Chapter 39: Chapter 39

"R-Renna."

I stood up while my eyes were still focused on her. Now that everything has been clarified, I remember everything. From how Valeria and I came out. I walked closer to her but she quickly backed away.

Cold air separates the two of us. "You think so? My opponent is still you?" She grinned and black smoke reappeared on her body. I wanted to cry, I was hurt by what she was doing.

We have been friends for a long time and I know everything about her, I want to change her even though I know there is no hope yet.

"That's enough, Valeria. We're friends, I don't want you to be engulfed in darkness forever." My language is calm.

"Friend? Friend but you managed to snatch Florence from me?" Its question from the calm but threatening voice.

"I didn't, you know that. You all know, you know how much I loved him before but I let him go because you wanted him. I let him go because you're my friend, but you let him go too. You were able to have a relationship with Antonio." I barely stepped on it.

"You know we can't dictate our heart, even if it fools the eyes it will keep looking for who it's really beating for." I tearfully explained to him. Now that I understand what Cora told me, I have sacrificed a lot for our friendship. I was able to release the man I loved most in the name of our friendship. But this is not the way it used to be, I will never let the man I love go a second time.

"You don't understand me, you've always been what everyone wants. You're always the good, you're always the beautiful, you're the one everyone wants! Me? I'm always the one who catches me, I'm always second to you. Even in Florence, I'm still the second!" I quickly put my arms around my face after she screamed, drowning out the air it released.

I close my eyes because of the struggle but I can't do it anymore, her force is so strong. I backed away when suddenly something blocked in front of me, I slowly lowered my arm at the same time as my eyes awoke. I swallowed after seeing the back of the man in front of me, I couldn't help but smile as tears dripped from my eyes.

In what way the body I used also loved this man. Just as I loved Florence as Keir she also loved me as I was Quinn. His hand was focused on Valeria as he continued to utter words I could not understand. Valeria and I exchanged whispers, I watched the two of them suffer until they both got down on their knees and finally lost the strange air.

"Florence!" I shouted and grabbed his arm. He looked at me and penetrated my lifeless body, lying next to the fountain before looking back at me.

"Only my body died but not my love for you." I forced a smile as I uttered those words. He smiled slowly and stood up, he still fell but I immediately caught him.

"Quinn, are you Renna?" Cora greeted us warmly as she approached us with Roly and Mona.

"That's why I feel so good about you." I was happy to respond as they helped me build Florence.

"Are you all happy?" We were stoppedin Valeria's angry speech. We looked at him as he stood up, also traces of weakness in her even the black liquid coming out of his eyes and nose she did not pay attention. She kept glaring at me.

"That's right Valeria, you're only torturing yourself." Father Roly calmed down but Valeria just smiled and laughed softly.

"Why? Is it because Renna has arrived? What am I here for? It doesn't matter if I'm having a hard time, does it? Ever since then you've only wanted Renna, she's always the best!" It screamed as the black smoke slowly expanding its body.

"That's not true, we love you too. All of you, we think equally." I looked at Mona as she said this. There was a look of pity on her face for what Valeria was doing.

"Valeria." I weakly call it that.

"If you only knew how much we loved you, you would be like Cora and I's sister," I added.

"You liar! If you love me as your sister why did you snatch the person I love? You are a traitor!" Florence quickly interrupted after she rushed towards where I was standing. I was still very close to Roly's arm, while Mona and Cora were behind us.

"Stop it! You're the liar! You managed to turn me around." Florence spoke angrily while holding Valeria's neck. Valeria's eyes were sharp and covered in black, even though it was hard for her to remove Florence's hand, her sharp gaze remained. I couldn't stop my tears from falling spontaneously. I feel sorry for her, it shouldn't be like this. We wouldn't have reached this point if I hadn't tolerated it at first. On that day, she should be the one to lose our game and she will do the penalty that will send a letter to whose name we will see. But I claimed defeat because I knew she couldn't do that and she didn't accept defeat.

If I only knew we were going to get to this point, I would have avoided Florence ever since. I looked at Mona who was hugging Cora, they were both crying because of what Valeria was doing. They were hurt because of what I did, Valeria wouldn't be like this if it weren't for me. I should have expanded my understanding of her even more.

"Florence!" I sighed after seeing his grip on Valeria's neck tighten.

"W-why? Do you think I'm the only one...I'm the only one who's hiding something? D-do you know who poisoned us?" My eyes widened at the question. It closes for a moment as Florence's grip tightens, Valeria is still in Chelsea's body so she feels pain.

"Shut up!" Florence shouted angrily, but Valeria seemed to enjoy it more.

"Florence, let her go." I beg him but he doesn't seem to care what I'm saying. I immediately let go of Roly and approached them, Valeria even looked at me.

"I don't know why I didn't immediately find out that you weren't the woman I loved." Gentle with anger in Florence's language.

"That's enough, Florence!" I forcefully removed his hand tightly gripped Valeria's neck.

"Please?" I cried a lot and he just listened to me. Valeria was still closing her eyes when Florence pushed her down. It immediately grabbed her by the neck and caught her breath. I held Florence's arm to keep him away.

"I will give you change for the good of your soul," he said and Valeria laughed for a moment.

"Am I the only one who should change for my soul? Shouldn't you be more? Who among us has a heavier sin?" My grip on Florence's arm tightened as she attempted to come back to Valeria. It got down on its knees and slowly stood up, it was smiling and looking bad at us.

"Why don't you admit to everyone that you poisoned us?" Its angry cry. At this moment, it looks like a bomb has exploded near my ears. Chaotic and repetitive I hear what Valeria said. I even let go of Florence's arm and backed away.

"I'll explain." I broke his hand after he touched me.

"You heard right, Florence poisoned us!" Valeria sighed again.

"How long will you keep it Florence? We trust you, we let you in here even if it's forbidden, we accept you wholeheartedly." I swallowed as I heard the words Cora left.

"I am going to–"

He stopped speaking when my palm touched his cheek. Tears welled up in my eyes as I watched him.

"Renna, listen to me first." It's pleading, but I keep walking away.

"You're nothing as bad Florence, if I have any regrets in my two lives it's to love you!" Even though I can't feel my heart beating, it still crushes my feelings.

"You're right to be mad at him, he cut off our chance to survive. He's been playing tricks on us ever since, aren't you wondering why he's pretending to be a Grim reaper?" I frowned and looked at Valeria.

"We know he's not a real Grim reaper, he just made a way to get out and find Renna. He'll lose the ability to feel souls so he himself approached the Goddess of souls to have someone help him. It was you Quinn. But not that's where it ends. There's a heavier fate to be given to your next hundred lives by the time Florence does it, but she doesn't care about you. If you, Renna, haven't come out yet, she won't care about you. But no, you're going to pay for Florence's sin." I was so attached to Cora after hearing them.

Does that mean from then on, he already knew what could happen to me? In my next hundred lives will one fate I face?

"But I'm sorry about that, I'll take it all." I let out two slaps again after he approached me.

"I would have loved to love you for the next few thousand lives, but only now do I regret having loved you in my two personalities." Even though I was struggling so hard I was forced to say it. I want to put up with him everything, I want to express my remorse once in my life I loved someone like him.

"I love you, I love you so much that I did it all. I poisoned you because I knew the Japanese soldiers were planning to attack, I was cowardly and scared so before that happened I chose to die at the same time," he explained.

"Stop it Florence, you can't take me with those words anymore." I spoke emphatically to him.

"Right Renna, you're mad at him. Fill your soul with anger." After Valeria said this I felt hot and angry. It's hard to control this anger, I don't want to fight because I willingly give myself up to get angry and submit.

"You're here with me Renna, we're friends aren't we? Just be mad at him, so we can burn his soul in front of us." I slowly looked at Valeria, she held out her hand as if encouraging my soul to join her.

"Renna." Father Roly sighed after I walked closer to it, I could still see the shock on Florence's face.

"Renna, by the time you join her your soul will disappear completely." Florence warn me, because when he said this I stopped and turned to him.

"I'll take all that can be your punishment, I just love you so much Renna." I tried to avoid his eyes but he completely trapped me, with every look he had the memories of the two of us coming back. Be me as Renna and our togetherness as Quinn. I hate him but why does it go away? Why is it that no matter how hard I try, it can't get angry?

"If–" I stopped speaking after Valeria pulled me and strangled me. Her black eyes opened up to me again, full of anger and revenge. These eyes are no longer on Valeria, her soul is forever claimed by darkness.

"It's not true that you love our friendship more, since then Renna. Since then I've always been a shadow for you." This utterance is weak but frightening. I kept staring at her face, I knew no matter what I did I couldn't change her anymore. This is no longer my friend, she is no longer the former Valeria. I close my eyes after it tightens its grip on my neck, I hear Florence's plea but Valeria doesn't pay attention to it.

I smiled softly as I stared into her eyes. "If time comes again I hope you know you are not defeated. I would have loved to meet you in my next life but this is where destiny brought us." The tears that I had been holding back kept falling. I grabbed her shoulder and firmly inserted the lotus flower pin into her heart. I buried it until she finally released me, she endured the pain as the black liquid finally came out of it.

She had things she wanted to say but she couldn't, she kept kneeling in front of me while I couldn't stop crying. It hurts so much, I never thought we would ever reach this point in our lives.

My knees trembled as I knelt in front of her, traces of her suffering. The black soul and this body are grabbing but it doesn't seem to be able to get out completely because of what I kicked in her heart. I held her cheek while one of my hands was on the lotus flower pin, I blinked emphatically and uttered the last word.

"Let's finally release the anger in our hearts." After that I immediately pulled out the lotus flower pin. I could hear her screaming and moaning in pain. I backed away and noticed Mona and Cora running to my place, I heard them both sobbing as I watched the bitter fate of our friend.

We watched the complete separation of her body and the black smoke. Chelsea's body collapsed and it burned but not her black soul.

Florence came quickly while saying a word, I saw him continued weakness but not losing. The surroundings began to darken, a black cloud covered their only vertical sun. The wind was getting stronger, I was closing my eyes because of the sands hitting me. Moments later I heard the loud closing of a book and the surroundings became peaceful and quiet. Gradually, the surroundings cleared up. I opened my eyes and saw an old woman holding a book, shaking her head as she looked at it.

"Misfortune because of love," she said. I stood up while still looking at her, she looked at Florence who was now weak in his encounter.

"You will face the punishment associated with this love." She says calmly.

"Florence!" Roly shouted in confusion as he approached it, he almost fell down and was supported immediately. I stayed away from him while Cora were still behind me.

"C-can I just take over everything?" Though fainting he continued to say it.

"Fate cannot be changed. The next one hundred times you live Renna you will suffer the same fate and you Florence will remain on earth to witness the future fate of the woman you love." She said it emphatically. I was devastated by what she said.

In a hundred times I live, I will continue to suffer this fate. Love life and early death will be bitter and Florence will witness it all.

"Please, just punish me." His supplication and even kneel before the Goddess of souls.

"Like I said, this destiny has already been recorded by the Gods." After she said this, she disappeared completely.

My soul will continue to suffer the same fate, my soul will continue to be a disciple of the bitter life and it is all because of false love. I smiled and faced Mona and Cora.

"I hope we will meet again in my next suffering, I want to feel your care and love again." I held her hands.

"I'm happy with what our fate will be," I said again and hugged them, still closing my eyes because of the feeling.

"Renna." I let go of them and looked at Florence, he walked closer with Roly.

"Mona, Cora and Roly I'm sorry for what I did." It gently apologized. Roly approached him and tapped him on the shoulder.

"Forgiveness will remain in our heart, so that our souls may be at peace as well." Roly said with a smile.

"Until our next life, we will continue to build our good relationship." Mona still hugged.

"For the forgiveness of our souls." Cora said smiling. Trace the smiles and happy but sick letting go, accepting the bitter fate.

"I'm sorry for what I've done, for everything that has happened in my life I will always have the assurance that I will love you dearly even for a few thousand lives." I smiled at what he said.

I have still been vulnerable, I have still been defeated and a slave of this love. This will probably be the compensation for forcing love not to have heaven permitted. The reward of emotional betrayal and enslavement to love that should not be felt.

"I don't know if my mind will continue to remember you, but hopefully by the time my heart recognizes you, you won't hurt her and remind her how much she loved you back then." He quickly passed me and drowned in his kiss.

I close my eyes to feel its kisses for the last time. My soul will continue to seek and remember him until the last appointed of heaven. He stopped kissing and looked into my eyes, hopefully every time I look at the man who will be my self in my next lives she will see this love.

"I will wait until the next time we meet and the time when we can be born again and continue our love story, even for the next few thousand of our lives," he said as tears continued to trickle down his eyes.

I will also wait for the time when I can feel true and pure love, where it will no longer be hindered by the sins of yesterday and the worries of the future. My heart and soul will continue to love you for a few thousand lives.