Chapter 53: Chapter 53
"I should, the occasion warrants it," looking at him questioningly, I make a gesture of not knowing what he means, he smiles, “we have been through many things Dulce, since we met everything looked bad, but time made me change my mind, just like you and although you have made it difficult for me, now I know that we love each other, we deserve to be happy.”
With a bigger smile, I bite my lip, "I still remember when I met you, oh my! I didn't like you, I couldn't stand you,” we laughed together, “but you immediately made me do things I didn't want to do," I sigh, "Mr. Hamann, you bought me and I fell in love in the process. Can you be more romantic?" I ask mockingly in a sarcastic tone.
"Fuck, my cock still hurts," he gets serious, “you left me with a desire I never had,” I smile through tight lips, “that's when I realized you had to be mine, I wanted it even more."
Chuckling, I said, “it was your fault, you made me act like that. What did you want? What, you will let me seduce you and that's it?” I see him nod.
"That was my plan."
Chuckling, I take a sip of my drink, “how hard you hit the wall Mr. Hamann, how hard you hit."
The evening is perfect, Kahin is a true gentleman and that side of him kills me, makes me fall in love, loses me and captivates me, that man is the one I love, that man is who I want to be with. I see him get up and stand next to me, he kneels before me and his smile makes my heart beat, looking at him seriously, I pray that he is not going to do something crazy.
“Dulce, as I already said, I know that things between us did not start well, but as time went by we have realized that our feelings are stronger than our stubbornness,” I smile a little wary, “although I have asked you before to be my girlfriend and your fears led you to give me a refusal that hurt me like nothing had ever hurt me before," I run my tongue over my lips quite nervously, his hands on mine make me more expectant, “now I will formally ask you to be mine, to give me your heart and all of you." I smile relieved, I hate marriage and never in my life would I get married, not for all the love in the world.
“You are a love , but when you ask for things your way you just want to make more than one thing clear,” I get up and force him to get up, “can't you ask me to be your girlfriend like you did months ago?" He looks at me amused and shrugs, “why do you do everything like that?" The smile he gives me makes me laugh before he opens his mouth.
"Why do I do everything?" He answers with another question, laughing I hug him by the neck and pull him towards me.
“Sir I can do everything," I kiss his lips, "I think it's time for this to be official, my heart belongs to you just as I belong to you," he lifts me into the air and embraces me tighter.
“I love you Dulce,” he looks me in the eyes and then gives me a kiss where we give ourselves everything.
"And I love you my brunette," totally happy, I hug him again." When life hits you in the end, it always gives you a balm and it is up to you if you move past the resentment and take it, or let yourself be carried away by the pain and reject it. I see him take out his mobile, when I hear the chords of a ballad I look at him.
“I want you to dance with me; the song is called ‘Complices’ is a song by Luis Miguel, my favorite singer.” Incredulous at that fact, hugging me when we started to dance, his huge body rolling up mine makes me feel protected, in love and immensely happy.
“I love that even being a tyrant, you show me this side of you, I like that without caring about anything you show each of your feelings and the truth is that I am amazed that you like Luismi,” we look into each other's eyes, everything is magical, giving me a promise kiss we dedicate ourselves to enjoying the beautiful song, the lyrics that he sings in my ear, lifts me up on a cloud.
"Now we have to talk,” he says at the end of the song, he sits down and I straddle him, “I know that when I sleep with you always or well you almost always realize when I have those terrible nightmares,” I look at him with total attention, that question is slowly killing me, what is that he dreams of? I know he always gives me a different explanation, but for some reason I don't know why he doesn't convince me.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to," I caress his cheek when I see his doubt, “you can do it when you feel ready,” I kiss his lips.
"Okay, I want to do it, this will also help you understand other things,” he looks away and breathes out through his mouth, “my nightmares are based on an experience I had when I was a boy of barely 20 years old,” he frowns and stiffens, “I have a sister,” he smiles sadly, “we have been seven years apart, she is like you, she likes art, freedom, she always has a smile on her lips, she loves the world and everything that has to do with nature, she is sociable and is the best thing ever. You will be able to know in your life, in it there is no evil, there is no malice in terms of hurting someone." He gulped so hard that I can see his throat make the swallowing movements, “my parents had died in a car accident two years before, fortunately I was of legal age and could take care of my sister, one day like any other I took her to an art exhibition in Atlapa, that day she decided to go by public transport, she wanted to know and experience new things, because we have always had money and our parents did not allow us to travel by public transport,” he sighs.
“It got very late and to get to our home as you can see is the same mansion we stayed in and access is difficult, but even so I decided not to call Malcolm and follow suit,” for some reason, that story is making my heart race, have they killed his sister in front of him? I pray that, that is not what he tells me. “When we were at a point where it was deserted, two useless men crossed us, of course my anger has always been a problem for me, knowing that it was a robbery I would not sit idly by, I was going to defend us at all costs, but I did not think about my weakness, while I hit one the other took the opportunity to grab my sister,” he tightened his jaw and swallows with more difficulty, I caress his neck, I want to give him that courage he needs.
“They threatened me, they told me that if I acted that way again they would kill her, without thinking I did everything they wanted, I gave them all my belongings, but that was not enough for them,” his breathing is getting heavier, I can't open my mouth, “before me, there were two men doing whatever they wanted with my sister, while one put a blade to my throat, the other abused her," tears of helplessness slide down his cheeks, “I saw every act they did against her, I heard every cry of pain she gave, I heard every plea she made for me to help her and I couldn't do anything,” he looks at me with a tight face, "I couldn't avenge her and that's why I avenged you, that's why I felt so guilty for what they did to you, two important women in my life and I couldn't protect any of them." With my heart in my throat from what he said, I feel the tears running down my cheeks.