Chapter 51: Chapter 51

JAYDEN

All through my flight back to Washington, D.C., I was worried about my Mom. I was worried something might happen to her and I won't be able to tell her I'm sorry for not hearing her out. That I'm sorry for not believing her. I kept praying to God to not only keep her alive until I get there but also to keep her safe for a longer time. I prayed he allow me to spend some time with her and her new family. To get to know them and love them. To be able to hear what she has to say about why she got married to my dad's boss. I was ready to listen to her for as long as she gets better.

When I finally got to the hospital, Ethan and my stepdad were in the hallway. I stood, staring at them for a while. I wasn't sure if coming closer to them was the best thing to do or watching them from afar. After making the final decision, I moved closer to them.

Ethan saw me and walked up to me. "Jay, you're here"

I sighed. "How is she?. Has she opened her eyes?. Is she responding to treatment?" I asked so many questions, cause I was worried about her.

Ethan tried to calm me down. "She hasn't opened her eyes yet. But the doctor assured us she will be fine"

"She hasn't opened her eyes?. What did the doctor say is wrong with her?"

Someone patted my shoulder and I turned to see my stepdad. I wasn't aware he had moved closer to me. I sighed. "You don't have to worry, Jay. She will be fine. She had overstressed herself because of you. She was happy she was going to meet Ethan and Bella and they would be helping both of you come together"

I batted my lashes. "S-she was supposed to meet with Bella?"

Ethan nodded. "Yes. Bella was worried you might develop hatred for your mom so she decided to meet with her to find out why she married your dad's boss. We called to meet her today that..."

"How could you do that?. Is that the reason you lied about going for an interview?"

He nodded. "That was the only way to..."

"Just shut the hell up. I can't believe you kept this from me. You know what, I'm leaving"

I turned to leave when I heard the nurse calling out for the doctor. I turned and the look I met on Ethan and my stepdad's face showed there was a problem. "What's going on?" I asked

No one answered me. My stepdad followed the doctor and nurse to the room I guess my mom would be. I tried to go with them but Ethan held me back. "Let..."

I pulled my hand away from his and ran after them. I was able to get into the room against the nurse's will. I rushed towards her. "Mom!!!" I called.

The signal on the ventilator was reducing and I could hear a beep sound. The doctor tried to pull me back but I fought back. I couldn't watch my mom die. I just lost my dad some years ago and my family has been in a great mess. "Mom!!!" I yelled. "You can't leave me yet. You know that. I'm ready to forgive you. I'm ready to accept them as my family. Just don't leave me yet. Mom!!!"

My stepdad held me. "I think she heard you. I stared at the ventilator and I realized the signal is back". I sniffed. "We should leave and let the doctor do his job"

I followed him out and sat down on the bench. I was ashamed of how much I cried when I claimed not to love her anymore. I realized losing her who break my heart so bad. I cried. I should have let her speak. I should I gave her the space in my heart. I realized if I had lost her I won't be able to forgive myself.

Ethan touched. "She will survive. Trust me. She's a strong woman". I nodded. I hope she does.

**

She's awake" a nurse announced after a while of waiting.

I had been praying and hoping she wakes up soon. I stood up immediately. "S-she is awake?"

"Yes and she asked to see her son"

I blinked. She asked to see me first?. After everything that had transpired between us, she still want to see me first?. She isn't asking for her little daughter, but me. Ethan stared at me. I shrugged. It isn't a bad idea to answer the nurse. "I-i'm the son she's asking for" I answered

"She wants to see you. Come with me"

I followed the nurse to the room my mom was. I walked closer to her and hugged her. "Don't you dare think of leaving me" I cooed

She smiled wearily. "I-it's good to see you again Jay. I don't you wouldn't come"

"I couldn't think of losing you. I'm sorry mon for not allowing you to tell me what happened"

"I understand. I hope you can forgive me?"

I nodded. "The thought of losing you made me realize I won't forgive myself if anything happens to you. I forgive you mom and I know dad has forgiven you too"

She smiled. "I love you, Jay"

"I love you too, mom". It's been so long I called her my mom. But it was a good thing to call her that again.

"You called me mom again," she said trying not to be teary. I understood how she felt and how she had tried to talk to me and I never allowed her. I could still remember how she had cried but I wasn't moved by her tears but right now, I am ready to hear her out she just should not try to leave me.

I stayed with her until evening. My stepdad asked me to go home and have some rest but I was adamant. After much persuading by my mom and stepdad. I agreed to go home with Ethan. Mom had asked me to help her take care of her baby. I kissed her goodbye and left

**

We returned to the hospital early the next morning with her baby. Mom was sleeping when we got there. We waited in the hallway until she was awake. While waiting in the hallway, I spent time playing with my stepsister and I tend to like her. Though she was less than two years old she is a cutie. Ethan was happy to see me happy again. I couldn't thank him enough for being there for me.

While I tried to get along with my stepdad too, I was worried about Bella. Ethan had told me about her dad's health. I tried to call her but she wouldn't pick. I sent her a lot of text messages too but she didn't reply to any of them. Ethan told me, Bella would be fine. He said the last time they talked, everything seems ok.

I was worried Bella might not come back to St. Vincent. I was worried I might not be seeing her again. I was worried she might get so occupied and forget about me. I was worried her parent might want her to get married to someone else. I had so many things to worry about but I tried not to worry much but wait to see what happens next.

The nurse came to tell us my mom was awake. We went to meet her. She was happy to see me and her baby getting along. She said she thought everything was a dream but is happy everything turns out to be real.

She told me someone came to visit her and gave her a gift to give me. She said she was a friendly fellow and seems to know me so much. She said she was beautiful too and will be happy to have her as a daughter-in-law. I knew immediately it has to be Bella. She handed me the envelope she was asked to give me. I hold onto it hoping to open it when I get home. I had this feeling she was leaving but I wasn't sure yet. Mom seems to know something too but she wanted me to find out myself.

I was curious to know what was in the envelope. When I got home, I entered my room and opened the envelope. What I met was shocking. She was leaving as I expected.

She wasn't just leaving St. Vincent. She was leaving me too. She said she doesn't want to keep me waiting and she might be so busy and won't be having time for me. She asked me not to worry about her dad. He will be fine since she will be taking over the company. She told me not to worry about her and study hard to be a better person. She told me to follow my heart. She said she was also happy my mom and I are back together. She ended her letter with the words, 'I hope to see you soon.'

I was heartbroken. I could not imagine losing her. I could not believe what she sent to me and hope to see her at the excursion next week.