Chapter 27: Chapter 27

Christian POV:-

‘What have I done? How much have I scared her?’

I felt bad looking at Sophie. I know she was always in despair since the moment we got married but now, I want to obliterate that despair.

‘I had enough of this fright.’

“Sophie, Please.” Even though I can't give her love. But, I don't want to hate her either. She had enough, I don't want to hurt her anymore.

‘But, I know after what I did, she can never love me. I don’t even want her to love me; I just don’t want her to be scared of me.’

“Calm down, it’s going to be alright.” I whispered.

I want to redeem my mistakes. I want to start my life anew with her . Not with a contract but as husband and wife. Maybe, we both can find salvation like this.

I wanted to remove the bad memories from her mind now but I know it’s not possible… after what I did.

“Sophie-” I made a wrong choice as I put my hand over her shoulder to calm her but she was far too terrified to relax in my presence.

I felt my heart heavy when tears rolled down her cheeks, I feel so guilty for doing this to her.

“Hey, it’s going to be okay…” I continued rubbing her shoulder, trying to soothe her but I noticed that she stopped her breath. A sudden dread took over me as I called her,

"Sophie... Sophie... Sophie!" She didn't answer and remained like this. I shook her hard as my body lost its strength.

‘What have I done? Just how much I broke her?’

I continued to shake her and she finally suddenly came to her senses as she fell on the ground, coughing badly. My tense form hugged her as she was taking deep breaths.

"You idiot, why did you stop your breath?!" I panted.

It took her some time to register what happened and when she did I felt her tears soaking my bare chest as she pushed me away and began to cry loudly.

“Please…”

I lost my strength and the urge to beg for forgiveness rose in me but I know my acts were unforgivable. I felt so repentant.

"Sophie..." I called her softly but her loud sobs concealed my voice.

“I am so sorry, I.. didn’t mean to..”

Between her thundering cries of destruction, my calls of repentance become inaudible. I brought my trembling hand close to her but then I realized my touch caused all this as I pulled my hand back.

I couldn't bear to look at her like this. I still can't believe that I did something like this.

I stood up and grabbed the duvet. My touch or my words will only make the matter worse.

She was quivering and crying. I wrapped the duvet around her shaking form and looked at her for a second.

I want to tell her that I will never hurt her again. From now on I'll protect her dignity. I'll never touch her. That I want to release us from this agony and find redemption in it but I know these words will be good as a lie to her and nothing can fix her right now.

"Sophie.. I.. don't want to.. scare you.. anymore.." I hesitantly yet cautiously chose my words and left her alone with those loud cries of despair.

I went to a random room and tried to sleep but I couldn't, not when I am filled with such crimes, they are even more sinful than those.

I stare at the ceiling thinking...

“If I never got married to Merlin, if I never loved her. If I offered myself to her in the first place. Only if I keep my promise and marry Sophie like I was supposed to.” I whispered.

“Only if I told her everything and didn't make this marriage of ours a contract. Only if I didn't get that lost to make her hate me.... Only if…”

There's no use talking like that now. I am filled with nothing but remorse now..

I can still hear her cries. Her tears didn't affect me, her cries were ignored by me.

“How could I do this? What have I done?” My voice broke, suppressing a tear.

I, Her husband, who was supposed to protect her virtue, made her defile. I want to give myself the worst punishment ever for this.

“I don't deserve her. How can I do this to her?... Just how heartless I have become?” A sob escaped my lips as I lost myself in this.

These thoughts filled my mind as I found myself losing in that darkness...

The next day, I am in my office but my mind is somewhere else.

"Sir!" I was dragged out from my thoughts as I saw Henley frowning at me.

"What?" I asked as she sighed,

"I am asking for those approval papers from the government for our new Charity trust."

"Oh, that, it's..." I looked around to find that file but it wasn't here.

"At my home..." I completed my sentence.

"Are you alright sir? You seem so lost these days?" She asked.

"I'm fine. I'll send the driver to get it."

"The meeting is in an hour. Can’t someone from your house come? Maybe your wife?" She suggested.

I shivered when I heard it. I really doubt that she'll agree to come here. "I'll see about it. You may leave." She smiled and left.

‘What should I do?’

I took a deep breath and called Sophie.

"Hello." I heard her scared voice.

‘God Damn it! Even on the phone she is scared! Good job you idiot!’

"Sophie, I need your help." I said as she hummed in response. “Yes?”

"In my study there's a green file with a tag of approval on it. Can you bring it here?"

"Okay, I'll send it by driver." She said.

I felt bad, I wanted her to come but... leave it. "Thanks." I said as I cut the call.

Sophie POV:-

I don't know what to say about Christian, now not only his eyes but his actions shows penitence and compassion.

‘I want to believe badly that he won't hurt me anymore but I can't bring myself to.’

“Why did I trust you?” I just want liberation from this. I was to be released from this suffering.

“When you broke me that miserably, how can you expect me to relax in your presence or even forgive you?” I asked myself.

I sighed as I went to his studies and took the file he asked me to get for him.

"Samuel, can you send this file to Christian's office?" I asked.

"I am afraid no, Ma'am, Peter is not here.' He said.

"What about Josh?" I asked about the other driver.

"He is at Sir's office." I nodded.

"I'll gladly do it but I have my work here. But, I can drop you off." He suggested. I thought about it for a second.

"Okay." I said. Seems like I've got no choice.

I felt so nervous about it. I used to see his building from outside, I never thought that I'd ever enter the Elvis Empire.

With my freezing hand, I walked inside. I walked towards the reception.

"Yes? How may I help you?" The receptionist asked with a smile.

"I am here to deliver this file to Christian." I said.

Her mouth gaped when I called her boss by his name. "And you might be?" She asked.

"Sir Christian's wife."

Another voice came, I turned and saw his rude assistant, this time smiling at me. I passed her a faint smile.

"Please don't stand here. Come with me." She offered as I nodded and followed her. We were in the lift as she said,

"Ma'am, I am sorry for my earlier rude behavior." She asked, looking down.

I flashed a smile and said, "It's alright." She smiled brightly.

We walked out. Since, I have worked in Amber One, so that high building didn't intimidate me but its workers do, especially their boss; Christian.