Chapter 28: Chapter 28

Jake's POV

"Where exactly are you two going again?" Jason asked and I smirked this curious expression as I fold the sleeve of my shirt while sitting on the couch in the living room. I was waiting for Rosie who is still getting herself prepared on the room.

"Anywhere far from you hyung, honestly," I teased him and I chuckled at his sudden change of expression.

"Bitch," he mumbled which made even Haiden hyung chuckle.

"Rude," I cheekily grinned but my brows furrowed a little after he removed his shirt. "Put a fucking shirt on. bro, my girlfriend is on this bus too, you know," I snarled and he just raised his eyebrow.

"After calling me rude?" he spat, his head snapping like a diva. "And dude, I did not work out so hard so I can keep this amazing body to myself you know," before he started flexing before us.

"Tsk. Your body isn't really all that Jason," I heard Vash grumble and we all laugh at Jason hyung's reaction.

"This?" he said while showing his abs. "I bet Rosie would have fallen in love with me if she saw me first," he smirked.

"Sorry to burst your bubble Jason but everyone here knows Jake has chiseled abs," Rome hyung laughed and I smile after Jason frown.

"Wow, thanks for siding with me," Jason rolled his eyes.

Rosie and I decided to go out. We're about to go back to Korea in a week's time and I wanted to ask Rosie if she'll go with us.

She will, right?

After that breakdown that we both had, everything had been different.

Slowly, I started to let my guards down and let Rosie do what she likes.

The bad thing though, I rarely see her during our concert because she's busy helping the staffs.

No matter what I do, it still bothers me every time I lose her out of my sight. I'm still afraid she'll get hurt somehow.

As for her way of clothing, it took me a huge amount of energy to stop myself from asking her to change her clothes every time.

This girl seemed to love wearing crop tops and tight fitting jeans or short skirts.

And the fact that she looks fucking hot in them.

All of those, including not wearing those, makes me want to pull her away from people and just hug her, and cuddle in a room.

"Jake, stop smiling like an idiot. It's creeping me out," Jason hyung mumbled, pulling me out from my train of thoughts.

"You're just jealous because you don't have a girlfriend," I banter and she faced me.

"Hey, this booty can make every girl swoon okay?!" he exclaimed.

"Jason, I swear to God if you don't stop this instant, you won't be able to use that goddamn ass for a month, I'm telling you," Yohan hyung snarled giving out multiple curses at the end which made Josh hyung cringed, though he didn't bother stopping the other which made me a little confuse.

And then I notice Josh hyung tapping his fingers on his phone. He looked rather tense.

I thought him and Samantha noona already made up?

The others must have noticed because we were half expectantly waiting for Josh hyung to scold Yohan hyung from cursing. But he didn't.

"Hyung," Haiden called Josh hyung and he stared at him, his face blank, far from the usual happy pill that he was.

"Yes?" he questioned and I was so sure his voice sounded a little shaky.

"You looked tense, is there something wrong?" Haiden asked softly, concern can be heard on his voice.

And I notice everyone on the room stopping what they were doing, their attention focused on Josh hyung.

Yep, there is definitely something wrong.

He dropped his gaze on the ground, his jaw clenched and for once, I was scared of him.

"I'm fine Haiden, don't worry about me," he mumbled and my eyes widen when I heard Yohan hyung curse.

And everyone went silent.

It has been so long since Yohan hyung snapped. And he definitely never snapped at Josh hyung.

Josh hyung turned his face towards his direction.

"What did you say?" he snarled and I felt my chest tighten. Yohan hyung crossed his arms on his chest.

My eyes landed on my other members and they all looked alarmed as well.

"I think you heard me the first time, hyung. I said that's an utter bullshit" Yohan hyung smirked. " And everyone on this fucking bus knows it." he added.

Josh hyung stared at him blankly. He did for God knows how long, the tension building inside the room was so heavy, I actually wanted to leave.

Just when I thought Josh hyung would get mad, he just sighs and went back to check his phone.

"Just how long are you going to pretend that you are okay?" Yohan hyung whispered, his voice was still sharp yet I can feel a lot of emotions coming from him.

Josh hyung stood up from his seat and face the younger guy.

"And so what if I'm not okay? Do you want me to go sulk in the corner and cry? We have concerts to attend to and I'm not going to act like a fool and disregard my responsibilities just for personal reasons," he hissed and everyone on the bus tense when Yohan hyung moved forward.

"And so what if you sulk? So what if you cry? Is that so bad?" he asked painfully and my heart dropped at the sight of my two oldest members.

At this point, none of us is able to stop the two.

"It is! I don't want to keep being a burden to this group! I can't even do my parts so well and all I do is create problems for everyone!" he was fuming in anger.

"Josh hyung," Vash mumbled, his eyes getting teary.

Is that how Josh hyung felt?

His hands were obviously shaking and I had to stop myself from moving forward to calm him down.

"Whoever told you that you're just a burden hyung?" Rome hyung asked, appalled at his words.

We didn't know that Josh hyung had concerns like this in his head.

He avoided our glance and sat back in his chair.

"Hyung, you're not a burden. You are never a burden. In fact, I think it's mostly because of your guidance that's what keeping us all together." Jason hyung answered. This time, he's already wearing a shirt.

"Josh hyung..." Yohan hyung called for his name and Josh hyung slowly looked towards our direction, tears now threatening to spill down his cheeks.

"It's okay to breakdown in front of us. We're your brothers, aren't we? We'll comfort you because that's what we're here for. We are your friends." Yohan hyung's voice softened. "Just because we have responsibilities to do doesn't mean we aren't capable of showing our own feelings. We get hurt too. And it's not like you're letting the world know about it. It's just us, your friends. Cry if you want, and we'll share the burden resting on your chest" he added and before I knew it, tears now streaming down Josh hyung's face.

Why didn't I see this coming?

Why did I fail to notice that Josh hyung is on the verge of breaking down?

Did I disregard them these past few months?

My hands balled into fist, anger seeping through me.

It hurts to realize that there's not much I can do every time my brothers are having a hard time. I can't even utter a word of comfort to them.

Samantha noona....

Then it hit me. My noona is all alone too.

I shouldn't have trust Josh hyung's words that they've already made up.

I should have noticed the bags which continuously getting larger under his eyes.

I should have noticed the fake smile he had been putting ip these days...

I should have noticed that we're slowly losing him as he starts to lose himself.

And the fact that one of the reasons why Josh hyung was having a hard time was because of my sister, made me feel even guiltier.

I love them both and I refuse to take any side.

"Yohan..." his voice cracked a little and we noticed how his shoulders started shaking.

"She broke up with me," he started and I felt my stomach churning. "And she's not answering my calls anymore, I don't even know what to do now. The more I try, the more I lose her. Fuck!" He washed his faced with his hands and then we knew. He had been restraining himself since that day Samantha noona left.

He wanted to leave so he can fix their relationship but he can't.

"Hyung!" Haiden hyung asked concerned. "That's impossible. Samantha loves you to death. She wouldn't break up with you just like that,"

"There's got to be something," Rome hyung added.

"Yeah, this isn't a prank right?" Haiden hyung awkwardly tried to check if there is a hidden camera.

"That's right. I mean, it's Josh hyung and Samantha. They're like perfect." Vash mumble.

Our members looked confused and I am as well.

And then I realized, my sister must be having a hard time to. And I didn't even know.

"It's all my fault. I messed up!" Josh hyung mumbled and it breaks my heart to see him choke on his own tears.

Will Rosie and I end up like them too?

"Hyung, we all know it isn't like that." I started. I know I wasn't in favor of them being in a relationship at some point, especially when he unintentionally hurt my sister before but I won't deny the fact that he'd love my sister unconditionally. I witness all that and I knew he is true.

"We're going back to Korea. You can talk with Samantha after," Yohan hyung stated as he rub Josh hyung's back on order to calm him down.

He just cried and we let him. I can't even fathom how hard it must have been for Josh hyung to bottle everything on his own.

The amount of patience he had to endure the urge of going to my noona must have been killing him and breaking him altogether.

Just then, the room burst open revealing a pale looking Rosie.

She looked around and her eyes widened at the sifgt of Josh hyung.

"Jake...." she called for my name and seeing her confused expression made me nervous at the same time.

She was wearing an off-shoulder blouse and a denim shorts, her stomach showing a little...

I gulped. My heart beating faster.

Seeing Rosie never fails to makes my emotions go all over the place.

Though a little hesitant to leave my brothers at this state, the look on Rosie's face tells me that I need to go to her. And I did.

After closing the door, she turned around and faced me, her face a little pale and she seemed nervous.

"Babe is there something wrong?" I asked moving a little closer to her.

"I need to go home," she muttered and I stopped from my tracks.

"Home?" I asked confused.

"Like home, home." she mumbled.

"I'm going back to Australia," she muttered and I was left speechless.

I knew it. She's leaving me...

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