Chapter 109: Chapter 109

SIMOUNE

In just a few weeks, I will be going home to the Philippines. I know for myself why even though I am in a relationship with Bruce, we are no longer that happy and he is no longer very happy with me because of what I did. To this day I still carry the sin I committed with Paul. I don't know if Bruce still loves me or if he just feels sorry for me. That's why he stays in our relationship but he says he has forgiven me and he still loves me .

I can't feel the love he says because I'm just thinking about my mistake that has been running through my mind until now.

It's morning again so I got up to have coffee and eat breakfast, while I ate I was waiting for the call from Bruce. Until now, I still think that maybe he hates me and he’s just forcing himself to love me, after a few minutes he called me

"Good evening, how are you?" Bruce said while eating his dinner

"Good morning babe, it's okay, I'm about to go home to the Philippines, so I'm happy and excited to go home because I've missed you so much. but before all that I have to finish my 2 weeks then I can go home to the Philippines" I said

I can see in his face that he is still interested in listening to me, maybe we are just getting really busy at work so I feel like he doesn't love me anymore and he is forcing his love to me

"It's good that you're coming home soon, I'm sure Tony, Clarisse and Lucy will be happy to see you and of course I will be happy. I'm sorry if I'm always a bit busy at work because I've got a lot of work so I can't call you every day" Bruce said

"Is that really your reason Bruce or is it that you hate me so you can't talk to me properly anymore? Just tell me if you're forced into our relationship Bruce because if you really don't want me anymore that's okay I don't want to know that you're only staying in our relationship because you feel sorry for me" I said

"Is it about Paul again?" Bruce said

"Yes, I blame myself every day babe. I cried every night because I feel like you don't love me anymore, since what happened about Paul, I lost my appetite. Sometimes you forget to call me because maybe you don't want to talk to me anymore" I said

"Babe, it's not like that, it doesn't mean that I didn't call you that I don't want to talk to you, I'm just really busy with work babe. Please believe me, I've already forgiven you about that, so forget about it, okay?" Bruce said

I wasn't able to say anything else because as soon as Bruce said it I was in tears, maybe I was just thinking too much about something so I thought that until now he still hasn't forgiven me. I don't know the truth if it's in my mind or what Bruce is saying, after the two of us talked, I immediately took a shower and took care of myself to go to work

When I got out of the hotel, I could feel the breeze touching my face, every time it touched I felt the coldness and it enveloped my body. It's nice to look around, there are other people who are busy with themselves, there are people who are busy with their family and so on. I'm not really the only one in the world, I'm not the only one who gets tired, cries, is happy and has problems. There are many of us! Many of us have faced the daily test of time and all you have to do is be strong

When I got to work, I immediately started working so that I could have break time earlier, I've been here for a few days but I didn't force myself to have friends anymore because I was traumatized by Isha and Anna, so it's good thing that they’re are gone here because if they are still here I might curse my work here in Canada every day. I don't understand why there are people like Isha and Anna who are willing to destroy someone relationship and destroy someone reputation just for their own pleasure, I hope they are happy with what they are doing now and I hope they don't experience the hardship and pain they experienced in me

When we went to break time, I was sitting alone at the side of the canteen and savoring the food I bought from the cashier, because it's only been a few days and I won't be able to taste it again, maybe I'll taste it anyway, but it's still a long time. After I ate, I went back to my work, doing the same thing over and over again. My work is really draining because every day I have nothing else to do but work, I don't want to talk to someone here in company because they all have their own world and I don't want to squeeze myself into them anymore because I've been traumatized in Isha and Anna

Time passed like the wind, so I went home. The speed of time passing by and getting faster and faster makes me happier because it only means that I will soon return home to the Philippines. I was walking back to the hotel and since I didn't have any groceries, I thought of shopping at the market first and then I went home to my room, I immediately cooked my dish and rice and then I ate it. Because I know Bruce is already awake at this time I thought of calling him, it looks like he's really awake because his account with me is online

"Good morning baby! Eat that, babe, I'm in a hurry because I still have a meeting to go to, so I couldn't call you. Sorry! I'm really in a hurry babe, I'll call you tonight! See you" Bruce said and he immediately ended the call

I wasn't even able to speak because Bruce was in a hurry, maybe he was really in a hurry that's why he managed not to talk to me, that's okay with me as long as he talks because I'll worry about him if he doesn't even update me

After I ate, I lay down on my bed and stared at the ceiling. I hope the thoughts in my mind that Bruce doesn't love me anymore are not true. I really want to go home because I really want to be with and see my loved ones life

Not all people who approach you have good intentions, so you need to be strong so you don't end up hurting yourself and other people.