Chapter 33: Chapter 33

I stayed inside the hotel while I didn't know what I would do next. I wanted to see and talk to Keir, but when I remember–it was Florence who entered my brain.

That maybe Keir's feelings for me are just a result of him having no recollection of his previous life. What if he already remembers? I will be left alone, I will be left in love with someone else who is really loved. Damn! I really hope I just avoided it first so that this doesn't happen again.

I no longer heard any noise inside Florence's office, they were probably back to their jobs. But how about Valeria and Florence? Are they inside now? What are they doing? I slowly grabbed the doorknob and attempted to rotate it, hopefully opening but I couldn't push. I was hesitant and afraid of what I could see. I swallowed and released it at the same time as I lost my deep breath.

That's enough, Quinn! Listen to yourself, you are no longer doing the right thing. Once you find another soul it will be negligible and you will be left alone here. I walked away when I heard the door open, I did not look back but I heard its footsteps following me. I ignored it even though we entered the elevator together.

I had no intention of looking at his face, but when I pressed it he pulled my hand away causing me to approach him. My heart was beating fast and I was afraid he would hear it because the surroundings were so quiet. I slowly looked up at his face. Its eyes, his eyes drowning in me. Its eyes and looks make me thirsty, this look. I know it very well.

"If it's possible. You're here next to me first." I wanted to dodge, I wanted to push him, I wanted to run but all of this was quickly counteracted by my heart. It prefers to remain in false love, it prefers to believe in deceptive words.

"You're just here next to me. I want you to just look at me." After he said this it slowly brought his face closer. I closed my eyes to push him away and finally let me go.

"I-it shouldn't be like this." I quickly opened the elevator and ran out. I left him alone inside. My tears flowed one after another as I repeatedly told myself how wrong I felt. This is so wrong, it shouldn't be him. I need to stop it, I need to end whatever Keir and I have.

When I left the hotel, I no longer waited for Keir's car. I immediately found a taxi and called Blake. He said he is now in Baguio and he wants to talk to me about what happened in the boutique. I sat up and bit the nail on the thumb of my hand while staring at the road. There's more things running through my brain, I was so drenched in my thoughts.

It was even more so because of what Florence did. That mess, why is it like this? Why Florence and Keir? Why me?

After I arrived at the café where Blake and I were going to meet, I was about to enter when suddenly someone took my hand. It was an old woman with a charm.

"Sorry grandma but I don't believe in that. I'll just give you the money." I smiled and tried to reach into my pocket when it grabbed my hand again. I felt something cold which thing he put here.

"Don't you want all your questions answered? May it be a guide to the truth." I nervously looked at the object she had placed in my hand. This bracelet has a strange stamp.

"But only one thing changes destiny, this shouldn't have happened if you weren't born." I looked at her confusedly as her critical and gray colored eyes focused on me.

"You shouldn't have lived." A cold wind touched my face, sweaty but cold. My throat was dry as my eyes focused on her face.

"Quinn." I almost jumped when someone grabbed my shoulder, I immediately looked at it.

"I've been calling you before." Stunned it says. I didn't go back to look at the old lady but she was no longer here, I looked around but I never saw her again.

I looked again at the bracelet she gave me, what am I going to do with it? How will this answer my questions? What the heck! She didn't help me, she just messed up my brain even more. Do they really want me to die right away?

"Aren't you with Keir?" he asked as he looked around.

"N-no, come on?" Even though I was a bit buoyant, I went inside. I sat in a corner while he offered to order. I was dumbfounded by the bracelet I was holding while trying to understand this strange letter but I just didn't know what it meant. It was like a kind of ritual.

"You shouldn't have lived." Repeatedly running through my brain. I know I'm a miracle baby, but what does my life have to do with these happening? What has my resurrection got to do with it?

"Macchiato and vanilla cake." I looked at Blake after he laid it down in front of me. I immediately pocketed the bracelet and pulled my chair closer to the table.

"Do you want us to talk about something?" This question is calm. I drank coffee first before I looked at him.

"That's how it is." I approached him so that only we could hear it.

"I know after you hear this you'll think I'm crazy, but I can see souls." He just frowned at what I said.

"I know, you don't believe it but Keir and I have a mission. You don't need to know what that is, but I hope you don't have anything else to say about it." After I said this, I went back to sitting properly. His mouth was still open as he nodded.

"Seriously? So, ghosts and bad spirits are real?" It's so weak that I just stared after eating the cake.

"Can I help you?" Question it again.

"You can't be affected by this anymore and you don't want to be affected anymore." There was a mixture of threats in my voice but he didn't seem to be afraid of it.

"I want to protect you. What if you get hurt by what you're doing?" This gentle question made me look down at my hand after feeling him hold it.

"I'm sorry Blake, but you know it's been a long time since out breakup" No matter how hard he tries to get us back together, it's not like before.

"Even a little Blake, no more. So please, that's enough." I slowly removed my hand.

"I want to say sorry for everything I did, I want to apologize for everything I did before. Too much ifIt was a sin when we were still together, many short comings but I regret all that." I looked straight into his eyes.

"I have forgiven you for a long time. I have accepted what happened to us before, I hope you are as well. You also accept what fate we have now. Thank you for everything, thank you for helping us and I hope it will be maintained you keep the things I told you secret." I could also see the smile on his face but I could feel the pain his eyes showed. It had been a long time since he had looked at me like this, but I will always remember that day.

The day we had fun before he finally didn't feel and forgot about the two of us. Not having a closure is a closure, this was my motto then but it wasn't. Sometimes you need closure, you need to talk and release love that is not destined for you.

"Today is the last day we will meet, you and I are a part of the story that can never be repeated." My tears kept falling. It still hurts even though I accepted it then. It hurts when I remember the things we shared and the dreams we planned to reach.

"Wish you all the best, I hope we can be happy in the life we will lead." I stood up and smiled even though there were tears in my eyes. I couldn't wait for him to say anything. I'm just doing the right thing, I know I'm not the one for him. Even in a few thousand lives we still won't be, because I know the person my heart will seek is still different even if I lose all my memories.

My chest was heavy as I walked out of the café. I tried not to cry anymore, but my tears would not stop. It keeps falling but I know it's not just because of Blake. It's because of the amount of thinking I have, the amount of question in my brain I don't know the answer.

I sat on one side while still crying. What was my sin in my previous life? What sin have I committed so this is the suffering they give me?

"Quinn." I sobbed and looked up, I cried even more when Keir's face opened up to me. What am I going to do? Shall I tell him everything? How can I tell this person that we should all stop as well?

"Quinn, why are you crying?" This question worries me as I build. I restrained myself from hugging him but I lost, I didn't, I couldn't let go of my emotions.

I fell into this trap, as if I were drowning in a vast ocean and no one could save me. It was as if I was lost in the vast forest of love where I no longer knew the way out.

"I love you so much." Sobbing I hugged him. I could feel the tightness of his hug with me, even I could feel the pain he was feeling. I was floating and I didn't know how I got in Keir's car.

I just felt the wind rising in my face. I adjusted my seat and faced Keir. It was peaceful and quiet looking at the road, with a smile on its face. Florence and Keir, how in the same face with different personalities do I still like?

Of all the things that have happened in my life, this is the most complicated, but one of the most fun.

"Is that how you really like me? The whole trip you just stared at my face." I laughed at what he said. How crazy am I, before I was crying now I'm laughing. Love is really insane.

"Where are we going?" I asked here and on the way to look.

"National museum." I quickly looked at him after hearing this.

"National museum? Seriously?" I was still applauded when he nodded. I feel like a child in what I do, but only now can I go there and I really dream of going before. And now I'm still with my special someone, I don't know, I'm just thrilled. I know I'm going to get hurt but why can't I control myself? As I prolong it I know it hurts even more. But maybe I'm really stupid, I let the fun deepen in exchange for deeper pain.

I was lost in the right mindset, I followed the flow of emotion. I let myself feel it, I let myself be happy. We go inside for my new creature. I gaped looking around as I clung to Keir's arm. It is also fun to see on its face as it sees things related to the history of the country.

"Doesn't it take those souls?" I asked him as he pointed to each soul that was in the old stuff.

"They are not human beings, they are the souls of things. Every old thing that has to do with history or has a lot of love, there are souls that guard it. They take care of it based on how much the person who owns it loves using." I just nodded at what he said. We happily wandered around inside, I smiled at the souls, I wanted to talk to them but I might be mistaken for being crazy.

In every soul I touch I see the history of every object they guard. I can't help but smile every time I see how and how expensive these tools are. Things that have been part of our country's history, stories that should not be forgotten. Stories of the past should not be ignored.

"Thanks for this." I stopped and faced Keir.

"Everything that will make you happy." Kissing it on my forehead makes me close.

"I love you Keir, no matter what happens even if I'm not the one you really love." My tears condensed again as I stared into its eyes.

"What are you saying? I love you." It gripped my cheek. I know he was just saying this because he didn't remember anything before, but by the time he found out it and he could see Renna. I will also be just a part of the story that does not reach the end.

I'm not the beginning or the end, I'm just one of the characters who shouldn't be stuck in the story. I swallowed and took a deep breath before taking the bracelet the old lady had given me. I don't know if this is what she was referring to, but if this way I could know everything, I would.

I am not ready for the pain but I will do it for myself and even for him.

"You even bothered to give it to me." I looked at its smiling face again.

"I love you so much, always remember it. I will gamble on this love, even if my life is at stake." I slowly put the bracelet on him. Shaking my hand I let go of it and looked up again to look at him. My heart was beating so fast that I could hardly breathe, but I wanted to do it.

"I love you too–" He never finished it, squatted down to kiss him. I closed my eyes and tears welled up in my eyes. I quickly let go of the kiss and wiped the tears from my throat.

"Florence." After I said it, he backed away. I swallowed to calm my heart, I could see the shock in its eyes as it looked around.

"It means..." Her mouth dropped open in shock. I smiled hard to show him I was okay, I'm not sure but he probably remembers everything.

That she was Florence and how he became Keir. I don't know if even Keir's love for me is still there or it's just a mistake of the heart that no remembers.

"I love you, I love you in whatever person I have. Nothing has changed and it won't change." The surroundings seemed to slow down as he pulled me to the waist and kissed me hard.

I close my eyes because of the taste of it, I finally gave in to this kiss. I finally fell for this shocking kiss. In this love story, I am completely submissive.