Chapter 32: Chapter 32

The next morning Lucas arrives early. He brings many different fruits, some tropical ones, and some extremely rare ones.

“ Try eating light so that you may be able to digest it. “ He advises.

I eat a few strawberries and dip them in white chocolate, I take some bites of the enormous grapes, the size of an apple and persimmons.

He also offers me passion fruit juice. I take a few sips and dislike the taste.

After we are done with our breakfast he takes me to the doctor.

“ Were you able to get an appointment at the last minute? “ I ask worried, I don’t want to travel so much just to come back.

“ Appointment? “ He asks, cocking his head towards me.

“ Yeah. For the check-up. “ I inform.

“ I don’t need one. “ He replies arrogantly.

I tool my eyes at him. Typical.

Just Lucas being Lucas.

The rest of the ride goes in empty silence and we reach the hospital in no time. He drove the car fastly and rashly may I mention?

He grabs my hand and leads me in. We get in the lift.

He grabs my other hand and twists me towards him so that our faces are next to each other.

“ Emma, I know that Noah isn’t with you and you’ll always feel his absence especially now that you are pregnant. But you will always have me to help you through the pregnancy. In fact, consider me the dad. “ He says chuckling.

What is supposed to be words of assurance turn out to be words of doom for me?

How do I tell him he is the father? He’ll force me into a relationship again and I’m not ready for it. I’m not even ready for this baby.

The elevator dings and we each the floor. Lucas leads me towards the doctor’s office.

Everything turns out to be normal, though I turn out to be a little underweight.

“ You’re going to be eating whatever I feed you from now onwards. No more excuses. You will eat everything like a good girl or God help me Emma I will force it down your throat. “ He keeps on scolding me on the way back to the lift like a parent would.

But I am lost in a word of anxiety, my brain hardly deciphering his senseless phrases.

“ I need to ask something from her. “ I interrupt his random rant.

“ I’ll come with you. “ He offers but I stop him midway.

“ It’s a little girly. “ I point out.

He makes a weird face, looking at me with suspicion but then lets it go.

I run towards the room.

“ I wanted to ask one more thing. “ I state, looking around nervously.

“ Is…is an abortion possible…at this state? “ I ask, nervously. Scared that Lucas might hear it.

“ What are you talking about miss? Why would you want an abortion? “ The woman asks, shocked. As if I’ve said something horrendous. Maybe I have…

“ I..I don’t…Can you just tell me if it is possible? “ I ask.

“ It is. But our hospital is against abortion. You’ll have to go to another one miss. Many women can not conceive a baby, they keep on trying yet here you are trying to get rid of your own child. “ The woman mocks in a cruel tone.

“ You..you have no right to say that. You don’t know what I’m going through. “ I muttered, eyeing her icily, and then leave.

I find Lucas waiting for me.

We get in the car and he drives off, the engine roaring to new volumes.

“ Can you stop at the churchyard? I’d like to visit him. “ I whisper.

He nods and turns the car around.

We soon reach the cemetery and I go about Noah’s grave.

“ Hey. I’m here to visit you. I’ll come here often. I haven’t forgotten about you Noah. I just got the news of my pregnancy today. It would have made me really happy if it was ours but you and I both know the truth, Noah. It’s Lucas’s baby and I’m afraid Noah. He…he won’t take the news lightly. He’ll want me to be with him, in fact, he’ll force me to be with him for the sake of the child and I don’t want that Noah. I love only you, but I can’t stop him either. If he comes to know it’s his child, God knows what he will do to me. You’re not even here to protect me and he terrifies me sometimes. I’m so helpless without you. I really need you. “ I sob, with tears falling down like it’s a waterfall.

I wipe the wet fat tears away and stumble back to the car. Lucas sees my shaken state and my blood-red eyes. He hugs me for comfort. Wrapping his masculine arms around my petite frame.

“ Emma, relax. Take deep breaths. It’s alright. I won’t ever hurt you, you know that? “ He asks, cupping my face gently and looking me directly in the eyes.

“ I heard everything. The child is mine. “ He states, a smile forming on his lips.

I try to wiggle away from his hold but he slightly tightens his grip.

“ Calm down. I told you I won’t force you into a relationship. All I want is for you to take care of our child. I’m not that cruel Emma. “ He whispers, gently rubbing my back for comfort.

I look into his eyes to try and find a hint of a lie in it but I see none.

“ Are you telling the truth? “ I ask him.

He nods his head in agreement yet I fail to believe him. How can I? He has lied to me, many times.

I do not argue though, this isn’t the time. He leaves me at my house and then leaves.

He sends lunch and dinner to me through someone. Even though I’ve started making my own food.

The rest of the day goes uneventful.

The next morning I wake up, with a determined mind. I can not believe in Lucas. This might be just a façade. He might be faking a nice act in front of me so he can make me keep the baby.

I call the doctor, the one we went to the previous morning.

“ Hello, it’s me, Emma. I came for a check-up with Lucas knight. “ I inform, on the call.

“ Oh yes, I remember you. Are you guys coming for another check-up? “ The woman inquires politely.

“ No..actually about…the abortion thing. Can you please tell me about a certified hospital that conducts abortions since I don’t know many? “ I implore nicely.

“ Oh, so you want an abortion. Miss, these days there have been many anti-abortion campaigns. You’ll hardly find a hospital but I know of one. The address is ***** you can go there. It is a trusted hospital. “ She informs and I note down the address.

I go to the bathroom and get a shower, changing into a breezy skirt and cute off-shoulder top.

I come out of the bathroom to see that the phone is ringing.

I pick it up and see that it is Lucas.

“ Emma, tell me one thing. I told you clear-cut that I will not force you into any relationship. Didn’t I? “ He barks over the phone. The level of his voice was high, his tone hard.

“ You..you di..did Lucas. “ I stutter in fear. Why is he so mad?

“ Then what was the fucking need to opt for an abortion? Why the fuck are you thinking about killing my child without my fucking permission. I told you I’ll take care of you and won’t force you into a relationship. Then what the fuck is the problem with that dumb fucking brain of yours. Why’d you had to think about killing my child? “ He booms. His mere voice radiating immense dominance. My whole body starts quivering in fear.

“I..Lu..I.. “ I try to form an explanation, a lie something that can save me but words don't seem to form. His anger leaving me in a complete state of shock.

“Shut the fuck up and listen to me, Emma. I’ve been very lenient with you. Now you either marry me and do as I say or you count me as your fucking enemy. I’ve had enough of your shit! “ He bellows.

“ I…I won’t marry you. I love Noah. “ I state.

“ Fine then. You’ve got another thing coming Emma. Because having me as your enemy isn’t a small thing. I will make your life hell. You’re gonna shed tears of blood. One way or another, you will come crawling back to me. Mark my words. “ He threatens.

Before I can try to reason with him, he cuts the call.

What have I gotten myself into, again?