Chapter 38: Chapter 38
"In case no one has ever told you this then listen carefully Alaric, I'm not the cause of the miserable life you have, that has been causing you to kill innocent people. No one would ever want you to be near them not because they fear you but because you're worthless and you bring nothing but sadness wherever you go!" She yelled and I could feel the pain In her voice and the anger she had for me that truly broke me.
Fine! She had said some hurtful words that actually got me but seeing her this hostile towards me makes me wonder if I've actually screwed things up with her.
Perhaps I shouldn't have killed the Alpha in her presence and things would have been slightly better between us. I don't know why but for some reason, I felt like I had lost the trust of my mate and she was no longer going to accept me when she eventually find out the truth about us.
I stood still for some while as I was now lost in my own world and filled with sadness that I had not noticed when Jenny walked into the room with her mouth running like a tap and I just couldn't take it any longer.
"Shut up!" I snapped at her and the room became dead silent once again.
"We're going " I said after clearing my throat multiple times so it wouldn't sound like I was actually hurt.
I reached for Lenora and dragged her hands away from the lifeless wolf on the ground and away from the pack house. Perhaps this would get her mind off the Alpha for now.
We got into the car as she sat on the back seat looking like she had no life in her anymore. She was still in pain and angry and I don't like to see her this way.
I wanted to say a lot to her and comfort her but I didn't think I was in my right state or the best person to say any comforting word to her. If I had known that she had really had a bond with the Alpha then I wouldn't have been so cold but at that moment I wasn't being thoughtful and I was selfish.
I had only been thinking about just myself and not any one else that I had somehow managed to traumatise her with my reckless behavior. Only if she would forgive me any time soon.
The ride was with an awkward silence as she said no words to anyone in the car, Jenny had tried to indulge her in some conversations but she just kept mute like her soul wasn't here any longer as she stared outside the window.
We got to the hanger and entered the Jet, surprisingly she cooperated and came down from the car to walk into the Jet by herself even though she was walking pretty slow and lost in her thoughts.
I wanted to reach for her and carry her but I restricted myself, she probably needed some space from me at the moment and that was what I was doing. I was giving her space.
Hell if it were to be other lycans, they would have marked her the instant they saw her and she had no choice but to live with him forever but I didn't do that to her because I wanted to be gentle with her and I needed real love from her.
I had given her some space and a chance to heal from the trauma Asher had caused to her and I thought she was already getting used to me and probably warming up to me until she ran away.
It broke my heart to know she willingly ran away from me just when I thought she was starting to let her mind be open and free with me but I don't think that will happen anytime soon or now since I have somehow manage to break her trust again
"Careful " my hoarse voice said as she was about to climb the staircase into the plane but I wasn't even sure she heard me as her face was still as plain as that of a ghost. Perhaps I'll let Ariel move in with her once she gets back to the Serene pack.
The flight back to the Serene pack was the same five hours journey but it seemed to be longer than that with my thoughts roaming around my head and Lenora on the other hand keeping shut and staring at the wall like she was losing her mind.
After some time, she eventually fell asleep but even in her sleep she kept on muttering "I'm sorry" and it made me feel like a really bad guy for the first time.
"Your highness sir" Jenny interrupted my thoughts as she stood by me in the Jet.
"I've been right beside you and you didn't seem to notice " she smiled while biting her lips.
"Any problem?" I asked but she immediately shook her head and went back to her seat while I closed my eyes hoping for me to fall asleep.
"Well sir, I need to talk to you" I heard her voice close to me again and realised she must have stood up from her seat.
"Okay?" I said so she could continue with what she was talking about .
"Can we go into one of those rooms because I would hate to disturb Lenora's peaceful sleep?" she smiled and walked towards the room.
I heaved a heavy sigh before taking one more look at Lenora, I would also hate to disturb her peaceful sleep that was only possible by her silently crying herself to sleep.
I wouldn't want to wake her up so I decided to answer Jenny as I walked behind her into the room and on getting there she still had the smile on her face that it was starting to freak me out.
I've known Jenny since she was little and she always had a joyful smile on her face so maybe I should stop being an ass hole and just accept her like that.
"Your highness,I have something to tell you and I've always been keeping it in me because I was too scared to say it to your face" she paused and looked into my eyes before diverting her attention back to her hands that were nervously playing with each other.
"Since I was just a teenager and have always been around you for over a hundred years, I've found myself growing more fond of you everyday that I always want to be around you because..." she squinted her eyes and released a heavy breath.
"Because I'm sorry but I love you, Prince Alaric " she sighed as she looked at me with her doe blue eyes but I felt nothing at the words she said and just wanted her to be over with so I could go back and rest while watching my sweet Lenora sleep.
"Is that all you want to say?" I asked and she slowly nodded her head. I was going to tell her to not fantasize and walk out of the room but her hands were suddenly on my rigid chest as she caressed them while looking straight into my eyes.
"I promise to do anything you want me to do and I'll always be a good girl, it's been my dream all my life for you to call me yours and mate with me" she said in a low soothing tone and for some reason I found myself giving in as the atmosphere of the room was somehow soothing and relaxing the more I took in deep breaths.
"Please touch me, your highness, all these years, I've been keeping myself just for you and I've been patiently waiting for you to notice me but right now I'm shamelessly in your front and begging for you to devour me tonight, " she begged and brought my hands to her boobs and trailed it all around her body.
I don't know why I was still in this room with her but my whole body was getting ready to sleep with her but one thing I know for sure was that I wasn't in the right state of mind but I was still letting her touch me.
Her tiny hands trailed from my chest to my two breasts and they slowly trailed down my v-line. It was only a matter of time before her hands would be gripping my dick that I snapped back to reality and held her by her neck while slamming her back on the wall.
She had an excited look on her face with a smile as she probably thought I was about to have sex with her. She wasn't going to stop as she almost grabbed my dick again until I choked her really hard to the point of her coughing in pain.
"Never in your life should those words leave your mouth and never in your mother fucking life should you touch me!" I threatened while my hands were still tight on her neck and she was still coughing.
"I'll let it slide today because this is the first time whatever this is happening, but keep in mind that I won't take it lightly with you if it were to repeat itself. Understood?!" I growled through clenched teeth and she nodded her head.
I released my grip on her neck and left her gasping for air in the room before storming out of the room with anger.
I walked into the bathroom to clear my mind off what had just happened by splashing some water on my face as I stared at the mirror.
There was definitely something in that room that made me almost give in to her and it irritated me even more. I wasn't irritated by her because she had the beauty trait all lycans had, and a good attitude but I was irritated by the fact that I had considered her a younger sister and she almost touched me.
After clearing my face, I walked back to the place where Lenora was peacefully sleeping and she still seemed to be asleep. Jenny wasn't in her seat and I could hear her crying in the room even though it was really faint.
I couldn't help but stare at Lenora and how stressed her face looked even though she was asleep. Her brows were cringed and furrowed that I wished I could just put an end to this grief she was feeling.
I want her to think about just me and not have to cry or grief about anything but I know it was only for a matter of time before her wolf would fully accept me as her mate and we'll be happy together whether she wants it or not but she would have no choice
I continued to tell myself that her wolf would accept my beast really soon, in order for me to calm myself and surprisingly it worked for me as I drifted to sleep In no time.
"We've landed, your highness " Jenny bowed before me with her face staring at her shoes. On a normal day she would have lifted her head already but she chose to stare at her feet and I preferred this type of relationship between us as I don't want anything to ever lead to her spilling out those words ever again.
"Good" I responded and titled my head to look at Lenora but she wasn't asleep anymore and was now awake. She wasn't even looking at me either but was focused on the window.
"Has she eaten anything yet?" I asked Jenny who shook her head in response.
"No,your highness " she responded with her head still bowed and I sighed.
I had no idea on how to approach Lenora and tell her we've arrived at the pack and we needed to leave the Jet and I also couldn't carry her as well.
I sat with my finger in my mouth as I thought of what to tell her but before I knew it, she stood up from her seat, adjusted her clothes that were really dirty and covered In mud before walking out of the Jet and I released a heavy breath that I didn't know I was holding.