Chapter 25: Chapter 25

MAIA’S POINT OF VIEW

The streets were dark with something more than night, everything in the street seems like a darkness for me. The street looks full but I felt empty, birds sleep in the nest…hiding from the gloomy Queens night. Every city in the world always has a street gang… the homeless people sleep around the street with a thin blanket over them. My heart is broken into pieces… I wish they get a better life someday.

I see the homeless kids sleep on the street corner and one of them is just 3 years old! God, that breaks my heart. Do our sins in the past make us reborn to this way? Life sucks… I know. Some people born to be rich and some people born have nothing. I know it’s unfair… but… we cannot do anything… that’s our destiny. I’m so grateful because I still have my family till now… some people may lose their family out there. All we can do is to live our lives and be grateful for everything we had.

I haven’t received any text from Lena… I’ll waiting for her tonight and talk to her about all questions in my head. I drive my way home… in the darkness and silence. I parked the car and I walk home… I didn’t see Lena’s car in the parking lot. I open the door and I found nobody home… all people fall asleep. I walk to the living room and turn on the light, I look at the top of my phone screen “It’s 11 PM” I say in a low voice. I haven’t seen Lena in a day… I missed her. I put my bag and sit on the couch, I turn on the TV and wait for Lena to get home. And I fell asleep…

LENA’S POINT OF VIEW

Staring at the phone screen and checking the messages, Maia hasn’t texted me today… she might mad at me because I left without words today. I drive myself home and my mind keeps thinking of Maia, I’m so stupid because I’m afraid to tell her the truth. She might accept me, or she might leave me because of this… Maia is my love and she’s the person that I love. Tears flowed from my eyes to my cheeks… I wonder how my life goes without Maia by my side. I don’t want to think about that… that’s too painful.

Being apart from Maia in a day makes me sad, and Maia must felt the same. I could see the love for me in her eyes, I never saw someone looking at me like Maia did… even Sasha. All love that Maia gave to me it’s more than enough, no one ever loves me as Maia did, She’s special... my mind is full of her. I parked the car and I walk to the apartment… It’s 1 AM. I open the door slowly and locked the door. I’m about to walk upstairs and take a shower, but I see Maia sleeping on the couch… I come to her and I sit on the edge of the couch.

I run my fingers to her hair and stroking her hair gently, she might wait for me to get home and fall asleep on the couch before I got home. I stare at Maia and I’m stroking her soft cheek… “I love you so much Maia…” I say in a low voice. I leave Maia and I walk upstairs, I take a blanket from our room and walk downstairs. I cover Maia’s body and I put a pillow on her head. I smile when I look at her while she’s sleeping… “I missed you so much” I say, then I kiss Maia’s forehead. “I do really love you… but I have something to be fixed now, so please love me more and trust me” I say in a low voice. I kiss Maia’s forehead one again and walk upstairs, then I clean myself and I slept alone…

MAIA’S POINT OF VIEW

I opened my eyes, things getting clear… I get up from the couch, rubbing my eyes… staring at the top of my phone screen and It’s 6 AM. “Jeez…” I mumble. I run with my 30-speed bird wings to upstairs. I open the door and I see nobody… “Fuck…” I say. I check the bathroom and it still wet… “Lena’s just got here” I say. I run downstairs and walk to the kitchen “Where’s Lena?” I say to Rosa. “Ahh… she just left, why?” Rosa says. “Jeez fucking Christ motherfucker” I hit the table and kick the chair next to me.

“Jeez…calm down” Rosa says while touching her chest. “What happened to you guys?” Rosa says. “She’s fucking avoid me” I put my right hand to my head and the left one on my hip. “I saw she kissed your forehead before she left… I thought you guys were fine” Rosa says. “We’re not…” I say. I inhale deeply and say “Hey… did you covered me with my blanket last night? And put a pillow on my head?” I say. “Nope… not me” Rosa says. “How about mom?” I say. “I have no idea” Rosa shrugs.

“But I don’t think that was mom cause she was busy taking care of Alison last night, you know… Alison keeps crying” Rosa says. “Ahh… I see” I say. Rosa gives me some water and says “You know… that’s probably Lena, and my eyes never lied to me… Lena’s fucking loves you and I see that” Rosa put her hand on my shoulder. I move my head and stare Rosa “But… why she’s avoiding me!” I say in a low voice. “I have no idea…” Rosa says. “Why don’t she tells me” I say in a gloomy face, Rosa shrug.

I drink the water and calm myself down, I inhale deeply and exhale… “Everything is gonna be alright” I say deep inside. I have no idea why Lena is avoiding me, she tells me nothing, which makes me sad and angry. My head is about to explode, the lava is almost gushing out… “Fuck you Lena” I mumble. Rosa stares at me while cutting the veggie and giggles. “Why are you giggles like that? I’m so stressed” I say. “You know… your lesbian drama is like the high school TV series I’ve ever watched when I was 18” She chuckles.

“Fuck you…” I say then I left. I walk to my room and threw myself on the bed, I pull Lena's pillow and hug the pillow… I inhale and felt the pillow “It’s her vanilla perfume” I say while hugging the pillow. “I have no idea how much I missed you” I say. I reach my phone and text Lena… I type the messages and say [We need to talk] I plugged my phone and then I take a shower. I clean myself quickly because I’m late… it’s almost 8 AM. I wear my suit and put my makeup on, I haven’t bought my pink lipstick so I use red once again.

I brush my hair and walk downstairs to breakfast. I sit on the dining table and sigh. “Why are you look sad today?” Abuelita says. “Ahh… I’m good nana” I say. “You sure honey?” Abuelita says. Rosa stares at me while eating her food. “I’m fine” I say. “Are you sick?” My mom says while putting her hand to my forehead. “I’m so fucking fit” I roll my eyes. We eat our food and finish the breakfast, I grab the car’s key and leave.