Chapter 12: Chapter 12
Padgett's POV.
Will you take your call or are you just going to stare at it till it stop ringing? I heard Cameron voice, snapping me from my thoughts.
Mine...mine... it's...
Are you alright? He touches my head to wipe the sweat forming beads on my forehead. I am fine, let's go, we are late already. I said dragging him out, not after pressing my tab to silent it.
In no time, we are at school, I was glad we finally arrived, this stupid best friend of mine, keep talking about that stupid romantic nonsense, that he think, he planned for Cathy, I really don't know what is wrong with him, and what thou fuck did he have with the letter C that he keeps having a thing with every girl that her name start with the letter C.
I never knew that Cameron, is your mom.
When I finally could breath, this demon is here. I said mentally, then turned my eyes to face him, I fake a smile.
Hi handsome!
Don't patronize me. His voice came up, I look at him with some expressionless face.
You’re probably gonna say no again but like I said Padgett it's just a fake girlfriend, so no big deal, even if I kiss you or hug you, you shouldn't take it to heart...
Newton I…
I know you’re not ready and you madly in love with Cameron, I really don’t need you to love me I just need you to let me love you and show you how amazing you are just the way I see you, you could only get Cameron, if you go far from him, make him jealous, anyways, that is none of business, I really don't care about anyone but myself… He said before leaving
I wished this time would never come it was finally time to leave school on a normal day but this time I would have to check out Cameron's decorations and see how good it is maybe make some changes and then I’ll leave there because I really don’t want to be there when she says yes to him and even when they kiss or probably when they...
I really don't know what to say, I feel so empty, yet I want to help him, I headed to the roof top twisted the knob, only to see Cameron, waiting for me.
Hey, you haven't done anything?
Of cause, I am waiting for my princess to fixed it, I only got the stuff ready, all are in place, so just fixed while I watch you.
You really unbelievable. I said pushing his head abit, he sit while I try fixing everything, when I was done, it was the most amazing decorations I have ever done all my life, the balloons were set out and will you be my girlfriend, sign was put up at the dinner part look great.
Cameron hugged me, then peck me, my eyes widened, he is really happy with what I did, he must really love Cathy, so I just let him.
So Cam! is it okay or it’s too much?
It’s perfect… he said, as he smiled with satisfaction on what I have done, I grabbed my school bag.
Oh! you really want to go home but I don’t know how long this would take so I will...
No, I can't wait, I will just walk home or catch a ride don’t worry about me I’ll be fine.
You sure?
Yeah I’m, you should have fun… I said walking towards the door, very fast, before he could try to stop me
Um! one last thing, I wrote something for her and I was wondering if you could listen to them and check then out if they were okay and all… He said as I felt a pang in my heart, Emerald was right, I was only going to hurting myself, while trying to help him.
“Huh… I said with my voice hoarse, almost breaking down.
It’s just a few lines please, I really don't know while I feel nervous right now, so please just listen
I nodded, caused I could barely control myself, saying a word right now, will only means one thing, I am giving myself off but I still couldn't find it in me to say no to him
Good then, this is how it goes...Cathy, ever since I met you I’ve grown happier and I’ve grown to love the little talk we get involved in every now and then, you make me feel good, I never thought I would ever feel something, so strong for any girl, I can’t really say I love you right now but don't worry, I could learn to love you, I am a fast learner. .. He finished grinning, he said so many things but those were the few I could remember.
So how was it…
It was... good… I said blinking my eyes rapidly to prevent tears from falling, then fake a smiled. I have to go now bye Cameron. I said then rushing out
Cameron! I heard a feminine voice, I gasped for air as I closed the door behind me then rest my back on the door as tears fall from my eyes.
Hey baby… He said pecking her cheeks lightly as the tears rolled down my cheeks more
I watched as they fed each other through dinner then they did a little dance, he even had to serenade her before he said the exact same words, he had read to me earlier, then I could hear her, screamed YES like she was dying to hear that from him before he kissed her fiercely and she made no attempt to stop him instead she held onto him for support kissing him back with the same fierceness and that was all it took for the tears to gush out nonstop as I quietly left them resulting to walking home in tears not caring about the stares I might have received
I just want to be left alone, I walk home to meet the house empty as usual mommy is not at home, I was really glad about that because I didn't want to explain why I was in tears and why I looked like I was broken because that was exactly how I felt this instant.
My eyes met my guitar and I realized its been a while I’ve played a song, Cameron was the one who thought me, how to play the guitar? When I found out, he is in love with someone else, I try to forget him, so I also abandon everything that could make me remember him, moving here, my mommy, decided to bring it with us but today, it seems I want to play this, just maybe, I shouldn't hate it, it might be my source of solace. I thought before blowing the dust away getting ready to play the song What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say (much to say)
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could've been
And not seeing that love in you
Is what I was trying to do... I sang sobbing while playing the guitar taking the different tune
Why can’t I stop loving you….. I screamed
“I hate that the fact that I love you and I can't stop loving you…. .. I screamed sobbing to my greatest surprised by phone beeped
[Bored at home, can we hang out? You not allowed to say no, bye, your boyfriend]
I sighed as the message from Newton, then something in me, kind of need someone to distract me of my pain. At this point I didn't care about anything, if he was a demon or the devil himself, which is why I didn't think twice before sending a straight reply
[YES I’LL LOVE TO]