Chapter 46: Chapter 46

~Aurelia Williams~

We had breakfast together in the boat. We didn't say another word, but we had to grin at each other from time to time. I never thought I'd become a teenager in love and probably wouldn't have believed Arsen either.

"You got something there," Arsen said, pointing to the corner of his mouth.

"Gone?" I asked as I tried to wipe it away with my hand.

"Wait, I'll help you." Arsen leaned forward so his head was right in front of my face. He leaned down to my lips. But instead of kissing them, he licked the corner of my mouth with his warm tongue.

There was an odd feeling of his wet tongue on my skin that I shoved Arsenic back in disgust.

"What the hell is this shit?" I asked a little sourly. I mean he just licked me. But now that I think about it, I have to admit that he licked me as a wolf before. Just this was kind of something completely different...

"Your skin tastes so good."

I didn't know why but I had to start giggling. He just acted like a little kid.

I got up a bit and immediately grabbed Arsen again because the boat started to shake. But I wanted to be closer to arsenic anyway. I sit on his lap and put my arms behind his head. Arsen was a bit surprised at first, but then grabbed my waist to hold me in place. Then I put my lips back on his. I just couldn't do without him anymore. It was such an exhilarating feeling.

The more we kissed, the more intense my feelings for him became. I noticed how infatuation turned into real love and I couldn't stand it long without feeling his closeness.

How could I survive 2 weeks without seeing him? Does he feel the same way?

I pressed closer to Arsen's chest and the kiss grew more stormy and urgent. The boat pitched a little and in shock I let go of Arsen and jumped off his lap.

Too bad the boat was now sloshing the other way and Arsen's weight was coming over to me. Then the boat turned and I dived into the cool water.

I dove and swallowed water.

Panic spread through me. I was breathing hard and flailing my arms like a madman. I didn't feel the arms wrap around me until I was pulled into Arsen's firm chest.

"No fear. I've got you little one," said Arsen's deep voice. His mere presence calmed me and Arsen pulled me to the bank. There he heaved us both out of the cold water, where we then exhausted ourselves with the heavy clothes that the soaked up whole water, were resting on the lawn.

"I told you I'd save you." Arsen began. "You're safe with me."

"But we didn't have to try it right away."

"You capsized the boat." Arsen got up and then leaned over me. "By the way, you never had a stain on the corner of your mouth."

"What?" I exclaimed indignantly. But again, Arsen just kissed my mouth before I could fuss any further.

What is this guy doing to me?

Arsen let go of me and lay down next to me again and I could feel his heavy breathing. This time it was me who moved towards him and finally rested my head on his chest.

I listened to his rapid heartbeat. There was a monotonous beat that had a calming effect on me.

After a while in this position, I finally wanted to open myself up to arsenic. He told me his story so it's about time I told him mine. My past still scares me. But when I'm with arsenic, I forget about them. He deserves to know who I really am.

"You know, my mother is dead too," I started this sensitive topic. It was difficult for me to talk about it and thus to reflect on this day. But Arsen was the right person to talk about it.

I felt him move and then felt his hand tuck a strand of hair behind my ear.

"You don't have to tell me if you're not comfortable with it."

"That's fine. I want it." I paused for a moment and took another breath before continuing. "My mom was shot dead outside our house 5 years ago. My dad told me she was having an affair with a co-worker who probably wanted that Mum left Dad, but she didn't. So he just shot her, thinking, if I can't have her, then nobody can have her. Dad then got more aggressive after Mum died and started..." I dropped one Pause to choke back a sob. Tears welled up in my eyes too, which I tried to blink away. "He started drinking and taking his anger out on me." I looked up at Arsen's tense-looking face, wide-eyed.

"I wonder what he's made of his life now," I added. I'm sure he doesn't miss me.

Arsens swallowed hard and then avoided my gaze. Immediately I knew something was wrong.

"Arsenic, what do you know that I don't know???"

"I want to be honest with you." He took another deep breath. "Your father is dead."

"What?" I said in a trembling voice.

I should have been glad he died, but I couldn't. After all, he was still my father. The man who fathered me and took loving care of me for many years of my life. I wished him bad luck for his terrible deeds, but never death.

Now I couldn't hold it anymore, so warm tears rolled down my cheeks, which you probably didn't even notice because my wet hair was dripping too.

"He's dead." I repeated Arsen's words quietly to myself, because my head still didn't quite want to take it in.

Then I looked at Arsenic. "How do you know?"

He swallowed nervously again before saying, "Never mind." Arsen wrapped his arms tightly around me and tried to comfort me. In fact, his physical closeness helped a lot and calmed me down a bit. Still, I still had that Feeling like he's hiding something from me.

"Thanks for telling me."

I laid my head back on Arsen's chest and stared into space while my mind spun on a thousand thoughts. I tried to realize that the man I'm afraid of is no longer in the world. Tried to understand that with that, there was no chance he would ever be the same again. My father, who ran through the sprinkler with me when I was a little girl and laughed a lot with me.

He will never come back. He is dead.