Chapter 24: Chapter 24

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If you are in love with two people, choose the second because if you truly loved the the first you wouldn't have fallen for the second

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Megan's POV

"And then I ate a food called tamales. Hot tamales, it was so delicious, and our tacos over here is complete scrap compared to the one over there, heavenly tacos”I said narrating my trip to four listening and curious ears, Susan, Rita, Dylan and Darlene.

"Tell us about the boat ride, did you catch any fish?”Dylan asked me. Darlene nudged him with her elbow.

"How would they catch a fish when they didn't go fishing?”She asked him.

"Must you go fishing before you catch a fish?”Dylan asked.

"Umm__ yea It’s not as if, they walk around carrying hooks and nets in their purse? And you can just dip your hand info the water and come out with a fish”Darlene explained.

“well the fish could have jumped into their boat”Dylan explained

"Of course not, the fish is not foolish enough to do that and die”Darlene retorted

"Says who?”Dylan said back and Darlene face palmed herself.

"Shhush, shut up D's let Meg finish her story”Rita said.

"Don't mind my idiot brother”Darlene said

"Don't mind my irrational sister”Dylan said.

"You are the one being irrational”Darlene.

"Then you are the one being idiotic”Dylan said.

"How are my being idiotic, fishes just don't jump into peoples boat”Darlene stated, she didn't take insults well unlike Dylan that's used to it, she will always argue, until you are certain she's right.

"How do you know that, what if he wanted a tan or went sky diving!”Dylan said, then the whole room fell silent. "Well_?"

Rita was the first to burst out laughing, followed by me and Susan, Darlene had a shock expression on her face that read 'I can't believe my blood said that'

She finally laughed when he laughed too, "I give up, you have the brain of a termite"

"You are my twin”Dylan said resting his head in her leg.

"I score A on every test, I can't have the brain of a termite”she said.

"I score A on every test too, YOU definitely don't have the brain of a termite”Dylan said and this time Darlene was the first to laugh before we joined in.

"Ah Darlene come see”I said as I removed my phone from my hoodie pouch remembering the picture of Ethan. "See”I gave her my phone that was currently displaying the beautiful Montenegro.

Darlene opened her mouth as if to say something but no words came out, she was staring intently. Rita nudged me with her arm in a teasing way as she lifted her nose to point at smitten Darlene. "Looks like Darlene just found her darling”we burst out laughing all except Dylan.

"I don't think he is handsome”Dylan said frowning and peering over Darlene's shoulder looking at the Picture.

"Why?”Darlene asked returning back to earth.

"His nose is not pointed enough, he is also too thin, he is white like snow, don't they get tan In Mexico?”He asked as we raised our brows at him. Ethan nose was pointed enough, he had enough body for a boy his age and he definitely didn't have a skin as white as snow.

"Yes because your nose is as pointed as Pinocchio's, your body like that of Mike Tyson and your skin as brown as brownie”Darlene said eying him.

"Am definitely more handsome”Dylan said.

"Ofcourse you are handsome you are my twin, my traIt’s got to rub off somewhere but this boy is more beautiful than me and that's saying something”Darlene said sending the pic to hers and ignoring pouting Dylan. Rita mouthed 'It’s just a picture' to him.

I finished my story after that and went to my room to retire for the day. I missed Javier.

A stone hit the glass, I thought I was hearing things. Why would someone be throwing stones at Javier's window. I rested my head back the comfy pillow that smelled just like him, today I had realized that I had feelings for Javier, real lovey dovey feelings and that scared me, I can't get rejected and abandoned again, i just can't, there is a limit to what my fragile heart can take.

Another stone hit the window, followed by another, then another. I jumped off the bed, I was certain someone was hitting the window. I moved closed, I was a bit scared and uncertain this wasn't my room after all.

Another stone, OK that's it, I have to check now or I won't get a wink of sleep. I drew the curtains aside and opened the glass window and looked down a gasp escaping my lips.

"Did I wake you up”Pretty boy as me, he was currently just a few lengths away from me, what's he doing up here, this is a freaking castle like mansion.

"What are you standing on? What's supporting you?”I asked trying to look below and see what his legs were stepping on.

"Window frames and all, so were you asleep?”He asked me.

"No”I replied with a shake of my head, today was so fun and energy exhausting, I was supposed to be tired and sleepy. But I wasn't, I couldn't close my eyes without thinking of Javier, I giggle filled and smiling all around like a lovestruck penguin.

He smiled turning my insides into goo "Good, do you want to reach for a star with me?"

I smiled, opening my phone and clicking on images opening the pictures Javier made me take yesterday insisting I take them as a memory from my trip to Mexico, a particular one was my favorite, i had put a front camera and wanted to take a picture of me standing above the ocean on the cliff, I spotted Javier through the scream he was fumbling, trying to put his jeans back on, meaning he was shirtless and bending, his muscles rippling out. I took a picture and since then, I always stared at it and smiled.

My closed making me drop my phone to the floor in surprise. I didn't even notice someone come in through the front door and now the person was inside my room. I looked up from the ground where I was sitting on resting my back on my bed. It was Rita and she was putting on her nerd glasses, dressed in pajamas and her red hair in a pony tail.

She slumped down on the ground next to me pulling her knees up to her chin, "sorry I startled you"

"No problem”I said discreetly removing the pictures of Javier from my screen.

"What were you going all lovestruck penguin on?”She asked.

I laughed a little, that almost stupid show penguins of Madagascar really left an impression on us, "nothing"

She looked at me curiously, "Samuel?”I shook my head, "Javier?"

"You're with your glasses where are your books”I asked trying to change topics, Rita doesn't where glasses unless she's tired and wants to study, according to her it improves her slightly jarred sight and also she can't fall asleep with glasses on, It’s a win win.

"Am with them?”she said reaching up and feeling the glasses on her face, "ah, I forgot”she removed them and placed them on my cupboard.

"You are going to forget it there”I said, she nodded, "I so am"

"So what's brought you here, I don't mind the company but you usually don't visit me at 9 pm with glasses on”I said looking at her and studying her, Rita was like my best friend and maybe Junior sister too since am older than her with 6 years and I've known her all through her life.

She signed, "am confused and I can't concentrate on my books right now"

"Why? Maths problem that you know I can help you in or boy problem that you know I also can't help you in coz am a big loser on both fields"

She chuckled, "boy problem”she whispered with her face in between her legs, I barely heard her.

"You say what now?”I asked not believing my ears. Rita is what you call a full on nerd, she reads like no other and gets A stars all round. She's never associated herself with any boy before, her only boy problem was what do with Dylan's socks scattered around the house.

"Boy problems!”She said louder this time.

"Umm OK”I said biting my lip to keep my smile back my triumphant smile, wait hope she doesn't have an unrequited crush__ oh no no no. "What kind?"

She signed again running her palms through her face, "So there is this boy, Ryan he plays instruments and is always seen with a guitar, he is really gorgeous, and on my first day we sort of had a connection, I developed a crush on him and soon we were friends, then I became friends with the rest of his friends, all cute guys"

"But there is one that stands out, Wade Sullivan, he is a jerk and a complete egoistic asshole, he has no respect for rules and human feelings, he uses and dump girls like they are some kind of toys”I saw her fist ball up, "but__”she released her fist, "he was really annoying at first, lately he has been kind, caring, supportive and sometimes he even makes me laugh"

Silence.

She signed again, "Ryan is cute, handsome and has a marvelous voice and smile, Wade on the other hand is handsome, hypnotizing and had this bad boy aura, they are both hanging around me often and my feelings are getting confused and jumbled up”she rested her head on her leg again, signalling the end of her story, then she turned her face to look at me.

"First off, I suck at boy issues am 23 yet I don't have a boyfriend. Second you need to know what made you like each of them, are you crushing on Ryan or his guitar and voice, thirdly, Johnny Deep once said, if you love two people, you should pick the second because if you truly loved the first, you wouldn't love or be confused about the second”I said feeling proud of myself for delivering such advice and quote to go.

"And you believe that? What Johnny Deep said?”Rita asked confused.

"Yea he is right you know”I said.

"Why? Do you have a second?”Rita asked sitting up straight.

"This is about you, not me”yes I do now.

"Come on Meg, I just told you my secret, It’s Javier isn't it”she asking smiling at me.

Saying it to myself was more easy than admitting it to someone else, if I admit it, it becomes real and I become vulnerable to rejection.

"Uh, It’s him right? Silence means yes you know, do you really love your boss now?”Rita asked not so surprised.

I signed, "It’s complicated, he likes Kristen you know, my whole fucking romance life has to revolve around Kristen”my tummy was in a knot now, am not going to admit I love Javier, not when he still likes Kristen and rejection is right around the corner.

"Fuck Kristen”Rita said as my eye opened wide at her, did she just use a swear word?, "forget that, that's the pecks of hanging around Wade"

"Am starting to rethink their company for you"

She just rolled her eyes and continued, "Forget Kristen, she's with Sam now, Javier is right here close to you, don't let go now that you've finally found a spark"

"What if I still love Sam, I've been crushing on him for 9 years Rita, what if this is just psychological stuff my brain is putting together to shield me from pain, what if I truly like him and I let him in only to face rejection and a good shove for not letting go”I said my heart aching a little.

"I know how to solve your 'who I love' question, but you should take your own Johnny Deep advice you know “Rita said bringing out an iPhone.

I raised my brows at her, where did she get such an expensive phone from, "don't ask, It’s complicated and It’s not new”she said, hands tapping the screen as she typed away.

"It looks new”I commented, "and expensive"

She shrugged, "the former owner knows how to maintain things”then she smiled.

"OK here it is Google search, signs to know if you are in love”she read out to me, "

1. You read his text over and over.

OK I look at his pictures over and over does that count?

2. You walk really slow when you are with him.

Umm never really walked with him, so I don't know.

3. You pretend to be shy when around him

I don't pretend, I am shy, especially when he speaks gutter.

4. While thinking about him you heart beats faster.

OK that's right, It’s even happening now.

5. While listening to his voice, you smile for no reason.

Yep, Javier can do that to you.

6. While looking at him you can't see anyone else.

At the elevator, at kens chicken, at the dance in Mexico, at our Cliff diving, only him.

7. You start listening to slow songs.

Am not a song person, so no.

8. He becomes all you think about.

Yep, so true, he is formatting my damn memory.

9. You get high off his smell.

His bedroom, shirt and boxer, divine. Is that what getting high feels like?

10. You realize you are always smiling when you think of him.

That's for sure.

11. Even though there was no specific name called, you were thinking about him as you read this.

Javier.

Goodnight Meg, answer the question yourself and even though I already know the answer, when you are ready, tell me OK”Rita said as she stood up to leave after kissing my cheeks.

I held her hand, "don't you think we need to have the talk"

"What talk?”She asked sitting back.

"The talk, bees and__"

"No no no Meg No, why do you think I need the talk "

"Because you are finally having boy problems, maybe it will happen, you know”I said trying not to smile.

"Please Meg don't do this to me”Rita said covering her face with her palms.

"So just remember that he must use protection, no glove no love”I said practically smiling, It’s like I've been waiting for this moment my whole life.

Rita made sobbing sounds as I continued, "No means No, if you aren't ready then he can go fuck off for all you care"

"Oh God, stoppp”she whined.

"You can't get pregnant on any circumstance, he has to a condom and maybe you should be on pills too just in case, it has to be__"

"STOP!”Rita practically screamed, I pouted this was supposed to be my moment.

"That was torture, did you ever get the talk ?”Rita asked finally looking at me, I nodded, "Really? From who?"

"My mum, Anna”I replied to the shocked Rita, yes my mum was the worst mother on earth but she did give me the talk, I disowned her already but somehow I still forget to refer to her as Anna.

"What did she say?”She asked.

I remembered everything my mum dragging my 16 year old self to this room and giving me the talk, I cleared my throat, "Do not open you legs for any Tom, dick and harry"

Rita laughed. "If you must do it, makes sure he covers and wraps his tool"

Rita laughed again. "If you don't do this you might end up with an unwanted child"

Silence "If you do get pregnant, make sure It’s for some wealthy guy, don't go sleeping around with these losers around. You've been warned”I finished up closing my eyes, "so that's it, everything word for word"

"Anna is such a jerk, the one job she had”Rita said, I laughed.

"Thanks Meg, something tells me I should expect this talk from Susan too”she said getting up and signing, "goodnight”she left.

I got up too and got on top my bed, wow all that was a little hurtful. All I need now is a peaceful night.

My phone beeped showing a text, I immediately opened it, I didn't know what I expected but it certainly wasn't this.

It was a picture of a shirtless Javier, lying down with his head on his pillow, eyes closed, hair scattered he looked so beautiful. By his side was a note with bold letters written on it lying beside it. I read it three times, still not believing It’s real and still not able to wipe the smile off my face.

Goodnight Megan, sweet dreams. See you in mine.

~Pretty boy.

I placed my hand on my chest, afraid my heart will burst out.

So much for a peaceful night.

I have to take things slowly with my heart, I can't get rejected again, my dad rejected me before I was even born, my mum hates me and rejects me everyday, Samuel rejected me so many times. I don't want to be rejected by Javier, I want him to want me, need me and love me. I wanted him to want the unwanted child that's me. I wiped the stupid tear that leaked out.

It can't be that hard, right?

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