Chapter 111: Chapter 111

I was walking with the portrait of him in my hand. We followed it as his wake was on the car.

I chose to place his wake in front of a tree.

Everyone was silent, including me; I didn't cry, but I felt agonizing pain in my heart and the indescribable closeness of my tyan.

I was looking at my reflection in the car window, where I could see his coffin.

My mother was beside me and holding my arms, hugging me.

I don't know where else to run as I face the reality. Some part of me accepted it already, and some part of me was still in denial, and the whole part of me was still in a maze.

As we were getting closer to the tree, I was wishing for something.

Something like I should be hit by a truck on that day, or even be struck by lightning, be stabbed in the abdomen.

But as I was thinking about how I could get revenge on him and make him pay for what he had done,

Maybe then I can take a rest and be with him.

But as questions flooded my mind, they were questions in and of themselves, such as: if I died, is there any guarantee that I would be with him even in the afterlife?

Will I be able to talk to him or even recognize him?

The car stopped and I was just looking at the guys holding the coffin and everything was in slow motion.

They were burying him, but I was looking at him being slowly lowered into the grave.

Then I saw a glimpse of what we've done for the past years that we've been together, and I was so happy.

I prevented myself from smiling. It was the sweetest memory I have.

I said and promised him in my dreams that I'd be fine and be alright, but I just really can't.

Everyone picked a flower and tossed it to him.

My mother caressed my arms and looked at me with a faint smile.

She grabbed one and I did the same.

It was really hard to breathe, but no tears were falling down my face.

I tossed the flower, and as it fell, some of its petals scattered and something about it dragged my soul with it.

As my knee weakened, I stayed seated as I looked at them putting the earth back to where they had dug it.

"Are you sure you're going to stay here?" My mother asked

And I've never been sure about my decision, and I nodded my head and my mom said, "Just be safe. I need to go back to take care of the people with us."

"I'm sorry about what happened." Mom said

And I was just looking at the people who had already buried his body and the ground was flat again.

I was wondering why they kept on saying sorry as if there would be a difference by saying it.

The workers bowed at me, but I didn’t mind them and sat on the tree where its shade was, and I hugged his portrait.

No one would bother saying it to me, but I even feel sorry for myself.

I feel like I don't need food, sleep, or even happiness in my body.

An easy death, I say. But as I hugged my knee, I couldn't contain myself again.

"It hurts so much."

Alessia cried as her shoulder shook. Blade was looking at her.

"Please look after Alessia," Emelda said through the phone.

Blade was currently at the meeting, but he suddenly excused himself when he saw her calling.

And he knew it was urgent.

But Blade didn't leave until the meeting ended, but it made him like a worm with salt itching to get out of the meeting room.

And I ended up seeing her crying again.

For some unknown reason, he was furious as he approached Alessia.

"Would you stop being like that to yourself?"

"Didn't you say that you told him that you got this?"

Blade said that made Alessia cry more and stand up to her feet.

Blade was looking at her and saw how lifeless she had become and said, "How can you even do that when you're looking like this?"

Blade ran his fingers through his hair, unsure of what to do or how to act.

Alessia was just looking at him with tears in her eyes and said, "What do you know? You're not even in a position to say that to me. "

Blade was stunned, but she did have a point, as a loud swoosh of air passing through them.

Blade couldn't contain himself by saying this.

"How can you take revenge on Dred if that's your situation?"

"You wouldn't last a day or two."

and that made Alessia catch her attention, and she scoffed.

"I was doubting myself for the thought that I had been thinking for the past few days and..." Alessia stopped to take a deep breath and removed her tears.

"I think I wasn't wrong about what I was thinking."

Blade just looked at her and his heart was beating fast.

"You! How did you know that we were at the park? How did the ambulance get there so fast? "

"It's not that I'm not thankful, but isn't it odd?"

Alessia asked as she was continuing to hug Dred's portrait and grasped the edges tightly.

"What? Like that ambulance happens to pass there like on a trip or something? "

"Do you find it odd as well?" Alessia asked as she was looking at him.

"Or did you know this all along?"

Blade felt so pressured as he was looking at her, thinking that she had already figured it out.

But he can't blame her. Everyone will suspect it, especially since he really shouldn't be there.

Alessia was just looking at him, and so was Blade.

They were both creating a tension that someone wouldn't dare to invade.

Alessia turned herself as she thought that her peacetime was ruined because of this person.

Blade just looked at her going away while holding her waist and Blade couldn't contain it.

"Okay, I'll tell you everything."

which made Alessia turn.

"I know about what happened to Dred and I think I was..."

"The one who delivered his death to him."