Chapter 43: Chapter 43

**Nancy's POV**

"I won't do it. I won't just do it," I shout as I stand on the entrance of the washroom.

How can this happen? How can this ever happen?

Why me? I have never even imagined that it could be me. It could be I that should go through all of this.

I break down in front of the washroom as I fall on the cleanly wiped tiled floor with my both hands supporting me to sit.

The tears stream down my cheeks like they are flooded with that salty liquid and are never ever going to stop in my whole life.

Zion runs to me as he sees me falling down on the floor.

"Nan! Don't do this please. You should stay strong and everything is going to be alright after you do your surgery," he consoles but I don't have any intention to get consoled by his words.

H doesn't know how can I live without my breast. What is having breast is for a girl and what does it mean he doesn't know at all?

"But I won't have them. I won't have them Zion. How can I be woman without them? How am I going to be mother without them? People will laugh at me. They will mock me in every step of life and will make me realize that I don't have those bloody boobs for god's sake," I wail as I say that.

He pulls me in his hug and covers me in his arm.

"I don't care. I never cared what they said about me and I never will care what will they say about me and you. You should just turn blind eyes to them. You are the most valuable person in my life and I don't card about anything else. I want you to live, I want you to have life and be together with us. Be with me, be with your dad and brother, please," he says as he holds my palms on his and balls both of them.

I have never felt so much desperate, so much hopeless and pained in my whole life. Yeah! I have always had bad times and I have always been through all those ups and downs. I would say bad times never left me alone but this is the worst.

How can imagine leaving them? How can I imagine my loved ones to live without me?

The departure of my mom has already been so much heartbreaking and so much anguish for my dad and brother and I don't want to leave them and let then live with pain one more time.

And Zion!

I have found my love after so long time. We have become each others happiness now and have met after so long time that I don't want to leave him alone one more time. But, imagining my life without breasts and living with him is nothing but just a painful reality for me.

I don't want myself to be a burden and if I live together with him in this way, I will be nothing but a burden to him. I am going to destroy his life with my disabilities and going to trouble him more than I can.

"Zion! I need to do this. I need to do this surgery. I don't want to leave any person that I want to live with," I say.

His eyes pry on my face and they blink nodding his head.

'Yeah! You should do that. You should do your surgery. We all love you and we don't want you to be away from us," he smiles.

"I should do it. I will do it but I have a condition Zion," I say.

He stares back at me as he wipes my eyes.

"Conditions? What kind of conditions? I am ready to accept any conditions that you tell me to do if you are going to do surgery?" he says.

"Will you marry me? Will you marry me before I get the surgery? I don't want to look awful and with silicon boobs when I get married. I get everything to be real and to be with myself when I'm with you," I say.

He smiles when he hears it and without even thinking for a second moment he answers," As your wish."