Chapter 96: Chapter 96

Kiara POV

I don't know why my brother is with this man, it's a good thing I can control myself now because otherwise I might have hurt or kicked him out earlier. I don't know what was going through my brother's mind and he let Nigel talk to me. I know that he knows we have a child because my brother told me.

I'm not mad at my brother because I understood that he had no choice but to tell the truth, because Uncle  Dark and Aunt Calliyah were in front of him. Brother also mentioned that they talked about it but I didn't expect him to come back here with him.

"Why are you here?" I asked him directly.

"Kiara," he called me softly.

"If you have something to say, say it, don't look at me like that because I don't need your pity," I said, "I don't want him to stay here any longer.

I saw him swallow several times while still staring at me. "I-I'm so-sorry.'' His voice showed that he was struggling.

I laughed at it. "That's all you came here for? You're just wasting your time because I don't care," I said.

"Kiara please, I know I've hurt you so much, I did a big mistake, but I hope you talk to me,"

"And what do you think we're doing? Playing games? Have you lost your brain?" I said annoyed, I don't know where I got the courage to tell him that.

"Kiara, please." I saw his tears fall.

"Why are you crying? We are just talking and I'm not doing anything to you, I should be the one who is crying now because you ruined my life." I even laughed sarcastically.

"I didn't know t--."

"Exactly! You don't know anything. After all, you only think about yourself, because you don't want to step on your ego. Your feelings are more important to you. You are selfish! I did nothing wrong to you Nigel but you retaliated against me terribly! No, I know why out of all the people in the world I ended up in a mess like you," I shouted at him. He was speechless because of what I said so I continued.

"W-when you left me, my life became miserable. Y-you know what hurts more? I cried every night because... I was wondering when you would come back or if you would ever come back to me. You abandoned me just like that. How many times have I asked myself why the person I love couldn't fight for me, why did you hurt me so easily? You know me, how many years have we been together but why are you so quick to judge me? Yes, I made a mistake, and you're hurt also but w-why do you have to crush me like this?"

"K-Kiara, please, give me another chance. Let me fix our family, please, I know you suffered a lot and I won't force you to forgive me but please let me make up for my absence,"

"Chance? When did I ask you for a chance? Did you give me that? How many times have I begged you, did you listen? No! You pushed me away! So don't ask me for something you refused to give me!" Tears started to fall from my eyes one after another, maybe because I was so angry and resentful of him.

"Kiara, I know you're mad at me, you hate me, you despise me. I'll accept all the hurtful things you will say, hurt me if you want because I know I deserve it." he is crying too

"What's the point? Will that bring back the old life? It won't, right? Y-you, don't know how much it hurts me to see my brother in pain and suffering! Y-you don't know how much it hurts to hear my brother cry and break down because of me and I couldn't even do anything! Because .. because I don't even know myself anymore. I'm so drowned in pain that I almost don't know how to get out." I wiped my tears with my hands, trying to hold back tears. I don't want to be weak in front of a man who destroys me. "I've been in the dark for how many years, Nigel, Storm is the only one trying to pull me back to the light. He's the only person who's shared all the pain with me. He's the only one who hasn't left me in the past. I'm so exhausted that I was almost giving up on myself. I'm so tired! I'm giving up but my brother? H-he never let go of me, he held me tighter so that I wouldn't sink completely and even though he was struggling, he fought for me, because .. because I'm his sister and he loves me. That's what love is, right? That no matter what happens you won't let go and give up on someone because you love them and that's what you didn't do Nigel because you were the first to turn your back on me."

"I lowered my dignity as a woman for our future child but you closed the door on me! I-I wouldn't have experienced such a painful night. You were supposed to be the one to protect me from everything but you couldn't! I wanted to kill myself because of so much pain but I'm always thinking of my brother and my unborn child. Because... I know that my brother will be hurt if something bad happens to me and I don't want my future child to experience losing a parent because you are not here also. I got depressed! I was traumatized! I have been living my life in a dark scary nightmare for how many years! I'm so scared that I can't even protect myself! I-I hurt other people, even my brother. And what's more painful? That I need to be admitted to this fucking place because I can't control myself anymore! How many years have I been here with other patients that I don't know, every day I'm thinking that w-what if one day I completely lose my sanity? What about my brother and son? I went through all of that alone, because the person who I was expecting to be my ally and support left me! There are times when I need you more but you are not here!" I added.

I stood up. "Do you know how painful it is that I can't take care of my son, I couldn't be with him and watch him grow up because we can't get close to each other because I might hurt him at any time because they think I'm crazy! "Then I hit him on his chest.

He quickly grabbed my hands. "Stop it, Kiara! You're not crazy!"

I immediately struggled and then walked away from him. "That's the truth! I hate you so much Nigel, I despise you! If I'm to decide? I don't want to see you anymore. If it's possible for you not to meet my son I will, but I'm not that selfish and a companion who deprived my child of a father. I already suffered when I was a child not having my Mom and Dad by my side and I know how painful it is, so I will not allow him to experience that. I would rather be the one to get hurt but not Chase because he's the only one I have! My brother and my son are my allies and they're the only ones who I know won't leave me no matter what happens.." I said emphatically. "Go now and leave," I added.