Chapter 16: Chapter 16

1 month later...

I cried in front of these book I was reading, I'm here at the book café all alone. I sobbed like a kid as I wiped my tears with my both hands, I don't care if someone's watching me or think I'm just a broken hearted girl.

Well let me share you their story, well the title of the story is called. 'Once Upon A Tragedy.'

The girl's name is Irene and the guy's name is Zhou. They are best friends since they were grade 8th, but Irene sees Zhou more than a friend.

As the years passed and they've grown up Irene's feeling for Zhou become much stronger than before.

Zhou had a Girlfriend in their freshman year of college while Irene stuck in the thought that Zhou will notice her someday so she stay single and waits for him, until they're in the junior year. Zhou starts to court another girl again and Irene felt hurt as he said that to her, well because they're friends right? So he share some of his business to her. And all she can thought why he still cannot notice her? Why he can even see her? Why he still find a girl? Am I not enough? Am I not beautiful? That questions running inside through her head all day when Zhou starts to open that topic and it's not enough yet, Zhou tell her that when she finally said yes he will going to introduced Irene to the one he truly loves. Well it happened 3 days ago. The girl named Bella, and no wonder why Zhou like her.

Pretty, smart, feminine, classy and she no longer compared to herself to Bella, she thought.

And that's the reason why Irene finally broke down.

She even deleted his number, deactivate her social media accounts and she even tried her best avoid Zhou in two weeks.

She hang a lot with her closest friend Melanie, and she knows that her friend Irene was overly in love with Zhou and she even try to discourage her, but Irene was so stubborn every time they talks she just like 'I Love Him, that's why I can bare this pain. It's okay.' And still sticking beside Zhou so Melanie didn't bother anymore.

Until it happened Zhou and Irene met in the cafeteria, and asked Irene if why she's avoiding him, but Irene says nothing she's just busy that's why she does that to Zhou but he didn't bought that excuses she have.

And she cried, she finally broke down in front of man she likes and frankly said it all, she confessed that she's in love with him, and she asked him why we can't be? Why you cannot love me? Am I not enough? I love you's. And many more while Zhou didn't say it something but just 'he can't' and he doesn't want to ruin their friendship because he's special to him and he valued her more than himself but he just can't. But he knows that Irene likes her for a long time but he just ignored it for the thought that it will fade but he's wrong, I can really feel the emotion when Irene and Zhou exchanging their lines that makes me cry harder.

So after that Irene didn't even bother to attend in their class. She rather to go home and just cried all day until 2 days later she got a call from a Zhou's mom and told her that Zhou's got into the car accident, his car crashed as he bumped into the 12 wheeler truck and he still in 50/50 mode

Irene kneel on the floor as she heard that, she went to the hospital with her friend Melanie and she just noticed her phone received some messages from Zhou and she cried hardly as she read those messages.

That he's saying sorry for what have he done, he loves her like he really do but like what he just said before he valued their friendship a lot so that's why he cannot find a guts to ask her out, and he really feel so guilty that he hurts her, it really kills him too he said in text. Irene cried hardly as he read his message, until she heard the flat line in the room and automatically called a doctor outside she hugged Zhou's Mom as they cry.

She cries and cries until the doctor said 'Time of death 2:32 pm.' She went to Zhou and hugged him for one last time and she whisper 'I love you Zhou, I won't never forget you.' She lastly said as he kiss his cheeks.

See?!! Its a sad yet a very kinda great story I've ever read here. As I've done reading I lamely goes home. Well it just become my habit after school I goes in here and read some tragedy stories or historical, astrological or so whatever.

I lamely grab the doorknob but in to my surprise it open and it reveals Greyson, he's wearing a white T-shirt like he always does and a brown leather jacket.

"Hey." He smiles as he folds the left side of his jacket revealing his stainless watch, I just moved my head up like 'Hey.' And directly walk inside but he stop me as noticed my face was a mess

"Are you alright? Did you cry? Who makes you cry?" He ask in a concerned tone yet mad as he asked who makes me cry as cupped my face, his hands are big and warm.

"Its nothing." I said shaking my head from left to right as I removed his both hands to my cheeks

"It's just the book that I've read to the book café." I said and he just chuckle

"Is that so?" He ask raising his both brows and I nod

"Really?" He asked still not convinced and I chuckle "Yeah, I'm telling the truth." I said and he sighed

"Okay, I'll be going then." I smiled and nod at him, as he closed the door. I went directly to my room and dragged myself to the bed.

1 month passed and everything has changed.

What kind of changes?

First Greyson and I, we're never hanging out a lot

The last one is when he brought me to the book cafe and a football game after and that's it.

He loves watching football even if he is gay.

He said that he used to play soccer when he was in Grade 7 to 9.

And the second well Valerie and Greyson I think they are more closer now than me.

Third is well uhm.. I started dating Cody well it's really totally complicated because last time I checked last last week he introduced me to his family, and this just week, he court me in front of his family and I was like if I reject him in front of them they will all get disappointed and felt bad at me and I don't want that they are all nice to me, so there's no reason to say No but to be honest I don't feel anything to Cody, he's a nice guy yes but I'll see him just only a friend and nothing more, but still I can't take my 'Yes.' Back.

As I closed my eyes, Greyson and I conversation playing through my mind.

"Its not that I don't want to fall in love with a woman's heart or let me say a 'Gay.' but...." I said shaking my head from left to right as I continued talking

"I'm sorry if I'm going straight to the point in this and it may offend you. But I want you to ask this, if I'm going to fall in love with you right now, right here, or sooner or later, I want to have any assurance like if I fall in love with you. Will you?.. Will you catch me? Or let me say will you love me back?" I asked him raising my voice a little and so do my brows too, while gesturing my hands a lot.

"Greyson will you?" I asked one more time before I turn my head to the right side looking through the window beside me instead.

He remain silent as we went into arena and watched a football game, he even buy a foods and drinks and sat.

"So what's your answer to my question?" I ask one more time, he looks at me furrowing his brows, his face are literally pink like he have a blush on in his cheeks.

"What is it again?" He ask as he ran his fingers through his hair, I just rolled my eyes on him

"Just kidding." He chuckle as he watched the game again

He sighed deeply as he spoke. "Well to be honest I'm not sure." He said, I knew it. I know that he will probably say that. But what will I expect? He is gay why can't I just  accept the fact?!

"But before you said anything let me hear out first, because its really hard for me too, you know even though I'm gay, I'm still thinking about my future. I want to have a family, I want to have a partner in life, I want to have my own kids sooner or later when I gets older, because  you know I don't want to get old, sick and die alone. Yeah I admit that I'm a gay, I do having a crush on a guys, but still you know deep down in me I can't still picturing out myself having a 'boyfriend.'" He chuckles, while his eyes still focused on the game.

"Well the real answer for your question..." He said as he took a deep breath and smiles again "If now, sooner or later, or someday you fall in love with me, I think I can give you an assurance." He said as he looks at me for seconds and back to the game

"But hey! I'm still not going to be straight as you may think even if we kissed 2nd time before." He exclaimed and I hit his arm playfully, why did he need to dropped the kiss in this conversation?!

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I didn't realize that I drifted asleep last night.

"Hey good morning." Valerie greeted me as I yawn

"Morning." I said as I open the fridge and took a milk

"Greyson's went out just now." She said

"As if I'm asking you where he going." I said rolling my eyes, and she just chuckle as she done cooking a hot dog and an eggs.

"I'm just saying."

"Okay? But I don't care!" I scoff but she just shaking her head from both sides, while having a smile on her face

"Really?" She mutters, while still having a cheeky smile on her face

"Yeah really." I exclaimed as I took some hot dog and placed it on my bread.

"Okay I'll stop, but just so you know she's with a girl." She said as she shrug her shoulder and continued eating