Chapter 76: Chapter 76

3 years later ....

I don't know where to start when I started to chose from the most difficult choice I have encountered in the record of my life, it was draining, suffocating, confusing and most of all feeling that feeling that you are unable to breath because you are stuck between two bricks that are unbreakable cracks.

That decision broke me but it was the right decision after all, for my peace of mind, mental health and for the unborn child for it to complete a family.

I once dreamed of having a family on my own, but I never thought that just because of that incident, everything would change.

"Excuse me Miss, there's a mail that came for you I think it's not business related." he said and I turn myself

I don't know how I will feel but it is the first time I have received a mail that says this

"To Mrs. Alessia Rae Falcon." I read it through my mind

When they send a letter, Mom Alessia Rae Armstrong is still there but I kept on reminding them that my wife is different and I don't want to go all through this mess again, I had a feeling that it was from her again but at least how I still opened

I didn't know that after all those years ago they would still send me anything, we never settled anything or even shook hands to invite us to such parties, I was about to dump it on the trash but it was stolen by my hand

"Hun, you're back." I said to him and kissed his lips

"What is this?" he said to me and I just cross my arms and I know that he knows what it is and who it came from and he was just looking at me and he sat on the sofa and I did the same and I leaned myself on the body niya

I so love his scent it takes my breath away, when I first smelled it I was thinking of someone else but now, he is really the one I remember

"It's Brazie's birthday Hun we should go. Isn't it time for you to go home too Mom and Dad, when we got married here they didn't go either and I know you miss them." he said to me as he was sniffing my hair

I don’t know, yes it’s been a long time but I needed more time to heal on my own. I still can't face everything, especially my parents, they are really against my remarriage but I didn't care. We have been married for 2 years and he was my companion and over all supporter I don't know but this time he means so much to me.

"Don't you think you locked yourself in long enough? Don't you think it's time? I'm with you along the way." he said to me

and I looked up at him and played with his brows, his gray eyes as if you were going to lose your beauty, his freckles that he hates the most but suit him the best. His tender love and joy.

The first time we met I wasn't really that responsive, I don't know maybe that incident took a lot from me for as long as I can remember I even tried to hang myself just to end everything but, after he tried and tried and tried not to give up on me it all paid off then after a few dates we finally got attached to each other at first I was also confused about how I was feeling

I was having trust issues, I was pushing him away, I was even taught myself how to sleep with a heavy chest because I was torturing him but all he told me is that he understands. He understands even though I'm still in the part of my life that I can't move on because he accepted me completely even before I could accept myself.

And that made me soft, I planned it long before we got married. And he said that I should take my time and tat he'll always be by my side.

I hugged him tightly and that's also what he did is it's really the right time to face everything, he's right it's been a long time since I visited mom and dad, I also think I needed to ask for their forgiveness

"But there's no rush, you can take your time, just tell me when so I can book our flight." he said then I broke away from his hug and looked him in his eyes

"Aren't you afraid that Blade and I might get back together?" I asked him I know it's a silly question but he always tells me is that, he's not afraid and he understands

Then I stood up after I kissed him on his cheeks to fix my stuff

"I'm scared, Alessia." he said calmly

and that made me turn and something inside me felt happy for inexplicable reason

"I'm afraid that when we go back there you'll forget I'm your wife." he said to me

"Aww --- Hun i love you." I said to him and he was just looking at me

I don't know that he felt that way then I kissed him more violently and the door opened but I didn't mind it, I don't know but people here are used to seeing us like this, then I placed myself on top of him and he caress my butt and touched me every where but he slightly pushed me

"I can't Alessia." he said then I felt a pinch on my chest that sting

After all those years we were together he never let us continue and always stopped himself from going forward which confused me

"I'm sorry I just can't. I just don't want you to regret it afterwards." he said to me

"No Dred I won't regret it please." I said to him but he just kissed my forehead and asked me to go back home

After all he's still not comfortable with this thing and I don't know even during our honeymoon he stopped in the middle of what we're doing, but no this isn't right

"Dred Falcon, if you don't come home with me to continue what we are doing you're on your own." I told him

I'm so tired of this acting tough thing, I need to act before I regret it.