Chapter 27: Chapter 27

"And Then My mum forced me to eat"tony said,I laughed as he narrated

"Jeez,you're such a child"Zayn hissed and smacked him at the back of his head,see who's talking

"It's not your business,at Least I'm the youngest here and the one being taken care of most"tony smirked

"Says who"Emmanuel asked

"Says me,I might be a little childish and all sometimes but it doesn't count"tony defended

"Oh yeah,it does count,very soon,when you've gotten your girlfriend, she'd force you to wear on diapers"Samuel laughed,I joined them,then I remembered Jax,he wasn't at school,and he hasn't call as well

"Guys,do you know if Jax is coming to school?"I asked

"Not sure,I chatted him up last night,he wasn't replying"Zayn said,he wasn't replying either,then he walked in,he was looking unusual,his hair was scattered,tangled,rough and unkempt.Jeez.he wasn't smiling,I don't know,he looked kind of sober,I didn't like the way he was dressed,he was wearing all black,and ripped,even the T-shirt he was wearing was making his tattoos obvious,I hated it that way,as soon as he came closer,I perceived a strong vodka smell, obviously he drank through out the night,what is wrong with him.

"Jax,is this you?"tony asked surprisely

"I need no one's attention around me"he said,still standing then the guys left to their various seat immediately

"You're not excluded"he said referring to me

"Okay"I said as I stood up to sit down beside Zayn

"He drank again Zayn"I said sadly

"He's high"Zayn said

"I don't like him that way"I said silently

"It's okay Phoebe, he'd be fine,let him be for now"he said patting me on my back

"Zayn it's F/M class time"he said

"And I think Jax wouldn't be able to come, he's not in the mood"tony said

"He'll be alright,let's go"Zayn said as he stood up

"Bye Zayn"I waved him as they all walked outside,the Non-F/M students were in class,I looked at Jax from were I was,his head was on the desk,I wanted to cheer him up,I stood up from zayn's seat to my seat, sitting down

"Jax"I called to him as I placed my hands on his shoulder, raising him up from the desk,he responded to my move,his face expression was still the same,I managed to smile to him

"Baby, come on,smile to me"I said in a pleading manner

"Last time I checked,I needed no one around me"he said not smiling

"Uh?,even me?your girlfriend?your pretty sexy girlfriend?"I asked smiling rhetorically,he didn't reply, that's what I thought

"Sweetheart"I said as I touched his cheeks,he flinched away,I sighed,I didn't react,I was still normal

"What do you want Jax?"I asked

"Would you leave me alone"he asked

"No, I'm not leaving you alone"I folded my arms

"Come on Jax"I said as I coiled my hands around his arms

"Leave me alone"he said sternly,then I recoiled

"I'm gonna cry"I told him pouting, trying to force tears out

"Please do-n't cry"he pleaded,hmm

"As much as I don't want you to cry,it's as much as I want you to leave me alone"he said not looking at me

"Please"he added

"My anger on you might become worst"he said sternly,I frowned

"I know,you're upset with me and you're drunk"I looked away,he stood up and walked away,I ran after him,as he walked out,I approached him holding on his arms

"Get the fuck away from.me"he yelled as he flinched my hands away

"Yes of course,I drank and got a little bit sober,its none of your fucking business!,you know I thought you'd say I'm busy fucking with girls like I used to"he yelled

"No"I said,I knew he was really pained when I said that

"Cause you know what,I fucked with emma, last night"he said angrily,I didn't see that coming,what??

"What?"I was shocked and as well suprised

"You heard me right"he said and walked out,I approached him

"Jax please tell me,that's not truth"I asked sadly,how could he do that to me,he cheated,he fucking did!,I cried.

"That's what you expected right,that's what I did"he said and walked away.

Why did he do it?.I didn't even mean what I said when I said that.this came so off guard,he didn't have to do this.

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"Whose bag is this?"kay asked as he drove me home

"Jax,he left it at school"I said making me remember what he told me,I just kept picturing both of them together,he shouldn't have done that.

"What happened again?"Kay asked

"Nothing"I said,I must not let him know

"Okay then"he said and continue to drive.As soon as we reached home,I changed to my pijamas to sleep,even if it wasn't noon yet.i wanted to be alone,as much as Jax had hurt me by sleeping with Emma,I still wanted to be with him badly.

I couldn't stand it any longer,I stood up from my bed, changed into Jax's t-shirt with a black jean, packing my hair ponytail wearing a slipping.i carried his bag and my phone and walked downstairs meeting them eating,it's a good thing,they didn't call me to eat,cause I had no appetite.

"Kay,you'd give me my car keys, I'm taking my car out"I said as I cooked Jax's favorite with some herb to calm him down

"Where to?"dad asked as he accompanied me in the kitchen

"Jax's place"I answered packaging it

"Would you sleep over?"he sked

"Hm,I don't know"I said,that's if he would want me to stay

"Okay,be careful of his dad tho"he warned

"Okay,it's not like he can recognize me from when I was small to now, I'll be okay dad"I said.

As soon as I was done, I packaged it as well

"Here,take your car keys"Kay said handling it over to me

"Thanks,where's the orbit gum,mum bought last night"I asked,I was gonna it along too

"In the fridge"he answered

"Please pass it"I requested as I headed to the sitting room,he bought it over

"Thanks"I said collecting it

"Are you okay?"mum asked,yeah,I cried a lot

"Yes of course I am,I might be back tonight, I'm not sure"I said and hugged her and then walked out to my car, driving to jax's house.i know for sure,he wouldn't want me Near him,but I can't take that risk imagining him and Emma together again,after what they did last night.

It was already dark by the time I got to his house,I got down with everything I bought.The door opener as I dabbed on the door bell

"Phoebe"it was his mum

"Ma'am"I greeted faking a smile,as I walked in

"I'm happy to see you and thank God you're here"she smiled

"Why"I asked

"Since when Jax got back from school,he's been in his room, drinking,I can't even go in,he's so drunk and I'm scared.he might hurt himself and hurt me as well,you could help"she said sadly

"Drunk, highly drunk?"I asked myself in my mind

"I'll go meet him"I said,she nodded okay.then I walked up to his room,only for me to see Jax highly drunk like she said

"Jax no"I said as I snatched the vodka bottle from him,he was sitting on the floor beside his bed,his room filled with vodka bottles,he smelt badly of vodka,so unpleasant.I dropped what I bought him as i sat on the floor beside him

"What the fuck are you doing huh?"he asked drunkly as he was about picking another bottle

"No stop jax,you're drunk enough"I snatched it away from him

"Get...get away from me,it's not your-your fucking business,it's my life!"he yelled

"It's your life and it's my business"I sad as I packed all the bottles away, trashing them properly.

I sat down back with his food and herb

"Get out of my room"he said as he flinched my hands away from his room,I didn't listen to him.he's drunk.i touched his hair, packing it into two,all up,he didn't react

"Leave me alone"he said

"I wouldn't"I said as I brought out the herb to feed him

"It will help warm you up and dissolve your drunkness"I said,he didn't say anything

"Open your mouth,jax"I said holding the spoon filled with the herb.he looked away,I turned his face back to me

"I know you know I love you,I really do,I really don't like you in this state,so please open up"I pleaded

"Please sweetheart"I pleaded,then he gently opened his mouth,I fed him

"Water"he said as I was done feeding him,the herb was gonna make him dead tasty,but he looked more relieved

"No,not yet,you'd wait for some time"I said solemnly making sure no tears must drop.then I stood up,I picked his hands up and gently dragged him up,he responded to my move, standing too,I looked up at him

"I'm thirsty"he said quietly

"The herb is reacting,you'd wait a lil"I said,he gently nodded,I walked him to the front of his bathroom,I laid my hand on his t-shirt as I gently removed the button.he didn't complain.As I was done,I removed the T-shirt from his body.i just scrutinized through his body.so Emma saw all of this,and touched him and kissed him as well.i was filled with jealousy,I was hurt.i couldn't sustain the tears as they flowed freely.he gently placed his hands on my cheeks, making me to look at him,he was about leaning on To kiss me but I didn't let him,he didn't say anything

"You need to wash up"I said not looking at him,as I wiped my tears away

"Okay"he didn't argue.Then he walked into the bathroom.i decided to clean up his room and lay his bed properly.i bought out the cloth he was gonna wear next.

As soon as I was done,I picked up the trash where I kept the bottles and took them downstairs,I decided to fetch up water for him.As soon as I walked back to his room,he was already half dressed,I dropped the water.

"Let me help"I said as I walked closer to him and helper him zip up his hood .he looked more freshen,he sat on the bed.i dried up his hair and re-packed it for him.Then I sat down beside him as I brought out the food I made him,it was still hot like I expected.

"Open up"I requested,he did as I said,I fed him as fast as I could

"Are you okay now?"I asked as he was done taking water

"Yes thanks"he said,as I was about to get up,he touched my hands making me not to get up,I didn't get up but I recoiled from his touch,I felt akward when he touched me

"I'm sorry for my actions, I couldn't sleep last night"he said,why would he sleep,when he was busy with Emma on the bed

"Why"I asked

"My nightmare,I couldn't sleep Phoebe,it kept coming,when I close my eyes to sleep,it kept showing up,I was scared"he said.so that was it,that's why he got so drunk and slept with Emma,he wanted it to stop but it didn't work that's why he did what he did.i wish I would just tell him the truth,so it will stop,cause I hated it.he wants the nightmare to go.in other for it to leave, he'd get drunk and do other foolish things, hurting himself and hurting me as well,I couldn't stand it any longer,he has had enough

"I'm really sorry if I hurt you"he said,then I stood up,he did the same too,I faced him

"What's wrong"he asked looking down at me,not touching me,

"Nothing,I just feel so much pity for you, you're going through a lot, I'm not happy about it"I said sadly,it was all because of me and his dad is the cause.

"I know Phoebe, I'll be fine, I think,it will leave one day, I'd be fine"he said

"No,no"I looked up at him with tears

"Let it leave now!you've done enough to make it leave but it's not working,I don't want you sleeping around anymore,I don't want you drinking, enough of it Jax"I told him as I sobbed,I was willing to tell him the truth,not yet tho.he kept his hands on my cheeks,I found myself recoiling from his touch.he didn't complain.

"Hmm, please don't cry anymore, please"he pleaded,I was pained,also because he slept with emma.i couldn't get it out of my head.i gently cleaned my tears away.he touched my chin up, making me to look up,he was staring at me,he leaned on to kiss me,I didn't let him

"You don't want me to touch you or kiss you either,why?"he asked

"I'm still hurt,you slept with Emma"I said lowly

"I didn't fuck with emma"he said

"You,you didn't?"I asked

"Yes, I didn't,she slept over here last night with Lucy,I met her downstairs and I was drunk"he stopped talking

"And"I asked

"I didn't touch her,it..it was just lust,I got back to my room,and got more drunk,I couldn't sleep cause of the nightmare"he explained briefly

"I was frustrated babe,and I was scared,I couldn't even close eyes,I wanted to forget about it,I drank so much and even thought of going back downstairs to"I chirped in

"Sleep with Emma to forge about it"I said,he nodded yes

"But u didn't do it,I stayed in my room all awake till this morning, I'm sorry"he apologized,so he didn't touch her,I was so so relieved,I stretched up and kissed him,damn my height he gave in so fast and kissed me back,after sometimes,we pulled away

"I missed you babe"he said holding my hands

"I missed you more"I said

"Come here"he said as he pulled me closer and hugged me tight

"I love you and I'm sorry I hurt you"he apologized still hugging me

"It's fine, I'm happy to have you back"I said smiling

"Yeah"he said as he pulled away

"Are you staying over tonight with me?"he asked

"Do you want me to?"I asked

"Yes babe"he said as he carried me in bridal style to his bed and gently dropped me,he laid down on the end as well beside me and pulled me closer to his chest, facing each other,I laughed

"What?"he asked

"You're not sleeping on the couch?"I asked

"No,i want to sleep right beside you?"he said

"Oh"I said smiling

"I'm glad you like the idea"he smiled

"Yes of course,as long as you're not gonna misbehave with me"I said as I rested my two hands on his chest, looking at him

"Misbehave?how do you mean"he pretended not knowing what I meant

"Oh really,you don't know huh?"I said as I played with the zip of his hood

"I don't"he said,he wanted me to say out something funny,I wasn't good at it though,I licked my lips

"You know huh,suck me badly,take every inch of me"I said ,he was surprised

"You wouldn't spare me,would you?nah,I don't think so,you'd be so hard on me and make me wet"I said gently,he smirked,I moved further up as I trailed the tip of my pinky finger around his temple,then trailing it back down from his chest to his torso

"I know you're so capable of handling me,the direct and hard way"I whispered as I plan on moving his shorts down.i didn't know when he pinned me to the bed, climbing ontop of me,he was so fast.he was so all hard up.i laughed

"Fuck Phoebe"he almost yelled, I laughed louder

"What do you think"I asked as I wrapped my hands around his neck,he was still in me

"Where you trying to seduce me"he said

"Well I guess you fell for it"I said

"Yeah, you're good"he said

"Of course I am"I said then pulled him close to me and kissed him,he kissed me back then pulled away

"What do you want to do Phoebe"he asked staring at me

"Kiss you"I answered looking at him

"It's not too much"I added as I gently zipped down his hood, pulling it off, making him remain shirtless, seeing his tattooed body again,just in one night,I smiled

"You're bad bad"he said

"Bad for you"I sad as he leaned on and kissed me,it was slow and deep,I kissed him back.he stopped kissing me and trailed his lips to my neck and kissed softly,I loved it.i drew him more closer,making him not to stop.i wish he could forget about the nightmare,the way we were making out,I wished he could

"You're so sweet babe"he whispered in my ears,I smiled then he stopped and looked at me

"What"I asked

"Is this my t-shirt?"he asked

"Yes"I smiled

"Fuck"he said as he ran his hands through his hair

"What"I asked

"You're going to be the death of me"he smirked

"You liked it?"I asked

"Yes"he answered and kissed me roughly,I smiled then he stopped and looked at me

"I really want to rip off your clothes and do what's in my mind but, I'm thinking you wouldn't stand a second with me"he said jokingly as he smiled

"What!?"i said as I pushed him off me,he laughed,well that's way too much for an insult,I hit the pillow on his head,he laughed

"I was just joking okay,I didn't mean, I just want to be patient to have you all to myself on our wedding night"he said smiling,well I guess,he just spoke sense

"You know I can't wait for us to get married"he added smiling at me as he tucked in my hair to my ear that fell on my face

"You really are serious with this"I said as I played with his hair

"Yes of course,I wanna get married to you Phoebe,don't you want to"he asked

"Why wouldn't I"I smiled and pecked him on his lips

"Jax"I called to him

"Yes baby"he answered

"I really want to tell you something"I was ready to tell him the truth

"What's that"he asked

"It's kind of confidential, I'll tell you sooner tho"i said

"Okay babe,no problem"he said,I smiled

"I'm happy you're here with me tonight"he said

"I'm happy too"I smiled

"You're not gonna have nightmare?"I asked,

"No baby,as long as I have you here with me"he said as he pulled me close and hugged me

"I'm gonna have the best night with you baby"he added in his sleepy voice,I closed my eyes to sleep

"I love you so much"I thought I heard him say as he hugged me tight.