Chapter 61: Chapter 61

~Arsen Storm~

Pain ripped through my entire body as I was about to snap at the silver wolf's throat. Ignoring this one, I turned to where I had left Aurelia. But she wasn't there anymore.

I turned in all directions in a panic until I finally saw her in the middle of the battlefield. She looked frozen and looked down at her stomach. Only then did I realize that a knife was stuck in her stomach.

"AURELIA!" I yelled after transforming back. I punched the silver wolf hard in the nose with my bare fist, sending him tumbling back. Costa would do the rest.

I ran to my companion who had already collapsed on the ground.

"Aurelia." My voice was low and painful as I knelt beside her. Her eyes were closed. And her hand was holding that of a corpse next to us.

When I looked the corpse in the face, I realized it was Stevens. His lifeless open eyes were fixed on Aurelia. But as difficult as the death of another pack member was, I now had to save my little one.

I took Aurelia's head between my hands and turned it to face me. She wasn't dead yet. If she were, I would have felt it. Her heart is still beating in her chest. But who knows for how long...

"LUCAS!" I yelled through the crowd and less than three seconds later he was kneeling next to Aurelia.

"Oh no, Aurelia. You won't leave earth until you tell him." He said while doing something to her stomach wound.

"What do you mean?!" It came from me.

He gave me a pitying look, then turned his attention back to Aurelia. The fights next to us lessened and I wondered which of these wankers hurt my mate. He will suffer for it. I'll kill him for it sooner or later.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!" I yelled at Lucas. Luckily he didn't let my tone deter him from his work. But I couldn't control myself any longer. My companion was in mortal danger and I finally wanted to know what was going on is.

"She is pregnant."

"What?" I asked incredulously. But at that moment, Lucas stood up with Aurelia in his arms.

She was pregnant and didn't even tell me! And now I could lose both of them forever.

"Hold this and be careful not to slip the knife or you could bleed more," the doctor said, pointing to her wound. I did what he asked. I didn't really take orders from others, but this was an exception. It was about Aurelia's health. About her life. She just had to survive!

A few minutes later we arrived at the pack hospital and put her on a couch. Her heart was beating very slowly.

dr Malcolm, Lucas' father, came in and they both took care of my mate. I didn't leave her side until the couch began to move.

"She has to have an operation. You can't come with me." Lucas said.

"Will they make it?" I asked worried.

"The puppy was lucky as far as we know, but is not yet viable without its mother. And I'm being honest with you now. It's really not looking good for her." Then he left me and followed the table into the OR.

I fell backwards into a chair in the waiting area and buried my head in my hands.

Aurelia was pregnant with my puppy. But now I may lose her forever. Losing Aurelia forever. my companion. My soulmate. my mate My life.

For the first time in my life I cried. I didn't even cry when my parents died. But just when I think about never seeing Aurelia laugh again, a part of my soul dies.

I can't lose her. I just can't lose her. I can't live without her... I love her so much, so please don't leave me!

I sat in this despairing position for 2 or 3 hours. The tears have stopped, probably because I'm out of tears. Lost in thought, I stared at the bare white wall in front of me. Everything inside me was empty and the only thought that tormented me was whether Aurelia would survive.

But suddenly a great pain shot through me inside. It felt like someone was cutting my heart out and my soul along with it. This pain was so great that I fell out of my chair and writhed on the floor in front of me.

Some sisters rushed to me and wanted to help me.

"Alpha," they said worriedly, but I couldn't be helped. Nobody could help me now...

I roared knowing what that pain meant. Aurelia didn't make it. She's gone and wouldn't come back. Never again.

She's gone, leaving me alone in this fucked up world...

~Arsenic Storm~

I stood by the grave in the flower meadow where I asked Aurelia if she wanted to be my wife. She found this place so beautiful that I considered it the right place for the burial. Surely she would have chosen this as the right place. I wish she was here with me now.

The flowers I placed next to the grave last week were already withered. I exchanged them for a fresh bouquet of lilies. I wondered if Aurelia liked lilies.

"Everyone in the pack misses you."

It's been pretty quiet since the attack. The rogues have retreated and have not attacked for 2 months. They probably lost even more than we did.

I sat a little longer at the grave and thought about how I can muster strength for my pack. It's so hard without Aurelia. I don't know what to say when I'm with her.

Since I was making my routine visit, I got up without saying anything else and walked back. I didn't like this oppressive atmosphere around me. No matter where I am. The whole pack had quieted down since the attack. The children stopped laughing and I was blessed with pitying looks.

After a half-hour walk through the forest, I finally arrived at the pack hospital. I entered her room and grabbed her hand.

Aurelia. my aurelia My human mate.

Many think that would make you weak as she is weak and fragile. But she is not. She is a fighter. She attacked a werewolf without batting an eyelid to protect her boyfriend. So yes, she may be weak on the outside, but on the inside she is the strongest woman I know. And that's why she will fight to come back to me. So that we can be reunited.

But she is still lying here and sleeping while her belly is getting bigger and our puppy is growing inside her.

Doctors don't know when she'll wake up or if she ever will. But she is still here and alive. I can still feel them through our connection. She is strong.

I sat next to her bed and stroked her hand.

"Hi baby, I wish you were awake now and could see our little puppy getting bigger and bigger. Eventually he will become the next alpha. You should have been there when the doctor found out it was going to be a boy." Actually, she was there too, but no one knew how much she noticed.

My lips dropped to her hand. My dearest wish was to see her awake again. to see her smile again. But when I sat here next to her and tried to talk to her, I always didn't know what to say. Precisely because I have the feeling that she can't hear me anyway. Lucas said I should talk to her anyway, so I did...

"I love you."

I looked at her peaceful looking face and tucked a stray strand of hair behind her ear.

She had been dead for a few minutes. For a few minutes I thought I'd never see her again. Minutes of agony. These were by far the worst 4 minutes of my life.

At that moment I didn't want to live anymore. I would have given up my pack immediately and left it too. But Aurelia is not dead. She is still here with me. I just don't know how much damage her brain took in those 4 minutes and if she'll ever wake up.

But even if. Nobody knows how she will feel afterwards and what else she knows. Her brain may have suffered major damage that we won't know until she wakes up. If she wakes up again.

My hand now slid to her bed covers, which I then pulled down to free her stomach. Then I also pulled up her hospital gown so that her bare stomach was in front of me.

I put my hand on the bare skin of her already clearly defined bulge. Her hand might have been cold, but the skin of her stomach was all the warmer. A tingling went through my body.

Suddenly I felt movement under my hand. Our puppy was probably just awake. Then another kick.

He's done that several times when I was here - and I'm here almost every free minute. Otherwise it is always the mother who can feel it first, but with us it is different.

I took one of Aurelia's hands and placed it on the spot on her stomach where our little one was just moving. He did it again and I grinned a little. Moments like this were the only ones that could make me laugh lately.

Six months ago I wanted to take another companion. Can't believe how stupid I was back then...

Again the puppy stepped under Aurelia's and my hand.

"Arsenic?" came a faint croaking voice.

I looked up at Aurelia's face, startled. She gave me a weary look from under her long lashes.

open eyes. That means she's awake. Finally...