Chapter 159: Chapter 159

(Vivienne)

"P...please this is a lie...tell me you are lying"I was devastated and confused as I stood there looking at the two men with shocked expressions. Judging, by the way, they were looking at me I knew they were surprised to see me but I wanted to hear the real truth from them and upon seeing me. Doctor Maverick regained his senses and rushed to me

"Vivienne...oh no...please take a seat," he said as he held me by the shoulders because I was on the verge of collapsing. My body had become so weak that I could pass out any time soon but even so, I managed to shrug his hands away from me

"Please Vivienne sits down...you are burning up"this time doctor Justin rushed to hold me when I was about to collapse and he slammed the door shut and guided me to the bed. I didn't protest but complied as I sat down and the two doctors helped me sit comfortably and supported my back with several pillows

"Please Vivienne don't stress...you are unwell"doctor Justin muttered as he sat beside me but I didn't want to hear anything about his concern I wanted the truth from both of them

"Is it true or not?"I asked this time I was serious and I was certain my anger restrained voice showed it. Doctor Maverick looked at me with a blank expression while doctor Justin exhaled deeply

"Ms. Payton...well I'm so sorry this is entirely my fault everything happened so fast that...I was left with no choice" the doctor said apologetically and I saw the tension which resided between his brows as he ran his hand in his hair. So it was true. How on Earth didn't I suspect this and why did they do this to me

"Why...why did you do this to me...do you know what you've done!?"I was angry, disappointed, and confused. I didn't want this to be the truth, I just wanted them to tell me all this was a prank. Maybe he didn't see well maybe

"I had to do this...when Alisa died Victor was devastated...he went into depression and was lifeless"Maverick said, his voice was low and apologetic but I had no time to do this or hear anymore

"Vivienne please understand this...we couldn't use Alisa's egg even if we wanted...the process would have failed miserably"this time it was doctor Justin who said and my head lowered to my hand. I was numb, I felt nothing. The pain wasn't there

"He wanted something to remember her by and…"

"Using my egg wouldn't bring him happiness...you complicated things!"I lashed out as my eyes burned. I wanted to cry so badly maybe all this would go away

"I did what I felt was right at that time. I take full responsibility for all this but...I think this won't be a problem for both of you"Maverick said and upon hearing his words I looked at him. He didn't know what he meant by it wasn't a problem

"Vivienne does...you like Vic right I've seen how he gets around you...it's even didn't get this with Alisa and I…"

"If this is the reason why you did this then you are wrong" I cut him off before he could even say anything. I was living a lie, a fantasy that was only in my head. I wanted so badly to be there to feel something I wanted forever but that wasn't going to happen now. Because he made it clear that his first wife wouldn't be replaced so easily. Yes, he showed me a different side which he hadn't with any other woman other than his late wife but...I heard him that night, he thought I was sleeping but I woke up when he entered the room. I was happy and excited that he came to see me in the middle of the night but everything shattered when he said his thoughts out loud

**Flashback**

"I think you'll be fine…"Julia said when she helped me get in bed. I was drowsy, not sure if the medicine I just drunk started taking effects but I felt so sleepy

"I'm sure by morning I'll be fine," I said, dragging my legs further and laying down carefully. My hands moved to my belly and Julia helped me with the pillows.

"That's it... should I put more," she asked when she put a few pillows around me and covered me up

"It's okay this is enough, "I said, adjusting into a comfortable sitting position and exhaling in relief. It was late at night and after a long day working out in the gym with Victor I decided to have my medicines on time. I invaded Victor's workout sessions and he ended up helping me with the pregnancy yoga poses which were good for an 8 months pregnant lady. He was careful and gentle however he said not to overdo things hence I retired to my room and took a shower

"Goodnight miss"just like that and switched off the lights and left the room. I shifted to the sides and covered myself to my neck and closed my eyes. After a while I couldn't fall asleep but just as I was about to drift away. My bedroom door opened, and my heart raced rapidly when I felt footsteps. I wanted to see who it was but I stopped when I took a whiff of the familiar scent and it was Victor who walked up to the bed.

I didn't move but pretended to be sleeping since I didn't know what he wanted and shortly he sat beside me

"Sleeping" I heard him murmur to himself and he slowly covered me up but stopped for some reason. I was bothered by his presence "you are carrying someone special...you should know this" he said as he removed the blanket halfway and I was even more afraid. I sucked in my breath and did everything I could to be asleep when his hand rested on my belly. I went stiff

"You shouldn't get so close to me...I'm a confused man...I'm broken and lost. I don't think I have what it takes to give you...what you desire" he said and hearing his words I felt a sharp pain in my heart. What was he saying? I wanted to get up and ask him but I wanted to hear what he had in his heart

"I want to forget her...she meant the world to me but no matter what her face is always there...it's not fair for you Ms. Payton…" he added and I knew what he meant. This time I didn't want to hear anymore, I heard enough because I wanted the biggest mistake I've ever made in my entire life

"My wife's child means the world to me...and I won't tolerate it if any harm comes to it" he didn't have to say this to my face and the rest was more painful than anything else. I made a mistake knowing it was too early for him to fall in love. What he felt towards me was only care for his child. All the gentle care and love were all for his baby because he didn't want to feel guilty. I was the other woman who tried to take his wife's place but I failed. I thought I was healing him but I was wrong

**End of Flashback**

"Vivienne, listen to us...I know he'll get angry at first but believe me...I know Victor feels something for you...he cares about you and.."

"You ruined my life" I cut him off, I was done with their lame excuses. They made a mistake and if this happened to any other person then the hospital and doctor would be sued. I wasn't a traditional Surrogate and I didn't want to have Victor's child but now Victor would think all this was my plan. He'd think I planned to get close to him not just that but he would say I deprived him of the privilege of having his wife's memories. Something he remembered her by and now I was ruined.

"Vivie, please…. we'll fix this...you don't have to say anything I'll take…"

"That's enough...if you want him to be happy then let's pretend nothing happened here...I'm not the mother of the child...he shouldn't know this for years to come because if he does…"I didn't even have to finish the sentence to know how much he'd hate me and no amount of their excuses would make me forgive them for this. I loved Victor and anyone would be happy for this but that wasn't the case. Victor was expecting his wife's child not mine and the difference was that he didn't make his feelings clear even till now. At the end of the day, I was just a surrogate.