Chapter 41: Chapter 41

Fuck.. Is Julianna? No... It shouldn't be like that. If things turn like this I will lose Julianna. If she’s Mark’s sister he will never give her to me. Fuck. How could it even be possible? I again looked at Julianna and examined her. Mark also has grey eyes right? But hair is different. There’s no need to be scared because Julianna didn’t even recognize their maid. I sighed with relief. Anyways I should marry her tomorrow and then even if she’s the young lady of the Holland family I don’t care because she’ll be a part of Winston's family and she already belongs to me.

“Juli let’s go” I spoke as Julianna looked at me and then she smiled. Fuck… Fucking beautiful. Didn’t Marianna also have this kind of smile?

“Ryan, will you find Amelia’s number for me?” She asked me as she came to me. I nodded at her and kissed her forehead. As we came out of the Hotel and went to the carpark I saw the old master of the Holland family and Mark’s wife. Fuck. I can’t let them see Julianna. I looked at Julianna and quickly took off my coat and placed it on her.

“It’s very cold today” She nodded at me with a smile. I wasn’t lying, it was really cold because it was nighttime. I turned to my car and opened the door for Julianna and she got into the car so when I was about to go and get into the car I heard the voice once I liked to spend time with as a friend.

“Isn’t this the young master of Winston's family?” I looked back and saw Mark who was smirking at me. When the fuck did he come here?

“Of course. You’re not wrong” I smirked at him too. Fuck.. Julianna’s and Noah’s eyes. I think I’m not wrong about the secret of Julianna.

“Isn’t today the birthday of our little young master?” He mocked me and took a cigarette out and placed it between his lips.

“So your son beat my son?” Fuck... how does he know and did he see Julianna?

“It was because of your son’s wrong words” I watched him as he lit his cigarette and started to take puffs.

“My son didn’t tell me the reason but you better not provoke me, Ryan. Remember we’re not friends anymore” He looked at me with an emotionless face and told me.

“Mark you know that I didn’t know anything” I spoke as he threw his cigarette and stepped on it.

“But your fucking grandparents knew it.” Everything because of grandma. She’s the most hateful woman.

“What if I found your sister? Will the engagement between the young lady of the Holland family and the young master of the Winston family still be valid?” I asked him because I wanted to know his answer. His eyes filled with hurt as I talked about his sister. Still, he couldn’t let go or forget?

“Engagement between both of you broke long ago. So even if she came back or you found her, you’ll never have her. You don’t deserve” With that, he turned and left. So that means another problem is coming too. She’s already mine Mark. I smirked while looking in the direction he went.

“Ryan” I heard Julianna’s voice and I turned back and saw she was poking her head out and looking at me. I sighed and got into the car.

“Does your hands still hurt, baby?” Julianna asked Noel and didn’t get any response. I looked at Noel and saw he was sleeping while burying his face against Julianna’s chest. Little pervert.

“Ryan.. can you take me home? I have something important there” Julianna looked at me and said I nodded at her and drove to the house she and Noah lived in. I remembered how I went there every morning thinking that Noah’s sister would come.

After we came to her place Julianna took Noel into a room and placed him on the bed and went out of the room. I looked at the room and found it belongs to a kid and it was Noah. I slowly walked inside the room and took the picture on the table. Noah and Julianna and a woman and a man in their middle age. I watched them closely and found Julianna and Noah didn’t have any features like them. I should confirm this. My mind is a mess because of this thing. Shit. I quickly came out of the room and went to find Julianna.

“Julianna..” I went into the other room in the house and saw Julianna was sitting on the bed while burying her face against her palms. As she heard my voice she looked up at me with tear-filled eyes.

“Here.. this is it” She gave me an envelope and my heart began to beat so fast. I took it and looked at it ‘Juli.. don’t open. It’s not for you’ my fastened heartbeat was covered with hurt as I saw the little letters on it. I looked at Julianna as she stood up from the bed.

“I’ll see Noel and come” With that, she left the room. After she left I looked at the letter in my hands and my heart began to tremble. I slowly opened it and took the piece of paper inside of it. Before reading it I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

‘Hey, Sir,

I couldn’t ask your name and I thought you would come so I’ll be able to know it but it’s okay because you should take care of your wife more.’ Fuck… my eyes filled with tears as I started to read it. Fuck.. Fuck.. it was all my fault. I looked at the paper and continued reading.

‘Sir, I feel like I’m leaving soon and I heard they were talking about it but I know you would come to see me even if after I was gone, I like you sir and I trust you so that’s why I’m telling this to you Please help me with something’ I controlled my tears falling from my eyes. Why does it hurt to read this?

‘Julianna Kennedy. She’s my sister and she’s so pretty and I don’t feel like leaving her but she didn’t come to see me for a long time. Sir, I heard two nurses were talking about her and they said Julianna was selling herself to a man for money for my surgery. I don’t want it sir because I don’t want her to lose parts of her body. She'll be sick. I don’t know which parts she sold in her body for me but I’m scared sir. Please could you stop her from doing that to her body? Please force her to finish her studies and could you help her with her things? She’s so ignorant.’

‘And sir a few days ago a scary man came and asked me about her and I said she left me in the hospital and never came back. I told it because I was scared if he hurt her

‘Sir I’m going Pete came with my medicine. Thank you sir and hope your baby and wife will be so healthy and strong. Don’t show this to Juli’

Is this the real pain that a man could feel after losing someone important? The pain inside of my heart couldn’t turn into words or any other thing in this world. Fuck… I looked at the paper again and put it inside of my pocket. Why did things turn out like this? Why didn’t I go and see him? I could’ve asked about him more that day without going home as soon as that evil woman talked to me. Didn’t Chris ask me to find more about Julianna? How am I supposed to release this pain inside of me? He died because of me, because of my family.

I was the man who bought his sister. His sister sold herself to me. Noah didn’t even know the meaning of it; he was just thinking Julianna sold her body parts. Fuck.. If he knew I was that man will he ever like me? I sat on the bed and clutched my hair tightly. I just didn’t have… Fuck… Why did things happen like this? I’m a fucking bastard and it was all because of me. I was fucking ignorant and now I’m suffering for it. He was just a little boy and he had to live and learn about more things but he had to die untimely. If I go there to see Julianna without caring for grandma’s words Noah would have still been alive. Fucking shit… Chris was correct. I lost the most important things in my life because I believed grandma’s words.

“Ryan…” I heard Julianna’s voice and I quickly stood up from the bed and strode towards her.

“I’m sorry” I hugged her so tightly and kissed her hair. I will never let her go. It was because of me she lost her loved ones in her life. I’ll give her everything and protect her with my life. I fucking love her.

“Julianna we’re getting married tomorrow” I looked at her and said as her eyes covered with tears.