Chapter 147: Chapter 147

(Vivienne)

I was on the verge of losing myself. I didn't understand how I felt something so powerful for someone in just a short period. This wasn't me, I never got to this extent where I depended on someone

I always considered love to be a weakness. I watched my friends fall in love and I didn't even want to talk about it but with just Victor's touch. My body melted t for his stronghold on me, I would have fallen

"Mmm," a moan left my lips when Victor softened the kiss. After a while of sharing a deep kiss, he finally left my mouth leaving some space for me to gasp for air. My breathing was unstable as he caressed my face, calming me down. My hands slipped around his neck and he pulled me up so I was now standing on my tippy toes. For a second I thought he was going to say anything but there was silence between us. His soft smooth hands caressed my face and I just looked at him. There was more said with actions and words

I wanted to know what he felt whenever he was with me. What difference did it make when we were together

"Sir...I…"my lips parted to say something. At least I wanted to know that unfortunately, he used the opportunity to steal another kiss. This time he seemed to be out of control as he gripped the back of my neck pulling me as close to him as possible. I didn't know what was going on with him but his kiss was demanding, with hunger something which I failed to understand. He was nibbling and sucking on me that I failed to keep up with him. I was running out of air as I fell short of breath. My hands just rested on his chest doing everything I could not suffocate because Victor was trying to destroy my mouth with his hungry kisses

"Mmm...t...that's...that's enough"I tried struggling to get free and when I finally pried him off me. He didn't look so pleased as he gripped my hair in his hand so tight that I felt the pain. It would have been less embarrassing catching my breath only to

"Vic?"I heard a familiar voice say and before I could turn around to see the person Victor held me from going anywhere. His expression was not so good

"I'm...I'm...sorry but they need you inside" it was Martha said and like I was, a fool I stayed in Victor's embrace ashamed that the doctor must have seen me. I didn't know why Victor let something like this happen

"End the party"Victor simply said as he caressed my face

"Please Vic...go"I muttered pleading with him with my eyes. He was being ridiculous creating even more trouble for me

"I'm sorry Vic but this is serious I'm sure whatever you have can wait"this time it was Monica I heard say sounding irritated and things just got even more awkward. Victor hesitated before he slid his hand down my arm and held my hand. Slowly I stood to his sides and lifted my head slowly to look at the two women standing before us and I quickly lowered my gaze. This was not what I wanted

Damn it, if they saw it all then Monica would call me names which I deserved after all this

"Victor...it's best you meet your guests since they came just to see you," the doctor said calmly as nothing happened and I tugged at his hand for him to go. He was hesitant and I could feel his grip on my hand tightening but soon he let go of me and stormed away. I watched as he walked past the doctor and Monica without even sparing them a glance. Monica glared at me with a not-so-happy expression and walked away following Victor and it was just Martha and I left standing there. I didn't have to feel awkward when I didn't do anything wrong. The doctor had her eyes on me as if she was trying to understand something

"I'll take my leave," I said, breaking the awkward silence and nearly walking past her when she suddenly grabbed my arm so unexpectedly that I came to a halt and lifted my gaze to look at her. She was facing forward and the lights from the front were illuminating her face

"Is... something wrong?"I asked, shifting my gaze to the arm she was holding. Slowly as if she just realized what she did. The doctor turned around to face me and let go of my arm

"Alisa was my friend... someone special to all of us...she loved Victor more than anything…" the doctor said as she scanned me from head to toe. I didn't understand where her words were going but my brows creased in their on and I saw her smile

"You are carrying Alisa and Victor's child...don't you think your actions are kinda... inappropriate?" the lady said when she stopped at my belly and in response, my hand automatically moved to my belly. What did she think I was doing. Just like Monica, she seemed to have a problem with me getting close to Victor

"Love is something you can't stop...even if I stay away...at this point I don't think anyone's theories will work, "I said with a faint smile. I got her point, just like Monica she thought my advance toward Victor was a bad idea

"Ms. Payton I'm not referring to that...you should know there will always be one woman in his heart and that's...Alisa...the mother of the baby in your womb" the doctor said with a half-smile and looked at me for a while before she left. It was like she wanted to tell me this. I stood there thinking to myself. The night was dark and felt heavy. I felt cold all of a sudden as I tried to ponder over the doctor's words.

She was reminding me that I was just Victor's Surrogate and I didn't argue with that. I knew full well where I was and I didn't need anyone to remind me of this. Yes, Victor loved his wife,e and the child I was carrying belonged to them but not one minute did I even think of taking that privilege away from Alisa. I knew once the baby was born, it would be up to Victor to decide what he wanted. Of course, his child was only his and Alisa, the baby had the right to know her mom was no more hence thinking you to here I sighed and lifted my aching legs and left from there and headed back inside

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When I went back to the party hall. I found that it was now lit, I saw people were busy dancing on the dance floor. I stood to the sides and smiled as I watched. Fortunately, I didn't feel as excited as before, I looked around and I felt out of place. I spotted Victor surrounded by some men and women. It was good that he didn't neglect his party. I didn't want Monica blaming me for it even though it was my fault

"Hey there...umm was looking for you," Castro said out of nowhere startling me as I almost choked on my drink the waiter gave me the moment I arrived

"Well...went to get some fresh air," I said with a half-smile even when I was not in the mood for anyone to talk to me. I saw he was happy and smiling from ear to ear

"Okay...if you don't mind...care for a dance"Castro said and brought his hand forward asking me to dance with him

"I...I dunno but I don't feel so good" I said, shaking my head. I didn't want to dance

"I know, let's try it...I'm sure we'll have fun" before I could protest more, Castro grabbed my hand and dragged me towards the dance floor. I was helpless as I decided to dance with him for just a little while since he wouldn't stop bothering me about it

"So...you look beautiful tonight. I wonder what made you choose this dress" he said smiling as he slipped his hand around my back and extended his other hand to mine. My other hand rested on his chest and we were dancing to the song. I didn't know how it went since I haven't heard it before but it was a little of a fast song. I glanced to the sides when he twirled me with one arm and saw Victor being dragged to the dance floor too by the doctor. She was smiling as she wrapped her arms around his neck while he held her waist with both his hands. A sharp pain went through my heart causing me to avert my eyes from there and nearly

"Ouch" Castro gasped and I nearly jumped up when he held his foot up

"I'm...I'm so sorry," I said, trying to reach down to his foot, which I, like a clumsy fool, stepped on. I was such a fool to get distracted and stepped on him

"It's okay...let's dance more," he said, putting his foot down and looking at me with a smile. I smiled back faintly and secretly glanced at Victor and I caught him staring at me. He had that smugness on his face when I recalled how I messed up the dance a while ago. I felt like killing him. The music intensified and I saw there was a change of dance partners. I liked the new song because it was slow and lovely. I knew the perfect moves to this because it was the same song Victor and I danced to back at his business party

"Wow...you seem to be getting this," Castro said with a chuckle when I moved to the rhythm of the song. I didn't know why I was with Castro but every fiber of my being was right where Victor was. I glanced at him and he was still with Monica. I wanted to switch partners so I could dance with him unfortunately the Doctor didn't seem to want that

"E...excuse me...I don't feel so good" I said, pushing Castro away and away from there. I knew he was surprised by my behavior but I didn't want to see what I was seeing.

"Vivienne wait!"Castro called out to her but she was already out of sightanwhen he was about to go after her

"Shall we dance?" it was Monica who said blocking Castro from leaving and initiating a dance

"Moni I was"

"I'm sure she's going to the lady's restroom...do you want to go there...it's pretty illegal" Monica cut her off and said with a grin as she turned around and Castro nodded as he started dancing with her

Victor was restless as he kept his eyes to where his Surrogate ran off. He was dancing yes but he didn't want to

"So...have you decided the name for the baby...did you do an ultrasound yet?"Martha asked as he saw yes right and left following Victor's moves. Victor shook his head and Martha nodded

"I see...I'm sure you want it to be a surprise right?" she asked again, smiling as her hands tightened around his neck and Victor shook his head. She noticed he didn't say anything to her. He was just shaking his head and nodding at everything she said to him as if distracted and yes he was distracted and disturbed worried about a certain someone.