Chapter 70: Chapter 70

I'm still embarrassed that I did that instead of acting mature and just telling him everything; I guess old habits die hard. I fixed my strapless nightgown and wore it for days.

My face was resting on my knees and I was sort of relaxing myself when I noticed the spoon full of rice and Blade sucking on it.

"Come on eat, I know you keep on rejecting your meals," he says.

I took it with my mouth. It appears to be tasteless, so I had a hard time chewing and swallowing. I feel like there is something disgusting inside my mouth.

"You can spit it out," Blade said, as he stroked my back.

I no longer had second thoughts and just stood up to go to the bathroom sink to spit out the food that Blade put in my mouth.

"I'm sorry, I really don't have an appetite." I said to him, but I didn't look at him.

I know it's not healthy. I'm doing it for me or for both of us, but I just can't force myself. Maybe I'll say something I don't like, but because of this feeling, maybe I'll say it and I'll regret it afterwards.

"Can you take this at least so that somehow you have the strength?" Blade, looking all concerned, handed me the cup of water and capsule, but I didn't know what he was for, so I just looked at Blade.

"Vitamins, to somehow get you energy," he told me, and I put it in my mouth and drank some water.

I heard a knock from my bedroom door, and Blade stood up to open the door, and I put the glass on the table by the side of my bed and sat down on the floor again.

Blade came back with a stainless deep basin and a face towel. I just stared at him as he slowly sat down in front of me.

He soaked the face towel in the water placed in the basin and I just looked at him. I don't know what he went through the other day and I'm not in a position to say it because at first I was really to blame, but I'm proud of him.

He took my hand and wiped it with that towel. I am proud of him because, behind what's been going on outside the company, he still hasn't left his side in the business. He's just focused on it. I'm not sure and aware of what the impact of what I did, but I am well aware that it's not really what I did well and no one deserved it.

And there I proved that he was out of my league.

"I'm sorry," he said to me, and I was just looking at him, confused.

"I know you need time, but I can't give it to you because I'm worried."He said and placed his head on the top of my hand that he was holding.

I'm afraid that when I wake up the next morning, you'll be gone, or you'll have fallen out of love with me, or you'll have decided to leave me."

"I'm sorry if I'm overstepping some of your boundaries, but I'm not really so Alessia."

"I'm sorry," he said, and burst out in tears.

Everything that came out of his mouth felt like a knife that cut my heart effortlessly. I didn't know that was the effect of everything on him. I had no idea that he was going through that.

I don't know if I'm selfish, but the minute I step my feet into this very room, I only think about myself and how I manipulated myself into thinking that they just think the same, my parents even him, so I didn't care at all, but I was wrong.

I was running my fingers through his hair, and I felt pity when I heard his weak sobs. He held my other hand tight while his head rested firmly on one of my hands. He was holding

"I'm---really sorry." I said, and then he hugged me.

"NO, it's not your fault, I am at fault." he said, and that made me sob harder.

It's not your fault, Blade. It's my fault." I should have told you instead of acting like a shit. " "I separated myself from his arm and wiped away his tears once he said to her

"It's not you, Blade. This all started because I'm insensitive and please don't admit the sin you didn't do." He said, and he was just staring at me.

The pain is visible. His teary eyes and his tired aura. I did mean to be like this, but I didn't know it would take a lot from him.

I kissed him. I kissed him and he was pushing me away.

"This is not the time for this ale--"

I also don't know what I was doing but I was trying to mend his feelings by doing this because that's what I found out on the web, but with the super strength of his grip, he kept me away from him and both of us chasing our breath. Even the moonlight was in favor of his blue eyes.

"I don't want to do this feeling like this, Alessia," he told me.

But I did nothing but kiss him again, and for the first time I was kissing him but he wouldn't let me enter his mouth, and I was about to give up when he suddenly brought my body close to his body and he was kissing me harshly, and then I was the one pushing him away, but as we argued, the kiss lightened and turned bitter to sweet.

We finished our kiss by catching our breath, and he wiped my tears.

I promise when you're okay we can continue this. I just felt that this isn't the right time for this. I hope you understand. Believe me, I want to destroy you but I can't.

"I'm so horny to see you sitting on the floor, but I have to put it down."

"Even in this state of yours, you turn me on as fuckAlessia."