Chapter 95: Chapter 95

Today is my last day as a free woman. I chose to spend the last day of my freedom with my sister, Rosa. Ben and I have spent so much time in these past few weeks. We went to the beach and enjoyed the day together, eating ice cream and hot dogs. I’m not feeling good in these past weeks since I passed out that day. I have no idea what happened to me that day, I felt like someone just hit my head and that caused me to blackout.

“You okay?” Rosa asks, she sits on the couch and chews her snack as she looks at me grabbing more snacks in the kitchen. “I’m not feeling good in these past two weeks” I reply, making my way from the kitchen to the living room. “Have you checked on it?” She asks. “Nope” I respond, placing my ass on the couch. “It doesn’t matter… I think I just tired and need some rest” I end. “Well, probably” Rosa sighs, she grabs more snacks on the table.

“So how’s you and Ben?” Rosa asks. “W-what do you mean?” I ask with a raised brow. “Oh, haha… I mean, your marriage” She chuckles. “Ugh, I don’t wanna think about that for now at least…” I groan, landing my back on the couch as I chew my snack. “Do you talk to Lena?” Rosa asks. “W-what?” I surprise. “You mean? I call her and say ‘hi’ for the first time after five years and telling her that I’ll get married to Ben? Are you fucking kidding me?!” I scoff.

“That’s not what I mean, but yeah… closer, I mean have you talked to her after you guys broke up? I mean you literally leave that poor woman” Rosa says. I clear my throat and a little bit hoop “I didn’t… I haven’t talked to her, yet…” I say. “And I leave her for my own sake, you know” I shrug. “Yeah I know…” Rosa sighs. “B-but… I missed her” She groans, landing her back on the couch. “Mmm… I missed her too...” I say in a low voice.

I truly missed Lena, I have no idea where is she now. She maybe has a new girlfriend now, I mean, Lena would never being single for the rest of her life, I believe she will find someone to keep her bed warm at night. I really want to see her before I go to prison, before I spend my six months alone, if I say that I didn’t have feelings for her, I lied. I lied to myself and to people around me, especially Rosa. “She didn’t deserve that, you know…” Rosa says.

“She’s a good person” Rosa ends. “She didn’t deserve that! She didn’t deserve to be treated like I have done to her! She's fucking didn’t deserve everything bad happens in her life!” I outburst. “Maybe she didn’t deserve me, that why the universe separated us” I end. Rosa heavily sighs as she shook her head “Mmm… I don't know” She says. “I truly want to be with her, you know. I truly want to spend the rest of my life with her” I start.

“She is the love of my life” I almost cry. “She’s the one that I dreamt of, but… risking my life with her? I don’t want that” I end, tears are about to come out of my eyes. “Yeah, but you still end up in prison with or without her” Rosa says. “I’m fucked up you know… I’m fucked up!” I highly raise my voice, trying to make Rosa aware that I wanted this conversation to stop. “Mmm, I don’t know, Maia. I don’t know” Rosa sighs.

“But listen… It doesn’t matter what kind of path you choose, the good one or the bad one, you’ve always got my back” Rosa smiles as she caressing my arm gently, trying to calm me down. “Because you’re my sister, and I love you…” She ends. “I love you too” I smile. “Okay now give me hugs! I wasted my last six hours on a flight to be with you today” Rosa fully opens her arms and gives me space to hug her.

I smile and run my body to her, placing my arms on her shoulders and hug her. “I’m gonna miss you” I say, tears start dripping down to my cheeks. “I’m gonna miss you too” Rosa responds as she caressed my back. I off my body from her and facing her “Promise me that you will visit me all the time” I say with tears in my eyes. “I promise! I tell you that I will stay here after you out of the prison, you remember that, right?” Rosa asks.

“Yeah, I remember that” I say, weld up. “Okay now stop crying!” She wipes my tears and chuckles. “Okay…” I chuckle. “You know what, if I had a chance to see Lena again in my life, I would like to tell her that I really love her, that I miss her, and I still can’t get over her” I laugh softly as I lean myself on the couch and staring at the ceiling with a sweet smile in my face. “You still love her, huh?” Rosa asks.

“Mmm yeah… I did and I still…” I remove my gaze from the ceiling and point my gaze to Rosa. “But I have Ben in another place of my heart” I sigh. “I mean… I love Ben, but my love for Lena is different. And I don’t know how to explain…” I end. “It’s hard to have two people in our heart and have to choose one of them one day” Rosa responds as she shook her head. “Mmm yeah…” I sigh, resting my head on the couch and chewing the snack.

“But the point is… I don’t know if I can see her again and tell her that my feeling for her is real and tell her that I’m so sorry for leaving” I sigh. “If you had a chance to get back to her or the universe brings you both together, what will you do? You back to her or choose your own path” Rosa asks. “I-I… don’t know” I reply in stutter and sigh. “But, it doesn’t matter what path I choose that day, Lena will never ever forgive me” I sigh.

“She will never forgive everything I have done to her…” I say with a slight of grief in my voice and lowered brows. “Ugh… who knows” Rosa sighs as she keeps chews her snack. “I don’t wanna talk about it anymore! It makes me sad” I groan and laugh softly. “Well…” Rosa laughs. “Have you talked to mom or dad?” Rosa asks. “Mmm… nope, I haven’t… But they will come with us tomorrow to prison” I say.

“Abuelita?” Rosa asks. “Yeah, yeah… she will come too!” I respond. “She was so sad knowing that I will go to prison in these couple of months, but I told her that I’ll be fine” I chuckle. “No one will mess or hurt me there, and I will never ever socializing with people. Just sleep in peace at night and wake up with smiles on my face in the morning” I hum with a sweet smile on my face as I keep chewing the snack and staring to the ceiling, resting my head on the couch.

“No dad, no mom, and no dramas! Ugh… that will be my best months ever” I groan. “Mmm… I wish I could go there with you” Rosa hums. “Yeah, I wish you there with me…” I respond as I close my eyes and take a deep breath. Rosa suddenly off her head from the couch and facing me “Hey, I have two free ice cream coupons in Max & Mina’s” She says. “Grab your bag, we’ll out today” Rosa up from the couch, she’s grabbing her bag with her.

“And I’ll buy everything you wanted today!” She ends. I quickly grab my bag and shook my head with a sweet smile on my face. Rosa and I make our way to the driveway and drive to the spot after. Rosa is the only sibling that I had. She may be annoying sometimes, but she always by my side every time I need her. I might be pissed off of her a little because my parents love her more than me, but Rosa is still my sister, she’s the one who loves me after my grandma.

“I’m so glad that I had you as my sister…” I say as I’m looking at Rosa who drives the car. She gives me a sweet smile with a raised brow “This ain’t joke, right?” Rosa chuckles. “N-no… this is not! I mean, yes I hate you since we’re kids, but I love you, you know… it usually happens in sisters-hood relationship” I say. “Hahaha… I’m kidding” She laughs. “I know you love me, Maia. And that always be!” She smiles.

“I may be smarter than you, but I have a couple of tricks to makes you win since we’re kids” She chuckles. “Hahaha… I know that one! You let me won the family running race when I was six!” I laugh. “Yeah, that one too! I ran slowly that day and let you won the race, and I’m so proud of you that day” Rosa laughs with tears in her eyes. “Ughh… I love you so fucking much!” I groan and I give her a sweet smile after.

“You know what… when the first time I met you when you’re born, I tell myself that I will always protect you and put you as my priority, and be the best sister for you in this world” She smiles. “Before you’re born, mom and dad always talked about having a son in the family. They pray to God every night and asked for a boy” Rosa chuckles. “Guess what…” She laughs softly. “He answered their prayer, mom got pregnant, they were so happy that day” Rosa smiles.

“But they got a girl” She chuckles. “Don’t worry, they were happy too! Because they bring the most precious little girl with a sweet smile into this world” Rosa smiles as she looks at me. “It doesn’t matter if they had a girl or a boy, that’s same! I will love you for the rest of my life” She ends. “Ugh… you makes me happy and sad at the same time” I groan and chuckle. “Alright, here we are…” Rosa pulls over and we reach the spot.