Chapter 23: Chapter 23

Wha? Did he just say? Let’s live together? That means I can stay with my son right? No, did I just hear him wrongly?

“Wh... What did you say?” I looked at him because I just couldn’t believe what I heard.

“Let’s live together like a family. We are a family anyways” He spoke and kissed my forehead.

“Are you? Serious? Can I stay with my son?” I asked him again.

“Yeah” He smiled at me and my heartbeat increased because of his smile. Damn.. this man is just so handsome. Sudden happiness came into me and with that thought unintentionally I smiled. I again looked at Ryan who was gently smiling at me. My heart began to beat so fast and I kissed his cheek. I knew he was shocked by my action and I was embarrassed. I quickly pushed him away and turned to leave but before that, he pulled me again and pressed his lips against mine.

I didn’t want to push him away and I kissed him back. This is the first time I’m kissing a man with my will. Before every time he kissed me it was a forceful kiss but today I’m willingly kissing him. I wrapped my arms around his neck. Urghh... Why is this man so tall? I had to stand my toes to reach him but yet he’s tall and I’m short.

Ryan wrapped his arms around my waist and pressed himself against me. He slowly deepened the kiss and pushed his tongue inside of my mouth. Then he picked me up and walked towards the bed as he placed me on it. He stopped kissing me and climbed to the top of me. I looked at him and saw he was looking at me with a smile. I quickly looked away because I was just embarrassed.

“Why are you so shy? This is not the first time we are in the same bed. Hmm?” Shameless idiot. I didn’t look at him and I heard him sigh. Then again he turned my face to him and kissed me. I responded to his kiss while wrapping my arms around his neck. Slowly our kiss became passionate and sloppy. I could clearly feel Ryan’s heartbeat and his hardness against my abdomen. I clearly knew what was going to happen between me and him now but for some reason, I didn’t care and I wasn’t afraid.

I felt Ryan’s hand sliding into my bathrobe and he was touching my thighs. My body was reacting to him and I wanted it. Then his kisses moved towards my neck. I couldn’t control my moans but I forced myself not to do so. His free hand slowly undid the knot of my bathrobe and removed it. Then he stopped his actions and looked at me, I bit my lower lip and looked away. Urghh. I knew I was blushing like an idiot. With that, he took off his shirt and threw it away and he also took off his pants.

“I’m going to do it okay?” He asked me. I took a deep breath and nodded. With that, he pushed his hard length inside of me.

“Ahh..” I gripped his strong muscular shoulder and buried my face against his neck as he started to move. It reminds me of the first day that I did it with him. I was just twenty years old. I wanted to cry but I forced myself to hold my tears back.

“Does it hurt?” He asked huskily against my ear and I shook my head because it didn’t hurt. It was just pleasing me and I found myself wanting more.

“Okay.” With that, he kissed my head and started to thrust me so fast and lust took control over my body.

I’m just having sex with a beast-like man but he’s just so gentle towards me. Part of me knew that I should just run away from this man because he was just so dangerous and heartless. He even killed a man in front of me without a second thought. I could clearly see that the man I was just having sex with is really not someone who had forgiveness with him. He was just simply heartless and dangerous. He even raped me once but I didn’t want to leave him. I just don’t know and I should hate him for making me lose the most important thing in my life but I couldn’t. I just couldn’t hate him or push him away. I just wanted to stay with him and love him. The way he told me that he didn’t have a mother to love him made me heartburn. I still could feel the pain that I felt after I saw his eyes.

I knew that I’m already bonded to this man and there was no way for me to escape from him. I wanted my son to call me mommy and this man gave me what I wanted within a few hours. He even saved me from that man. Urghh. I forced myself to forget those thoughts and feel the pleasure he was giving me. So I closed my eyes and kissed his neck while traveling my hands through his hair….

The next day I woke up and found myself hugging tightly Ryan and resting my head on his arm. Urghh... My body aches because of him. How many times did he do that? Urghh bloody pervert. I looked at his sleeping face and he’s just so cute. Totally looks like my son. They had the same eyebrows, same eyes, same hair, and the same sexy lips. I smiled at his sleeping face and got off the bed. I picked up the shirt that he gave me last night yesterday night and wore it. Then I went into the bathroom and washed my face and went to make chocolate pancakes for my baby.

I found the kitchen and started to make breakfast. Thankfully everything was there in the kitchen so I didn’t have to bother with anything.

“Mommy..” I heard my boy’s sleepy voice and I quickly looked at him. He was rubbing his eyes while looking at me. He’s already awake?

“Good morning baby” I went to him and picked him up and I kissed his forehead.

“Good morning mommy.” He whispered against my ear and giggled. Awash. He’s just so cute. I placed him on the kitchen counter and kissed his forehead.

“Why are you wearing daddy’s clothes, mommy?” He looked at me and asked. Urghh… How am I supposed to tell him? I sighed and stroked his hair.

“Mommy doesn’t have clothes here baby. So I wore daddy’s shirt.” I said to him and he nodded with a serious look. He’s just simply cute.

“Daddy will buy clothes for you mommy. He’s the best and he has money” I laughed because of what my baby said. Of course, his daddy has money because he's Ryan Winston.

“Alright. Mommy is making chocolate pancakes for you and after that, I’ll wash you okay?” I kissed his cheek and said.

“Okay mommy” He whispered against my ear and kissed my cheek. Why is this boy whispering always? I smiled and stroked his hair. With that, I quickly finished making breakfast.

“Let’s go and wash you.” I picked him up.

“Look mommy, daddy is awake... Lazy daddy” I heard my boy say while looking at Ryan who just came into the kitchen without even wearing a shirt. Urghh...

“Why did you wake up so early? You never wake up” I looked at Ryan who was smirking at my son. Urghh

“Mommy. I will wake up early okay? Daddy is not right” I sighed and kissed my baby boy’s cheek.

“Okay. Good boy” I looked at my son who was giggling against my body while looking at Ryan. Puff. This father and son.

“Where are you taking him?” Ryan asked me while looking at my lips. He even licked his lips. Pervert.

“To wash him,” I said and looked up at him. He smirked at me and looked at my legs. Pervert. Without caring about him I went out of the kitchen.

I went into my baby’s room and took him into the bathroom. I filled the bathtub with warm water and removed his clothes as I placed him in and went out of the bathroom and picked a dress for him from his closet and again went into the bathroom.

“Mommy, I saw you in my dreams. You were so beautiful” My boy said while smiling at me. Did he see me in his dreams? My heart filled with love as I heard his words. I also saw him in my dreams for almost four years.