Chapter 29: Chapter 29

When I got out of the bar, I was really in a hurry. I didn’t know what to do about everything that’s happening. I messed up my hair and I was flustered.

Tears welled up in my eyes knowing that Blade would not agree to what he heard, but why not? It should be okay with him. He should agree. I'm doing them a favor.

I'm just walking. I don't know, but somehow he manages to come for me. And I couldn't look directly at him. I was so guilty, but for what? I'm not doing anything wrong.

"Why do you want to break up with me?" I stay silent.

I have a lot to say but it just accumulates in my head. I don't speak because I don't have the strength to tell him and I'm so tired I just want to end everything.

"Why Alessia?" He asked again and seemed to be begging for the answer he wanted.

He didn't get an answer from me. I was drained. I didn't say what, but every answer I wanted to throw at him was just in my mind. I've got a lot to say, but I can't really say it.

"I don't want this," Blade said.

There I was filled and I was no longer restrained. I don't know why he wanted to do this. I was so mentally tortured but I can't say

"Why? What's your reason? " I asked him

“Why are you like this? Isn't that what you want? " I added

For days, I was like this, thinking and it was making me crazy. I thought I could go out with my friends now, but that thought doesn't make any sense for me. I badly want to go home right now.

Silence enveloped us, as he has been doing these past few days, always leaving me hanging for no apparent reason. When he wants an immediate answer, why can’t I be like this

“I still need to please my parents, and you are the one tool I require.” He says

I laughed. I didn't expect him to say that. What was some sort of tool? What for? And because of fatigue, I was already sobbing. I didn't know where else to run. Yes, I still care for him, but this is way too much. Even if I think too much, I feel like, I won't stop. I'll still support him until I'm exhausted and there's nothing left for me, but why? If it hurts this much, I should stop.

I hope I can feel sympathy from myself to for myself. I didn't speak, I just cried. I wasn't under the influence of some alcohol yet, but I'm really sobbing hard and he used to attend to me before, but now he just let me alone and that causes pain and aches.

"Please let me go." I told him

And he just stared at me as I wiped away my tears, and he did the same by wiping the tears on my cheeks.

"I believe I want to." He says

And that dropped the boom. I can't be bothered and what to do is just go home or go somewhere far. I don't want this, don't even deserve it. Suddenly, he spoke again.

“But I can't. Isn't this what you wanted to happen? Before the wedding is over, this is what you want by marrying someone you’ll think is the one. " He said, but I cut him off by saying

“At that time, but not now. I'm sorry if I fell for you. I didn't mean to. " I said to him.

“But please let me go. I can't take Blade anymore. Have mercy on me. " I've already begged.

He didn't speak and I was still sobbing, releasing everything I was feeling for the last few days. I also don't know, but I was so lifeless.

“I love you but, I don't want this set-up anymore. I don't see myself lasting any longer in this position. Believe me, I tried. And I'm sorry I failed. " I told him

As I look from a distance, I don't know why I fall for him, and I know it's my choice, but is that right? I don't even know what is wrong or right anymore.

I'm so guilty knowing that I ruined the relationship and felt what Kycine would feel when she found out what we had.

“Why did you choose to ignore something worth fighting for? " I told him

I exploded, and it can't be tolerated. I have to do this now. He doesn't say anything, and he just looks at me shocked by what I have said, but I have to say these now.

“So please let me go. I don't want this Blade. Please, I beg of you. " I said, still sobbing.

I didn't know what to do, but I grabbed a taxi and just went to my parent’s house. I didn't even care what else I was wearing, I just wanted to tell them everything.

My whole trip to see them felt like eternity and I still seem to be regretful because of what I said. I don't know but I shouldn't feel like this but I regret everything I said.

I arrived at their house and I was still sobbing. I know they won't like the clothes I was wearing, but who cares, I'm too exhausted to even notice what they have to say.

I got inside and Mom met me. Maybe the guard also said that I was heading inside through the tell communication.

"Dear, what happened to you?" She told me

But when I reached mom's arms, I cried very loudly, letting them know the pain I was in without even saying anything, and mom just hit me and my back while she was calling for dad.

I was still crying when I thought I needed to tell them the truth. I was very hesitant and I know I followed them to everything they wanted, but hopefully now they will allow me. I really don't like this idea in the first place.

“Please get me out of this marriage, dad. I'll do anything you ask me to. But please, get me out of this situation. I beg of you, Dad, Mom. " I told them.

Mom was stroking my back and she was looking at Dad.

“Please let me, I don't want this anymore. It really hurt so much. "