Chapter 51: Chapter 51

I cried a lot because that was the only thing that I do religiously. I will get married soon. I will marry Ravi who is my father's age. I was glad in a way that I didn't have to give my virginity to him. I was thankful that I did the deed with Raja. I was in love even if he wasn't. So it was better for me or I will regret the rest of my life. Speaking of regret I think I will never be able to love Ravi the way I love Raja or even Rocky in a way. But love never had to be in equation. It is about payback. Ravi wants his revenge. He believes I had used Rocky against him. I don't know I never wished to come between the father and son.

I heard a ring on my otherwise dead phone. I answered it. It was Rita. I felt happy there is someone who cares for me.

"How are you? I got an invitation are you getting married? But Rocky is dead", she said. I guess the mourning period is over. He might have started the preparation for wedding. I didn't even get a say in all of this.

"I'm not getting married to Rocky", I told her.

"But I saw his real name on the card", she said hesitantly.

"He had the same name as his father. I'm getting married to his father", I told her mechanically.

"What the fuck. Don't do it Asha please", said she.

"I have no choice", I told her.

"You can run away from there", she said.

"And go where? I have no home. My father sold me to him a long time ago", said I.

"You can come here. Our home is small but we will have a place for you", she said in a quiet voice. I was touched. I never expected her to say those words.

"Thanks but you don't know Ravi. He is scary. He will crush anyone who stands in his way", said him.

"Then what will you do?", she asked me.

"I will do what ever I have to do. I will face it like I did before", said I.

"You are very brave Asha", said she in a small voice.

"I have no choice", I told her.

"Asha please re consider", she pleaded with me again.

I almost smiled at her concern. I wasn't used to it. I thought Raja cared for me but I was wrong.

"How is Laila?", I asked her.

"She is wasted all the time. Her friends saw her yesterday. She is always saying that she is going to get her revenge soon", said Rita.

"She should be happy. I'm getting my due according to her", I told her.

"No she believes that you are only going to be more happy once the wedding is over. She calls you a gold digger who will never be happy in her life", said Rita.

"I don't know what to say. I believe I can only fall further in her eyes no matter what I do", I told her.

I cut the call. I didn't know what to do? Running away seemed to be only option for me. But I hated to be hunted like a dog. Because I knew he will leave no stone unturned till he catches me.

I got another call. I picked it up. It was an unknown number. I couldn't hear anything from the other side except a few shuffling. Finally the person on the other side spoke.

"Hello Asha. How is the wedding preparations going?", asked a throaty sound.

"Everything is going well Leila thanks for calling me", I told her in a clipped voice.

"You think I called to wish you well?", she sneered in phone.

"No I would never make that mistake", I told her.

"Good because I have called to give you a good news. I have slept with Raja. He is good I give you that", said Leila.

I felt a knife piercing in my heart. I took control of myself. I can't fall apart. I knew Raja will soon find someone but I wished it wasn't my nemesis.

"Good to know that you have find your comfort else where", I told her calmly inspite of the storm inside my heart.

"You are fucking pathetic. You are marrying an old man and I just slept with your lover", she said.

"I know you are sad Leila. I'm too. He was my friend as well", I told her. The tears brimming over my eyes.

"No you will never understand what it was to see you both together. To have the person who you love the most going after another woman", she said.

"I think I have an idea thanks to you", I said. I quickly cut the call and fell on the bed.

I know I have no right to cry. Raja said before that he didn't care for me. I should have believed it. But there is a stupid part on my brain that keeps nagging me that he cares for me. But now that the truth had revealed there is nothing for me anymore.

I dialled Raja. I had blocked him previously it is not that he called me much these days but I got one call two days before. I didn't pick it up. I cut it and swiftly blocked his number. He being a gentleman never bothered to contact me any more.

"Hello", said a voice which had a twinge of hope.

"I got a call from Leila. She said something to me. She is many things but not a liar. She was also genuinely happy to give me the news so I had assumed it was the truth", I told him.

"What did she say?", he asked me.

"That you slept with her", I said without sounding broken.

"Yes it happened I was drunk. It didn't mean anything", he said.

"If it didn't mean anything why are you sounding so guilty", said I.

"You are getting married Asha. I saw the invitation card. You think it didn't hurt me when you chose Rocky?", he asked me.

So she had used the card to create misunderstanding to sleep with him. He believes I'm getting married to Rocky. He doesn't know Rocky is dead. I didn't say anything. I don't know what to say so I cut the call and blocked his number again. I had lost my best friend and lover. It hurts me the same way each time