not. Why do you always like to interfere? Do you like me? " Precious said, making Doctor Rane laugh at the last question Precious said
" So what? There are only two reasons people help others. First if the person has something they want and second if they like that person. I never felt that I was doing anything for you so why are you trying so hard to change my decision? What do you want from me? " said Precious
"I just don't want you to regret it later. Haven't you ever met a third type of person? People who will help without strings attached. " Said Doctor Rane
"Yes, I once but that person was very stupid. Too stupid to make it hard for me to forget. " Said Precious then looked up at the sky.