Chapter 30: Chapter 30

After Chris went to his room I stayed there for a while and went into my room. I changed into sweatpants and lay on the bed.

‘Congratulations sir’ As soon as I closed my eyes to sleep Noah’s words repeated in my mind with great pain in my heart. Fuck.. Urghh... My head hurts. I got up from the bed and went to Noel’s room. I looked at my son that Julianna gave birth to. Urghhh... Fucking hell. Why was I so ignorant? I laid beside Noel and hugged him so tightly but I couldn’t fall asleep. I was thinking about everything and every memory made me heartache.

Finally, it’s morning. Urghh... My head hurts so fucking much. Shit... I couldn’t sleep all night. With that, I got up from the bed and looked at Noel who was still sleeping peacefully. My heart softened because of him. I went out of his room and went into mine. I quickly grabbed a shower and changed into a normal black shirt and black pants as I put my shirt inside of my pants slightly. After I was done I looked at the time and it was already six in the morning. I knew Chris was also sleeping at this hour so I quietly left the house and drove the car to a flower shop. I bought a bouquet of white roses for Noah and drove to see him.

As I stopped the car. I slowly walked to his grave and saw a woman who was kneeling in front of his grave. She was wearing a black long frock with braided hair. She had placed one lily flower beside his grave. I watched her for a while and my heart tightened as I saw her trembling shoulders. She’s crying. It reminds me of the first day I saw her in front of the hospital. I took a deep breath and walked towards her. I placed the white roses I bought for Noah beside Julianna’s white lily but yet she didn’t notice me. She was just crying while burning her face in her palms.

“Julianna..” I found my voice was hoarse and filled with sadness. As soon as she heard my voice she looked up at me and quickly stood up. She wiped her tears and looked into my eyes for a while and turned to leave. What the hell? She’s leaving just like that?

“Julianna... Wait” I grabbed her from her hand and spoke.

“Let go of me… Don’t touch me” She forcefully shook my hand away and left without even looking at me. Fuck..

“I’m not letting go” I chased her and grabbed her from her waist and hugged her tightly. Fuck.. No. I’m not letting go.

“Let go of me, Ryan… Are you crazy?” She tried to push me away while hitting my chest. Urghh. This woman is like an angry kitten.

“Listen to me. Hmm?” I spoke gently as I caressed her hair and kissed her forehead.

“Stop your bullshit, Ryan. Let me go. You will never see me again” With that, she forcefully pushed me away. My heart shattered into pieces as I heard her words.

“No. I said I’m not letting you go” I pulled her again closer to me and said. SLAP…. She again hit me across my face. Urghh is it that fun to slap me? Shit.

“Why do you want to fuck me again?” My heart clenched as she smiled coldly at me. Why? Why is she talking to me like this? It hurts so fucking much to hear her words. It felt like someone’s stabbing my heart.

“Julianna, listen okay? I..” I wanted to explain to her but she cut me off.

“Enough Ryan. I don’t want to listen to you. Let me go” Why is this woman so stubborn? Handling Noel is a very easy task when it comes to this woman. Urghh.

“Didn’t I say that I’m not letting go? Hmm?” I buried my face against her neck and asked.

“Why are you doing this to me, Ryan? Why? Am I something that you could play when you wanted?” I immediately looked at her because of her words. What? No. What the hell is she talking about?

“What are you talking about?” I asked her as she looked away from my eyes and pushed me away again. With that, she just left. Fuck… This woman is really complicated. Suddenly I felt angry because she was not listening to me. Fuck… I’ll make her listen to me. I strode towards and grabbed her by her hand.

“Let me go bastard. Idiot.” She shouted at me but I didn’t care. I just dragged her into my car and opened the door to the passenger seat and pushed her inside of the car. Then I got into the car and buckled her seatbelt as I drove.

“Are you crazy? Stop the car. Are you going to kill us? Stop it” Why is this woman shouting? Urghhh Damn... Am I driving this at high speed? Urghh

“Idiot” She shouted at me and started to hit.

“JULIANNA. STAY STILL.” I shouted at her because I was angry. Then she suddenly stopped hitting me. I looked at her and saw she was looking at me with fear and tear-filled eyes while biting her lips. Fuck.. She’s so fucking cute. My anger disappeared as I saw her action. Noel has inherited this cute action from her. I stopped the car in front of a cliff. Why did I drive here? Urghh.

“You asshole” With that Julianna opened the door and ran out of the car. Fuck she’s running towards the cliff. My whole body shook with fear and I quickly got out of the car and ran after her.

“JULIANNA. COME BACK.” I shouted but she didn’t give a damn about my shouts. This woman… Holy fuck.. Then she stopped in front of the edge of the cliff and turned back as she looked at me. I stopped a few steps away from her and sighed.

“Come back, angel. You will fall” I slowly took a step towards her and spoke. She’s fucking gorgeous. Her hair and her long frock are ruffling to the same rhythm because of the wind and at the same time sunlight have landed on her skin and it made her beauty become something no one could even reach. Fuck this woman is mine...

“Don’t come or I’ll jump” Hell … my heart was covered with horror because of her words so I stopped on the spot.

“Julianna, are you a kid or something like that? Noel is better than you.” I sighed and looked at her face. She was looking at me with a stubborn expression.

“You let me go or I’ll jump down from here” Fuck.. This woman really has the guts to threaten me. She’s even using her life.

“I can’t. I’m not letting you go” I sighed and said as she looked away from me.

“Alright” With that, she turned around. Fuck.. Is she going to jump? No.

“Okay. You win. I’ll let you go. Come here now” I said as she quickly looked at me.

“Really?” She asked me again while watching my eyes. I quickly looked down and nodded with a sigh. Then She slowly came towards me.

“Remember this, my little lady, There’s no way that I would let you go in this lifetime”