Chapter 64: Chapter 64

Ahana Pov's

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3 month later, It was 2 am but I could not sleep. I sat down on the study table and opened the diary. I stayed with Arzoo in Sid's room which Sid had renovated for both of us. Thought that whenever I want to talk to Sid, I will write all those things in this diary so that when Sid comes, I give this to him. Through this he will not miss our pregnancy period. He will know what is going on in my life but don't know when it became a habit to write this diary. I picked up the pen from the side and started writing in my diary.

"It's been 3 months, Sid, now come or send any of your letters or messages. I miss you a lot but don't worry, I am taking good care of myself and Arzoo. Every day, every hour, every minute, every second- I think about you. Today was my sonography, I saw our baby on the screen, Sid, our baby is too small.. I think this baby will absolutely go on for you. He or she will be exactly the way you are.. Please Sid come soon. Missing you a lot. Oh god, these pregnancy hormones. Nowadays I used to get more emotional. Arzoo was stubborn just like you. Today she did not even have to take a bath. Sometimes I wonder how you used to handle this devil alone. You just come, then take care of both me and our love... ok? please come fast.."

Tears welled up in my eyes, which were falling on the page of the diary. I quickly closed the diary.

"I know, You are on a mission.. I understand Sid but what to do with these pregnancy hormones. I hope wherever you are you will be doing your duty well. love you my handsome husband" I uttered and went to bed and slept beside Aarzoo..

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Time was passing slowly.. In this period of pregnancy, I was missing Sid every moment but he was not with me. well I had no regrets about this because I understand he is on the border, only then we are safe here.

It had been 8 months since I married him by signing those papers. The doctor gave a delivery date after 4 weeks but I had neither received any message nor letter from him. I'm just hoping that he is fine. I was lying near Aarzoo when my phone rang. I quickly put my phone on silent and read the name on the screen, "Dad". Arzoo was sleeping. That's why I took the phone and went to the balcony.

"I have a someone special person letter for you" he muttered as I picked up the call

"letter? Sid's letter?"

"yep.. He sent this letter 2 months ago but I just got it.. I have sent it to your house. Will come soon.."

"Love you Dad," I mumbled.

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I was talking to dad only when I heard the sound of a bell ringing, I quickly cut the call and went away. I want to read the letter given by Sid as soon as possible. I quickly took the envelope from the delivery boy and signed the document before he could ask me to do it. I went to my room and sat on the bed. I was about to open that envelope but Aarzoo woke up and started crying. Hearing of her crying, Zoya also entered the room.

"Why is she crying? What happened suddenly?" she asked

"Just woke up, maybe she is hungry," I replied. I was about to take Aarzoo in my lap but Zoya already took her in her arms.

"I will feed her. you should take a rest" Zoya muttered.

"but,"

"I won't listen to you, just sleep for a few hours," she uttered.

I was about to argue but my eyes went on the envelope in my hand. I didn't want to rest but I wanted to read his letter. I wanted to know how he is. Did he miss me? When will he come? There are many questions in my mind and I was going to get the answer to my every question only from this letter, so I didn't say anything further to Zoya. She left the room with Aarzoo.

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Seeing Sid's letter after so many days, tears fell down from my eyes but I quickly wiped them and started reading the letter.

"hello lifeline, my life partner, my wife, Mother of my children’s. you have driven me crazy.. I keep thinking about you all the time. I didn't know when I started loving you so much. There is a lot of snow here, I miss you more in the cold"

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I started blushing after reading this line. I bite my lips and again start reading the letter.

"Now don't blush and bite your lips. I don't know when this letter will reach you... well, Now I come to the point. There is a lot of danger and firing here, I don't know how long I will come to you or even if I will be able to or not... Please don't cry now. I can't see the tears in your eyes. I had only one regret, we have spent so much time together but I was never able to express how much I love you. You are my lifeline... If we meet again, I won't let the smile go away from your face. All four of us will be with each other but it is hardly possible. The condition is not right here. anything can happen anytime and if i indulge in tricolour, our flag please don't cry and please don't stop leaving your life for me or for our children. Please move on. Sameer and Zoya will take care of Aarzoo and our upcoming baby. Now don't think that I am imposing my decision on you. I just don't want you to stop your life because of me. If I don't come then don't stick yourself in my memory. move on with a good life partner. As I moved on with you and thank you Ahana for coming into my life. I love you. If possible, we will meet again or else otherwise, put flowers on my corpse.

love you my LIFELINE"

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The letter had fallen from my hand, I had tears in my eyes but I wiped them quickly...

"I will not cry and nothing will happen to my Sid.. Nothing" I thought. I was lost in my own thoughts when I heard Aarzoo crying. I quickly went to the hall. She was in Zoya's lap and Zoya was watching Television on which news of our nation's border was coming. Seeing that, it was clear how critical the situation was.

"Sid Bhai's posting is also on this border." she said. I looked at her and looked back at the television.

"our country will win. don't worry." I mumbled and took Aarzoo in my arms. She hugged me tightly.

"take care Ahana you are pregnant" She mumbled. I nodded and went inside my room But the sound of television was coming till my room. I had tears in my eyes but I wiped them.

"I won't cry Sid, you just do your duty well"

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Sid Pov's

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I was looking at the photo of Arzoo and Ahana. I was remembering the moments I spent with both of them when the sound of gunshots came from outside. I quickly put the photo frame in my bag and took out my gun and went outside.

"What's the condition?" I asked one of my soldiers.

"They are attacking again, Captain. I don't think these terrorists will get away so easily. These people have only one mission, to enter our country and kill our own people. bloody motherfucker" he spat and started firing.

"No one can run away from here. Let the bastards die with our hands but we will not let them hurt even an ant of our country. " I muttered and started firing.

Firing was continuous for 2 days but the enthusiasm of our people had not diminished. My eyes went on my soldier who was shot on his leg and many terrorists were firing towards him.

"soldier Aman .. cover me.. I have to go to save Raghu, he get shot on his leg" I mumbled

"Ok sir"

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I quickly ran towards him. Aman was giving me cover. I had just brought Raghu to the side when someone fired on my arm.

"Aah.. mother*****" The person who shot at me, I took out my gun and shot him.

"Sir your hand is bleeding" Aman muttered.

"I'm fine.. Firing should not stop. They all have to die. Now it is too much. Now this is the time to end this story." I mumbled.

Fires went on...

"I love you lifeline.." I thought in my mind and went towards their camp. I had secretly come very close to his camp. So close from where I knew that now there is no chance of escape of these people.

"Now your story is over" I muttered and threw a Grenade towards them then all I remember is bomb.. I jumped in the air and fell away. There was pain in my whole body but I had a smile on my face because now the danger was averted from above my country. and soon darkness consumed me.

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Ahana Pov

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I had made Arzoo sleep after drinking milk. I glanced at the clock, it was time for my medicine. I went to the hall. my eyes fell on Zoya who was hugging Sameer and weeping in his arms.

"what happened?" I asked.

Zoya and Sameer didn't respond to my talk. My eyes went to the television, a news channel was running on it whose headline was showing that the war going on the border had finally ended and our country won the battle. I had a smile on my face but as soon as I read the next headline, tears welled up in my eyes. I had even lost my balance but Zoya quickly held me.

"News... Sid's body isn't found.. what are they saying? He died" I muttered and looked at Zoya. she nodded and hugged me. I didn't understand how I should react. I placed my hand on my tummy when my baby kicked.

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"There was a call from your dad, he said that Sid Bhai took the grenade and went towards his camp and after that his body was not found" She mumbled while crying. I quickly wiped my tears and stood up.

"It's time for my medicine. I should eat something" I muttered. I was about to go to the kitchen but Zoya grabbed my hand.

"Ahana, Do you realize what happened? Brother is no more. at least say something"

"How should I react? I had received his letter today. he clearly wrote in it, don't cry for me. Tell me what should I do? I can't even cry. He took this right from me" I mumbled. a tear rolled down from my eyes but I wiped them and went towards the kitchen and started eating.

I was just eating non-stop, tears were falling down from my eyes, but I wiped them. After a point I started coughing. Zoya quickly passed me a glass of water. I drank water and then filled the glass again and went to my room, took my tablets and then lay down near Arzoo on the bed.

"I am not crying Sid but that does not mean that I will move on. My life is now only for Arzoo and to be our born child. If they were not there then I might have been martyred at some border now." I muttered and closed my eyes.

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Don't know when 1 month has passed. Sid's body was not found and there was no news of him. Everyone thinks he is dead but I don't know why I still had a hope, he will come. My delivery date is only after 2 days. Still hoping that he will be with me. Don't know whether it will be boy or girl but whatever happens it will go up to Sid. I was not feeling well. That's why I had come and sat in the garden outside the house. I was looking at Sid's photo on my phone which I had taken secretly. I still remember: When he saw this funny picture of him, he was very angry. A smile came on my face remembering that moment. Till now in this entire pregnancy period I am able to smile because of our memories only. It's not easy to be an army officer's wife.. it's not easy..

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