Chapter 36: Chapter 36

I tried to not scream in pain as his sharp fangs pierced inside my neck as he let out a moan in satisfaction. It's at times like these that makes me wonder, how do they do it? How can they take pleasure in someone else's pain and not feel anything? The pain in my neck started to get more severe that I couldn't take it anymore. I let out a painful scream but it was muffled out as his lips crashed onto mine . My breath hitched when I felt his hand making its way inside my t shirt and at this moment, I wanted him to stop but keep going at the same time. Why do I have these contradicting feelings?

"More, I want more than this.." he whispered as I realized that my t shirt was pulled right off my body and I covered my chest in embarrassment as he straddled around my thighs, sitting up straight and swiftly stripping of his shirt as well. I am with just my bra on and as much as I was enjoying this, I didn't want him to see my body. I have a lot of insecurities about my body. His mouth slightly drop open as he stared at me, his eyes locked on my body as they trailed up and down. It like he's memorizing each and everyone of it.

"You're so beautiful," he finally mumbled, as I just stared into his eyes. It made the butterflies in my stomach go on a rampage. "You're so fucking..." He came closer, gently removing my hands off my chest and pinning them above my head before gazing into my eyes again, making my heart flutter. "Gorgeous." He lets out as I bit my bottom lip. My whole face flushing red like a tomato. I was never good at taking compliments and-

"Fuck." He suddenly whispered, lust filling his eyes before his lips crashed onto mine roughly. This time, I kissed him back wrapping my arms around his neck. How was he able to make me feel so good with just under a small touch? I felt his fingers graze around my bra before they moved down to my thighs and an uncontrollable moan escaped my lips when he grabbed my inner thigh, his breathing only getting heavier as our bodies pulled each other closer.

"Al-Alex..." I parted our lips as his fingers kept grazing my thighs, making its way up and down in a slow motion . I know for a fact that he was just teasing me. "Stop that..." I almost whined and he only pressed my wrists harder on the bed as a small smirk tugged on the corner of his lips.

"Stop what, Rina?" he cocked his head to a side and before I could say anything, he leaned and kiss me again, making me gasp in pleasure . He used this chance to slip his tongue inside my mouth, deepening the kiss. My heart started racing faster when I felt his fingers slowly making their way up again and just as things started to get more intense, Terry's face flashed through my mind, causing me to pull away instantly. What Terry had said about Rihana.

"What's wrong?" Alex asked as he looked at me in concern upon seeing my face. I noticed the lust in his eyes fade away as his expressions turned serious.

"No-nothing..." I turned away, my mood suddenly dropping at the thought of him and Rihana . They were together at some point, they most definitely did all these things and a lot more, and somehow, I reminded him of her. Of all the times to think about it, I chose to get upset now.

"Did it hurt too much or-"

"It's not that, I just- I have to go." I closed my eyes, inhaling deeply before practically pushing him off me. To be honest, I wanted to know about his past, his secrets and everything about him before we do something like this. I want to know if he was just doing all this because I reminded him of her. That's why he called me by her name and that's probably why he doesn't want Terry to have me. Because he thinks this is history repeating itself, right? But I don't want that to be the case, I don't want him to see her in me every time we-

"Rina, what's wrong?" he questioned, a hint of concern in his voice as I picked up my t shirt and I gave him a plain look. "Wait-tell me what's wrong?" he snatched my t shirt just as I was about to put it back on , feeling uncomfortable to be wearing just a short and bra in front of him, though I was okay with it a few minutes ago.

"Give it back, I'm leaving now." I tried to snatch it away as he laid back against the bed, extending his arms further away ftom me before I could reach towards it.

"Where? Hey-just tell me what's going on? Are you upset because we-"

"Can you stop being stubborn ass and give it to me?" I huffed, trying my best to ignore the hurt look on his face that he was clearly trying to hide now.

"Look, if you didn't want me to drink from you then you could've just told me and I-"

"Alex, stop, it's not that." I interrupted in annoyance as he handed it over to me. I turned around to slip it on quickly.

"Then what is it? Because you were fine just now and-stop!" he raised his voice as I bolted towards the door. He grabbed my shoulders before spinning me around and I let out a groan before meeting his blue eyes that were now looking right into my brown ones. "Just stop, alright? What's going on?" his voice softened and it surprised me that he could actually be this calm and patient when he wants to be.

"What?"

"What do you mean "what?" I want to know what's going on. Did I do something wrong?" he asked again, releasing his grip as I leaned back against the door.

"It's not what you did tonight, it's just what you do on a daily."

"Which is?"

"Keeping secrets from me about Terry, not telling me about you and Rihana, or your past at all for that matter."

"What? Why are you bringing this up now? I told you that you don't have to know . It was in the past." I could tell that he was starting to get annoyed but I didn't care. I deserved to know.

"But I think I deserve an explanation as your chosen keeper?" I leaned closer as he let out a groan in frustration. "Do you see her when you look at me...?" I finally asked him out .I watched his head snap at my direction.

"What? No-"

"Then what is it? Because you have already called me by her name and you and Terry keep pulling my head because of what happened between her-" I made a face as I mentioned her but stopped when Alex frowned at me.

"I told you not to insult her, Rina."

"See? I cannot even utter her name without you getting upset." I tried to conceal the hurt in my voice but it was evident now.

"Can you please stop making it sound like a competition between you and her? She's dead, alright? Let it go."

"You know what?" I said while blinking away the tears as he took a step forward, sending me an apologetic look but I wasn't going to buy it.

"Rina, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that-"

"Forget it. This never happened." I stopped, cutting him off and opening the door, slamming it shut before he could even react. As I marched through the hallway with tears in my eyes, I noticed Joey making out with one of his whores, slamming her against the wall as I walked right past him . Honestly, it's at times like these I wish I had escaped with Terry and did as he said. But then again, he was no better. Worse to be honest. But at least he was honest with me about what happened or why he's doing all this, as childish as the reasons may be. After an hour or so, I finally sneaked upstairs back to my room and plopped into my bed when I noticed that Alex was gone by now. Guess he decided to let me be. I buried myself inside the sheets, closing my eyes shut as I tried to not think about what happened tonight. His fingers trailing all over my body as we kissed-

"No, go to sleep." I said to myself before closing my eyes shut and inhaling deeply, my eyelids drooping as I let out a sigh. Rihana. He must really have been in love with you. Why do you leave him?