Chapter 48: Chapter 48

I almost stumbled on the floor just to get out of the bar. I had not yet reached my car when a strong force pulled me and then dragged me.

I was about to shout, but I stunned when I realized who’s dragging me, Daevon.

I was back in reverie when he stopped and I was just deposited in his car.

"YAH! WHAT THE FVCK ARE YOU DOING ?!" I shouted and glared at him.

I was surprised when he suddenly kissed me and bit my lower lip before he pulled himself.

He smirked at my reaction. "I'm not going to let you drive. I don't want to be widowed early." he said and smiled before closing the door. I saw him walking to the driver's seat and when he got in, I hit him there.

"You mother fvcking, asshole! How dare you kiss me after kissing another girl ?! What if she have an aids ?!" annoyed, I shouted loudly as I slapped him.

I just stopped slapping when he grabbed my two hands and held me tightly. I gave him a death glare, but instead of being scared or shy he actually managed to smile secretly.

As if I didn't see it!

He licked his lips before staring at me. "I'm sorry, I did not expect her to kiss me just" he explained.

I instantly rolled my eyes. "Oh come on, don't talk like you're not a womanizer. It's obvious that you were known like that and that's how you used to flirt so she did that." I said hiding my sarcasm and looked outside.

I heard him sigh before he slowly let me go. He started the engine and drive.

"Yes I am, I admit it. But it used to be before not now. Because now, I'm all yours baby. Exclusively yours." He said emphasizing the last words.

"Yeah, I believe," I said with sarcasm and rolled my eyes at him.

I felt the effects of alcohol in my system again so I leaned back on the car seat and closed my eyes.

"Should I take you home?" he asked.

When he asked that question, I suddenly felt like I wanted to go somewhere.

"Just drive, I'll tell you the direction. And please don't talk to me." I mumbled and looked on the way.

He did not say a word.

I'll take it as a yes.

Like I said I showed him the way I wanted to go. About an hour ago we reached the location. I spontaneously got out of the car and automatically opened my hands.

I shut my eyes and feel the cold breeze. Slowly, I opened my eyes– city lights welcomed my sight as the stars glow above the sky.

"I didn't know there such a place like this" I heard him mumbled as I feel his presence beside me.

I also did not know until my ex and I found this place. I smiled bitterly and looked around. It seems like every time we both have free time we hang out here at this mountain where we see the whole city. Even junk foods and drinks are okay as long as the two of us are together.

I walked to our often place and then sat down. I want to laugh because it’s been two years, I went here again.

Actually, I am also confused with myself. I do not know if I am like this because I still love him or because I still do not know why and how he did that to me. Because I seriously feel he loves me, I feel that so it hurts me when he says in front of me that he loves his best friend. I know her. It never entered my mind to be jealous of her because I saw no reason for that.

Sometimes I thought, for once I made a mistake, I made a mistake of my instinct because I thought the love he showed me before we parted was true. I made the mistake of thinking that his love for me would remain because I did not see any shortcomings in me, well except for sex.

We haven't talked about that in a year or so. So I thought it was okay, I thought he wouldn't look for that in me, but I look wrong. Because I did not give it to him so he took it from others.

I felt Daevon sit next to me. I could see in the corner of my eye, he's staring at me as if knowing my identity.I slowly turned my gaze to him. I kept my eyes blank then stared at him.

His gray eyes, sharp nose, thin lips, thick eyebrows and very beautiful jaw.

I don’t know why he is chasing someone like me who gave nothing but myself to him.

"Are you afraid of me? Is that why you objected to marriage? I mean, not that I am raising myself. I have almost everything a woman wants, wealth, looks, and houses." he mumbled and looked in front of us. "When it comes to being a womanizer, believe me I stopped that, it's true when I said you were the only one I slept with." he continued.

Like him I also looked at the emptiness.

I know.

I do not know why, but I believe what he said is true and that is because of my instinct. So I'm scared, what if I make a mistake again this time? So that's how I protect my mind.

I let him think badly of me so that he can not enter my system.

I need to protect myself. One heartbreak is enough for me.

"I'm still in love with someone else that's why I don't like to marry you" I whispered softly just enough for him to hear.

I said it not because I mean it, like I said I need to protect myself.

Men like him are capable to ruined a girl like me. And I won't allow it. I won't, not ever again be ruined by a man.

"I'm sorry" he said and I looked at him.

There was no trace of emotion in his eyes. It kept staring at him even though I knew he knew I was staring.

"For?" I asked blankly.

"I'm sorry because I'm selfish. No matter what you told me, I still want you to be my wife." he said and looked at me.

He smiled at me although it's a fake one. He took my hand and squeezed it gently, even if I wanted to pulled off my hand I could not do it because it comfort me.

"I really can't understand. It's impossible that you love me that's why you are doing this." I stated.

We just met for Pete's sake.

He looked forward again while still holding my hand.

"Like you, I also don't understand myself. All I know is I just want to be with you." he said. "To be with your broken self" he added that made me froze.

He knew.

"Is this place memorable for you?" he asked before roaming his eyes.

There my viciousness returned. I swallowed and pulled my hand away from him.

Like he did, I also looked around and smiled bitterly.

How can a place full of happy memories hurt me?

"Want to change your memory in this place?" he said next to me. My attention automatically went to him.

I raised an eyebrow at him and expressed my astonishment on his question.

Then his move explained his statement. His hands landed on the buttons of my shirt while his lips pressed on mine...