Chapter 22: Chapter 22

A deafening silence enveloped us after I asked the question that had previously bothered me as I walked, and when I got into his spot,

“Is Kycine your ex-girlfriend? Answer me Blade "

I asked him again, but he didn't answer me, and I just let him go and went beyond where he was. He didn't stop me or even touch me. He really just let me walk on my own.

Blade didn't know what to do and just let her be. He knew that his feelings for Kycine would never fade, but it confused him what the right thing to do with this lady. Paper or not, he still considered Alessia as his wife, but what would he do if he was torn? So, he decided not to speak again to Alessia. He didn't know that what he was doing would cause him turmoil.

Alessia continued to walk towards the girl's room and stayed there for a while crying. The poor girl didn't know what to do. She just sat next to him and cried. When she heard a knock on the door, she ignored it and cried silently. When she heard that no one was outside, Alessia took the blanket and planned to camp outside and put them to bed in the morning since they stayed here for 3 days.

I left the room not knowing where I should stay, but I wanted to keep everything to myself and act as if there was nothing wrong in the morning, and told them that I couldn't join them because I stayed up all night. That should be a great excuse, but I know how to tell them and take care of that later.

I got out of the hotel and went to the beach to enjoy the cold breeze when suddenly someone pulled me in to her surprise, and to her surprise, it was Dred.

"What are you doing here, Alessia? It's late," he said.

I shrugged my shoulder because I’d rather not say my own situation.

"Enjoying the scenery, you?"

"It appears that your phony husband is not clinging to you." He said, and I chuckled.

I can't blame him, but I haven't asked him how he found out about how we became married couples, especially at the wedding, that was a private event. But I just sat on the sand and, as the moonlight reflected its light on the ocean, I let my thoughts be taken by it. And I can’t help but be amazed.

I felt a caress on my face and realized that I was already crying.

"You okay?" he asked me.

And then I began to cry and cry, but I chose not to lean on his shoulder and so did he. He stayed by my side as he listened to my sobs, but he stayed silent. And looking from a distance, I don’t know how I would feel about why I was crying and why I became like this.

In fact, we talked about it only contractually and we shouldn’t have feelings for each other, but how about me? I didn’t mean to and let everything fall into pieces. I don’t know how to start, but all I know is that I love him, but I can’t say it out loud.

"I told you, you don't have to put up with this set up." He told me

“If you just let me, I can go beyond what he does for you."

I just smiled at him, but he was still looking at me. I just bowed and kept my thoughts to myself. Is it so easy for me to lose hope? I don't understand. This is what I wanted to happen. I wanted to have their happy ending, but what about mine? How long will I tolerate my happiness?

Only Blade made me feel happy; he always put my happiness first. He is the one who made me feel things that even I could not feel for myself. Should I just give up?

Because not all feelings should be disclosed. But, I have to get rid of this immediately as I am drowning in my thoughts. I lift my head and place it on my hand wrapped around my knee and look away.

“You're not coming in yet? It’s getting really late. " He told me, but I shook my head at him.

“Enjoy yourself and don't cry because you're so lovely.” Dred told me

As I looked at him and waved him good bye, I realized that he doesn’t change just like when we met him when we were in college. He’s not this outspoken, he’s often quiet, but he doesn’t know how attractive he is. He attracted girls our age.

As I laid the blanket I was carrying earlier, I also lay down and I couldn’t feel any cold because for a moment I was numb. I don’t know, but I was getting drowned by my thoughts and suddenly a throwback flashed before my eyes.

I saw how happy I was with Blade, everything we did, how he cared for me, his love and warmth. I didn't care who could hear me, but as I blocked my vision with my arm, I started to cry and I felt numb. I didn't know that I had fallen asleep.

I woke up feeling chaotic around me and I started to open my eyes. I was drenched with water and as I got up, I was flashed with Blade’s worried face, but I stood up from them and quickly walked away ignoring everyone’s worried questions.

I didn't know that Blade was following me as I walked fast towards the hotel. I immediately entered the elevator and, thank God, he couldn't keep up with me. Then I realized that there were 2 elevators, so he caught up with me.

I was about to enter the room when he held my hand and I was nervous because I could feel his anger, but I didn’t care because the pain made me feel numb until I couldn’t feel anything. I looked at the opposite direction without looking into his eyes.

I don't want to know what you’ll have to say, but please let me have it, so that the pain will go away at the same as the time. Let the pain be done once.