Chapter 30: Chapter 30

Katie and Diana stared at me and I had no option but to start talking. I sighed. "That night" I began. Diana adjusted herself and I rolled my eyes. "We went to the restaurant as usual. He had wanted us to go out..."

"On a date?" Dia asked, cutting my words short

I groaned. "It wasn't on a date, Dia. He called it an eat-out"

Dia scoffed. "Eat-out?. Who goes on an eat-out these days?"

I frowned. "Do you still want to listen or I should keep my mouth shut?"

"Whatever. Just go on"

I sighed. "As I said before. It wasn't on a date it was just a simple eat-out. We had fun, talked about so many things". I smiled. "I was so comfortable talking to him, so when he asked if we could take a stroll because the place was becoming noisy, I accepted". I sighed. "We walked down the road talking and laughing. And when I saw an opportunity of telling him how I felt about him, I decided to seize the opportunity. Tell him how I feel and he can as well tell me how he feels too". I stared at Dia. She seems to be enjoying the conversation. I sighed. "I never thought he would tell me he doesn't love me. With his attitude towards me, I had thought he had a thing for me". I relaxed. "Too bad he had nothing for me. Not even a little".

I was done telling them all I could tell about what happened that night. I couldn't tell them how sad I was. How I had cried my eyes out. I couldn't say how I slept on the bench at the beach because I was so devastated. What about the cold I developed from sleeping outside?. All these lingered in my mind but I couldn't say them out. Not because I was afraid but because I knew Dia would laugh at me. She would laugh so hard her eye will become red and dripping with tears. Unlike Katie who will cry with me or try to pet me, Dia will tell me the reason he had rejected me and why she thinks I was the cause of it. She would blame me instead of sympathizing with me. She will remind me of all those words she had always told me at every of my break up. She had always told me not to give my full heart to men. She would always say that she would rather date so many guys than follow just one. If one plans to break her heart, there would always be another to replace him. Whenever I got heartbroken, she would say, Bella, rather than swooning over unworthy swains like him why can't you let them worry over you instead. I sighed. Dia doesn't understand that what works for her had never worked for me. Not even once.

Someone touched me, interrupting my thoughts. I turned to see Katie. She was holding my hand and squeezing it gently. I smiled. I never knew when she stood up from her seat to sit down beside me. "Everything will be fine, Bella"

I gave her a half-hearted smile. Behind the smile was a face full of sadness. "Thank you"

Katie smiled but said nothing. I stared at Dia. She had not said anything since I stopped talking, which was unlike her. The Diana I know would have ranted so many words. she was calm and lost in thought. "Dia?" I called. She raised her head. "Are you ok?". She nodded. "Are you sure?"

She smiled. "Yes"

I furrowed my brows. It was so difficult to believe Dia was ok. I had never seen her this quiet except if she is bothered about something. I raised an eyebrow. If she is bothered about something what would that be?. It not going to be Jayden and me. I sighed. "You don't look ok to me Dia. Is there anything I need to...?. I mean anything we need to know?"

She smiled. "I am fine. Trust me

I sighed. If you say so"

She stood up. "Enough of the sulking. Let's go have some fun girls"

I rolled my eyes and Katie chuckled. "That's what we need right now" Katie answered

I shook my head. "Nah. I don't want to go anywhere, girls. I just want to go home and have sole rest"

Dia frowned. "You don't want to enjoy our stay here?"

I groaned. "I can't..."

Katie whined. "Please... I can't imagine leaving this island without exploring it". I rolled my eyes and she pouted her lips. "Come on". She held my hand. "Please"

I sighed. "Ok. I think I know a few nice places we can go today"

Dia smiled. "I love that"

"That's the spirit girl!!" Katie yelled

I smiled and stood up. "Let go now. Or I might change my mind"

Dia chuckled. "You won't dare"

I picked my bag up and sighed. It's time to put Jayden and every other thing behind me and have fun!!.

**

Some books were on the table. I had been busy with some stuff. It is just two months to our excursion and just a day to my birthday. I wanted to make sure everything was intact. I needed to convince the management that the excursion has more advantages than disadvantages. The excursion was also important to me cause I will be leaving the island for New York, two weeks after the excursion. I sighed. Some months back, I had come here thinking one year was long enough to get the love I wanted. So surprising, how the year and almost run out with less than three months to go and I still couldn't get someone to love me. I picked a book up, staring at nothing in particular. I sighed. Maybe love wasn't for me. Maybe I don't deserve love. Maybe... The knock on my door interrupted my thought. I groaned. "Who is that?"

"It's Lucy. Can you please open the door?"

I rolled my eyes. I was feeling so lazy to stand up and open the door. I needed to know why she wanted to come in. A good reason that would make me stand up. "Lucy, what's the problem?"

"I brought you food"

I furrowed my brows. Is she been serious?. "Food?"

"Yes. Your favorite"

I rolled my eyes. Hearing food made my stomach grumbled. I chuckled. I had been so hungry but was too lazy to stand up, let alone find my way out of my room's door and into the kitchen. "Ok. I am coming". I was really tired but had to stand up from my comforting zone and walked to the door. I opened the door slowly, expecting to see Lucy but was surprised to see Jayden. He was holding a tray. I batted my lashes. "W-what are you doing here?"

He shrugged. "I brought you food. Can I come in?"

"That did not answer my question"

He sighed. "Are you not hungry or not?. I can go back with the food if you want"

I frowned. "W-where is Lucy?"

He rolled his eyes. "I can see you ain't hungry. Maybe I should go with the food"

I rolled my eyes. "Come in"

He chuckled and walked in. "Oh, mine. What are you doing with all these?"

"Just drop the tray and leave. I am very busy". He dropped the tray and sat down. "What are you doing?"

He placed his legs on the table. "Resting"

I frowned. "I just told you I am busy. I am not in the mood for this"

"Don't worry. I will just sit here and watch you. Promise not to disturb you"

"You should leave, Jay"

He frowned. "You made me come here, only to tell me to leave?"

"What are you talking about?"

He dropped one of his legs. "Don't you miss me?"

I furrowed my brows. "Miss you?"

He frowned. "Didn't you send me a message that I should come over?. You miss me so much you could not concentrate?"

"I did not do that"

He frowned. "You sent me a message. Maybe you should check your phone". I picked my phone. I frowned. I did not send any message to him. Who did?. I batted my lashes. I think I know who did. I groaned. The only person I gave my phone to was Diana. She must have sent it. But why would she do that?. "Do you still want me to go?"

I sighed. "You can sit. But don't disturb and dont...". I wanted to tell him not to touch anything but it was too late cause he picked up my diary. I blinked. That is the wrong book for him to start with. "That's my..."

"Your diary. I know. You get busy with your work while I read this"

"You..."

He placed his legs on the table. "Don't bother saying it. I won't drop it"

I batted my lashes, as I watch him open the diary. I groaned. Diana!!!. What have you done!!!.