Chapter 44: Chapter 44
"I was drove to Mum's with my head on my laps,my tears soaking my clothes,as we came to a halt,i couldn't move as I heard different voices shout out my name to pls come out,but non of the voices matters just one which calmed my nerves as I hugged her tightly coming of the car,she said soothing words in my ears as she led me to my room"
"Have a quick shower and get ready I'll be back,don't cry too much love your head will ache a lot"she said in a teary voice as she pecked me and leave,her voice said it all,I understand the voice with no uttered words;
On your wedding day we ponder
All the stages that you've known
From the time that you were little
Until now that you are grown
But most of all we look forward
And try to guess, and project, and see,
How will your life progress
What will you do, where will you be
Will you move closer to us
Or move even farther away
What kind of work will you want to do
Once you have worked more days
Will you be dedicated to each other
Enduring all as husband and wife
For all the experience behind you
That has brought you to this life
Put that experience to good use each morning
To keep you from growing apart
Your wedding ring should bind and hold
Two hearts as one from the start
But backing that ring with true commitment
Will see the battle through
And for your love to grow
And stay so strong and true
Work each day to become
Each other's very best friend
Then you will be a couple
Unbreakable without end
Work each day to become
The lover eachother desires
That's the way to always
Light each other's fires
Work each day to become
Each others religious stock
That's the way to always
Have a marriage like a rock
This last promise we will make
To you for the days to come
Be all these things to each other and
Your marriage will never be undone
"Hey it's okay,don't cry much"Halima said knowing how it feels to actually get married and leave every one for one man.
"I had a quick shower and came out in a Cinderella military green color gown with a light golden touches of flower pattern Diamonds embedded beautifully tracing the pattern from the long high neck down the gown floating behind sweeping the city of Abuja,as I sat and the makeup artist did his magic putting on my silver diamond Cinderella tiara my hair fell down straight to my waist as I wore my golden Cinderella Jimmy Choo tanzanite heels with beaded diamonds and a Golden Classic Prep Monograms Half Barrel Custom Diamond Beaded Clutch with golden accessories adorning my ears and neck beautifully.
As the photographers snap pictures and galleria film while my bridesmaids wore a black mermaid gown with a army green headgear and the groom and groom and grooms men wore their Green military uniform ready for sword crossing.
As I stood and my bridesmaid stood on my left while some on my right as the photographers shoot their shot.
"Awwwwwwwwwwn,look at our bride"Mahmoud said dramatically putting his hands on the sides of his mouth dramatically,as they all came in and jawaad looking even more handsome in his uniform,gallant as always.
He came straight forward to my side and held me on my waist"you look ravishing Reyna"he complemented as they all raised their phones in snaps.
"You look handsome too"
"love the way your skin feels so soft when I run my hands over it."
"Now ain't you a naughty big baby"I said while dragging his nose playfully.
"Are you ready to rock to night,because I wanna who the world you're mine and mine alone"
"Is that why you're being so touchy"I asked putting my hands over his chest as he moan softly enough for my ears alone hear.
"And I'm gonna show all those bitches that I got you"I said full of confidence because he gives me confidence and now he's my confidence"
"Let's go,he loves me all through with my gown and the maids holding the train not to drag a floor"
Green,white ,gold color pallets that is capable to fit any seasonal shift,magnificent floral center pieces,sparkly light dinner thingies,Emma's bat mitzvah was picture perfect with Florence oval dining table and Paris dining chairs,the color combination is just sublime,a floral entry arch Aisle flanked with roses makes a romantic entry,Beutifuk set up complemented with custom boxes and napkins wraps,ceiling of wisteria and tall centerpieces a mass of eucalyptus green with floral hints and kit candle the wedding was inspired. By the shape of gold circles,marble disks,muted colored flowers and any thing modern,classic and timeless.
As all the men got their sword ready for crossing of swords,my dad who walked me to my husband handing my over in his smiled painfully at me-he's hurting I know.
The way his eyes looked into mine voicing a lot which I understand ;
There she sits before her mirror,
Primping in excitement, her face flushed.
Today is her day; she will never know
How much I hurt, how scared I am
Of the void she will leave behind.
Will she forget me? I'll be replaced
By someone new, someone who makes her heart
Dance in her chest, a drumbeat.
Will he, can he protect her as I've done?
I have no choice but to trust...
I seethe with an almost-rage,
An unfounded, illogical jealousy, an anger
For what he is taking from me.
I am selfish. She is my joy, my life
I would die for her.
Today I will. A thousand times.
Then she turns to look at me.
In her beautiful face I see worry.
For me? She sees the unspilled tears
She knows. Of course, she knows.
She comes to me.
And with the smallest kiss, the subtle smile
All is well. She is still mine.
She will always be mine
In a different and wonderful way.
She is a part of me.
She will move on, she will give others joy,
And I am comforted knowing her goodness
Will be shared by everyone she touches,
And I am okay and proud, and I take her hand
To give her to her love, her new life.
I swell with almost unbearable pride
To have created something so perfect!
She was never mine to keep, this supreme being
Perfect to me. Shining, golden, priceless...
My heirloom of love.
And there he goes, that handsome, kind man
With his new bride, my daughter, my soul.
Does he know what has been passed to him?
He could not know, not yet,
But time will show him; he will realize.
Someday it will be his turn.
He will have to pass her essence on,
In his daughter, my granddaughter,
Our heirloom of love.
Will he weep? With loss, with anger?
Will he sit alone in his daughter's room
Filled with love and happiness...sadness?
No, content. A deep breath will help him stand
As I do now, and I walk with trembling lips
And chin held high. I left her hand go into the hands of her lover!
As I took his hands he gave me a reassuring smile which calm my nerves we watched as the officers did an entry dance called "BALL ROOM DANCE"after that,general salute was offered,the Jawad saluted appropriately as done we were matched to the venue as it is done in the sword crossing.
the commander in two escorts will advance in slow time with their sword at carry position,they halt in front of jawaad and salute the commander takes a pace forward and gave t he presidential message —we have a representative of the Nigerian Army presenting this sword today-field Marshal jawaad Imam Nashe,your late father will be proud of you sir,this is the beginning of victory,great battles have been fight and won by the use of sword,officers are known by the sword they carry _on behalf of the president,commander and the entire MOD thereby. Present this sword on this great occasion on your wedding though weapon of war to defend the nation,MOD your beautiful wife and cutting of wedding cake,congratulations sir!
The sword was presented as jawaad returned it to the body guard who slot it in jawaads scabbard and salute.jawaad then draws his sword,kiss and retain he took place backward to align his escort and salute finally they all turnabout,March out in quick time and halt turn the right in single file and salute to dismiss.
The cake was cut with the sword and The DJ-Gabby asked us to feed each other as we did and every one applause.
We danced to the song of the celebrity Davido ft Nicky Minaj-HOLY GROUND who was invited specially for this night as everyone danced and enjoyed a lot of music from Davido as we watched our parents,the amiable guest the president representative in person of his his wife which came cx he couldn't make it,governors and emir of different states which some made it and Some couldn't ABBA'S friend and coworkers from Paris,as we received gifts and endless of pictures takings as people ate to their fullest,danced and celebrate with us,I saw my darling mothers looking beautifully at,as we snapped endless pictures with each of them as I saw them leaving as the night is getting late and darker and today instead of leaving with them I'll be leaving from here with my husband-they couldn't wait till tomorrow to delivery me,why are tired of me and it brought tears to my eyes.
"Hey what's wrong,you okay?"he whispered worriedly searching my eyes.
"Uhmmm...yes"I faked a smile.
"Are you tired?Should I take you home?"
"No enjoy your time"I faked another smile and he nod not fully convinced.
As 11pm clocked we called it an end part,end of #AJWEDDING#A NEW BEGINNING#OFFICIALLY THE NASHE'S#AJSEALEDTHEDEAL,As Thousands of flowers hundreds of Man hours,this wedding is a labor of love but it's so worth it.
"I left with my friends to my new family,my mother in-laws leaving my husband behind"
The collection of bride and everything was done traditionally as the woman gifted me with US dollars,set of golden jewelries and an assurance of not having problem with her or her son.
As I was lead into a room far in another side of the house where it's so quiet,I got in with my friends as I cried and cried until their were no more tears,hearing the voices of the groomsmen approaching,all the bridesmaids went out and statues by the door for them to pay to see the brides face-which she has changed into a skirt and blouse Ankara with long sleeves hands decorated in a beautiful tulle and her veil frappes atop then her white golden alkyabba worn on top as she seated on top of the bed at the center.
"Three million"the groomsmen said.
"7million"Fatiti said.
"Okay,5 million"Mahmoud said.
"How about 10 million?"Sofia said
"No,okay fine 7 million"and seven million was shaven to them as they entered the room all hailing waiting for the groom to raise her veil and he did as they saw her face they all left with saying goodbye leaving just i and him.
We sat feeling like both total strangers to each other,the feeling of anxiety and shyness cloaking over the room.In order to "break the ice", we firstly greet each other with the traditional Islamic greetings of salaam. Thereafter he gently place his right hand on my forehead and recite
Translation: - "O Allah! I ask you of her goodness, the good within her and the goodness upon which she was created. I seek your protection from her evil, the evil within her and the evil upon which she was created".
After that we both performed ablution and prayed two rakats of Salatul-Hajah as it may be offered as a token of gratitude and thereby requesting assistance from Allah (Rabbul-Izzrat) for a successful and blessed marriage and a pious offspring.Thereafter, we read some Deeni literature to each other particularly on the topic of Nikah, In this regard Kitabun-Nikah, Hayatul-Muslimeen.
"Uhmmm...Reyna you can go freshen up okay?"I did as said.
I stood up gently and went to the bathroom ready to get my clothes off,but I couldn't usually I get help from mama or Jamila and now who's gonna zip down my clothes?"
"Hey you okay?"I heard his voice shouting at the bathroom door and I open the door.
"Uhmm can you please help me zip down?"i asked carefully choosing my words.
"Uhmm,sure"I turned and he zip down slowly as he didn't let go even after zipping down my clothes,he removed the hooks of my bra in a calm way sending shivers down to my core making me wet all the way down,as I stood still moaning softly as he removed one piece of clothes after another,I couldn't take it even though I was naked,I felt shy but theirs no more shyness as I'm ready to use all the advice given to me,even though it's hurt at first Its all I want right now ,all I want is my man all to me,all over me and all into me,as he carried me straight to the bathroom leaving me surprised as I thought i was gonna see myself thrown onto the bed,keeping me in the jacuzzi he smiled beautifully at me as he removed one piece of clothing after another until he was naked as me,he joined me and we had a long hot shower,as he washed my hair and played with it until I stopped feeling shy"
What a first night sexy shower!
"You're beautiful Reyna,so beautiful"he whispered into my ears his voice fanning my neck as I moved a little to give his fanning voice more access,we bathed for a long time and then he came out leaving me to digest everything that happened after him teasing me like this.
I washed my body once's more and I left the toilet in a bathrobe as I head into the room I saw a pair of black leggings,a white ripped top and a black. Knee length blazer waistcoat with a turban cap,as he wore the same thing as I and a matching couple heels boot for me and a booth for him.
"We going somewhere?"i asked confused.
"Unmmm,just wear it"he said with a smile helping me Arid my hair as I got dressed and followed him.
"Mum we'll be leaving now else we'll be late"he said as we approached his mum.
"Oohk come back safely you both"she said with a smile knowing I don't know what they're talking about.
"Thank you maaaama"I thanked her as he hold my hands making me shy in front of his mum.
"Safe journey"she said as we walked out of the house to the car waiting for us.
"Jawaad talk to me,hello what's going on?"i asked feeling so confused.
"Hey it's a surprise,just relax okay?"he said dragging me to his chest as I lay willingly sitting in the car.
"We're here"he said taping me as I take a look at the place-the airport"
"What?"i asked coming out of the car as he lead me to a private jet and soon the wheels were up and we're at the sky with me not knowing where we are going.
"This is so not fair,I said to him as I walked inside to one of the bedrooms,I brought out my diary which I've been holding"
"Hey Reyna,I'm sorry okay?"he said with a pout and sat close to me as I payed no heed too him.
"Okay I'm sorry,can I see that ?"he said narrowing his eyes to my diary as I opened the first page.
"It's my diary Rey,no one touching "I said still feeling angry.
"Tell me ain't we one now?we're married can't you trust me this once with your diary?"he asked looking at me sincerely.
"Okay fine here"I said handing him over the diary as he scooped me into his arms securely and he read the first chapter aloud-the first chapter of my pain.
"Like the sea and the sky
We reflect each other, you and I.
Past the moon and the stars,
You promised you loved me that far.
Now all the lies you've told
Have burrowed a deep hole inside my soul,
All those memories we share,
All that pain I cannot bear.
You broke my heart
Finding pleasure in tearing me apart.
Because of you, my happiness never lasts.
Because of you, I can only find darkness in my past.
You broke me down,
Left me collapsed in agony upon the ground.
You broke every promise that you ever made,
But still for your sins I must be the one who pays.
You stole my innocence that very day,
Leaving me no other choice"
"This is beautiful he said looking at my lips with hunger and desire"
"Thanks love"I said taking him by surprise giving him a peek on his lips.
"Are you teasing me?"He asked
"No"
"I love you Reyna"he said leaning his forehead on mine asour breaths fanned our faces,I took my phone gently as a message pop up-it's a reminder.
"Happy birthday Rey"I whispered into his ears looking at his blue eyes closely.
"How do you know my birthdate?"he asked surprised
"I asked maama when you refuse to tell me"I replied with a smiled .
"So what gift do I bless you with on this day?"i asked curiously
"I want nothing love,nothing but you,marrying you is the best gift"
"Thanks love,I think you should rest"he thanked me
while standing to leave as I heard the bitter sadness in his voice,I knew what he wants,I stood up in front of him entwining our hands,I looked up at him as he watched to see what I was going to doing in surprise,I crashed my lips against his in a gentle wet kiss,brushing my hands up and down softly on his chest as he kissed me back in hunger,jealousy and desire as he pushed his hands down on back side holding my bum and caressing it softly,he yanked his hands immediately as he back away from the kiss.
"I'm sorry about that"he said and was about to walked away.
"Sorry about what?don't you like any of that?Ain't you my Rey?"i asked feeling guilty and sorry all at same and I'm ready to break the ice.
"I Am,but I don't want to take advantage of you love,I won't do anything unwillingly to you or without your permission,I'll wait until the day you're ready"he said cupping my face in his palms.
"How about i give you the best of me huh?"i asked while crashing my lips in his as he moan softly and whispers "damn girl" into my ears
I backed away a little and uttered "I love you Rey"taking him back by surprise.
I finally said it!
"I love you Reyna,I love you"with our lips crashed on each other's in a French hungry kiss,we helped each other removing our pieces of clothes one after another as he picked me up and drop me on the bed,I hear a low groan came from him as his fingers dig into my thighs and his other hands touching the swells of my Breast making me moan wanting him even more into me but as he take his time I feel wet down my core "Damn girl I could take you like this all day"his hands slips between my legs as his other arm snakes around me,pulling me back against him I moan softly,as his fingers begin massaging my clit slowly he kisses me hard and I melt in his arms,his eyes dark and hungry as I take him back by surprise laying him back on the bed as I climb onto him,I played with his hard member as he moan softly"I love you Reyna"he turn me back opening my thigh wide for a better access,he came up high to my breast as he touches and squeezed them romantically sucking them fast and hard kissing each life upon it,I bite my lips as the sweetness is too much and the tips of my fingers makes little noise inside of me,he kissed my neck as he went away all done driving away all my pain of past years and suffering,he massages my hair as he kisses my lips in hunger,he collects me in fullness,I felt a sharp pain but it all went away as I gave him the best of me driving him into another world as he ride all my pain away ,moving my hips to grind against him-as we made love in the Air on our way to an unknown destination but as we love I knew Paris was the perfect place for an Air sex because Paris is love.
From reading the first chapter of pain,
from my diary,
after all those past years of ,
Fumbling, stumbling,
around in the dark.
Fighting, igniting,
flames from a spark.
Blinded, reminded,
of the fear inside.
Turning, yearning,
for a place to hide,
Soaking, choking,
struggling to breathe.
Hiding, abiding,
my ghost won't leave.
Chasing, racing,
I stagger away.
Breathless, restless
in the mud I lay.
Dreaming, gleaming,
I escape the past.
Winning, new beginning,
I am free at last,
To the last chapter of a new winning new beginning, I am free at last,
As the city of Paris gave me its fullness in air,
In the air for a perfection sealed,
Because love is Paris and Paris is love.
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As the end came out beautifully,
My start was beautiful,
Indeed my name AMAANI is a whole meaning
My life,experience,love for a Diary is now shared with my partner,
As he ride all my pain away in love ,
I drove him to a new world in love ,
It started all ugly,
And cleave with sorrow to aching hearts.
With a final wave, all disappears
Beneath the hush of silent tears
At first I thought,
Why can't sorrow be so kind
As to hide away and stay confined?
And leave us only thoughts of bliss,
Of joyful things to reminisce.
So I focused not on sorrow,born
Where forlorn times but now are happy,
But instead of misery and trial,
And pleasure all felt without relent
And with all the love to fill our hearts,
Sorrow and pain then soon departs.
THE END
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