Chapter 38: Chapter 38

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"I remember the first time I saw you," his hand holding mine.

"You're everything I could ever wish and want to have. It was the first time I agree to my wolf with something," his lips curve in a smile.

"I want to be the best mate but then I couldn't, I just couldn't turn everything around. It wasn't fair for you" I try to pull my hand away from his but he held it tight "please at least hear me out"

"no Eric I can't" still plead so I ended up staying.

This time he raised his body up his back leaning against the bed headboard. He took my hand then made me sit in front of him his hand caressing my cheek. I tried to look away and close my eyes but he tilts my chin up.

"You are a perfect person and a perfect mate. The strongest that I have ever met and the kindest of them all. I misunderstood her gift for me" I saw his eyes clouded with tears until they slowly slip from his eyes down to his cheek.

"I killed you once, I killed you twice in fact I killed you many times. But you... You never kill me. I... We waited for that day but it never came" He tried to calm down

"you could have done what Claire did to Aaron, shutting him off without a second chance and parading her new lover around but you never did that to me."

My hand instinctively reaches out for his and the other wiping his tear-off we were both crying.

"You teaches me so many things even brought me to the realization of what a deadly sin I have committed of what part I did wrong in."

He moves his gaze to the window where now a full moon is seen.

"I shouldn't accept Claire back then, I should ignore my stupid desire and let Aaron have a second chance with his mate."

Eric look at me once more and try to wipe away my tears, he lifted up my chin with his finger delicately

"I apologize for everything that I've done, I am deeply sorry for it and I will take everything with me, all the guilt, Regrets, and pain I'll take them with me" his tears pours down once again.

I knew that it wasn't entirely his fault, some part was entirely mine. I mean my family kept me from Eric by not giving me that freedom. Yet I cannot blame them, since I didn't even fight for what I really want. To find my mate but look where that it leads me I was too late to get to him. Too late in putting things in place this I couldn't stop myself from crying.

It still hurts a lot, knowing now he did want me, that he did save me but decided to back off since he knew what he has done. I just couldn't stop my aching heart even though I'm starting to like maybe love Aaron yet there's always part of me that still longs for my mate.

"I know Aaron loves you so please promise me you will love him in return, love him freely, never look back."

He cough and I nodded my head in agreement.

"I know I don't deserve this but I beg you of one thing" he breathes slowly meaning his time is coming to an end.

He slips down again on the bed laying his back on the smooth satin while I moved to make space.

"I promise I'll wait for you the next time and please promise to be there"

"I don't know Eric" I sob

"I know maybe not in the next life but maybe in some other lifetime," he squeezes my hand I thought about it and I wanted to have a chance of being loved by my real true mate so I nodded my head yes

"I promise Eric" without thinking I leaned forward kissing him on the lips sealing our promise with it.

I pull away and finally saw his chest slowly go up and down. He died before my eyes with that last smile on his face. I stay there for a while then I push myself up to leave I open up the door and came to face Aaron who opens his arms wide and I run into them. Engulfing me to his chest as I cried out

"he's gone."