Chapter 33: Chapter 33
Shiva's Pov
I went to search Navya. It's already 8.30. Sky is dark and cloudy. This path is not safe too.
I spotted her. But she walks too slow. Usually she walks so fast. I went to her
Navya, I called her. She looked at me but she's crying. I want to hug her and console her. But I know I don't have any right to do that. So I stand there silently.
Come Navya.. It's already late so I'll drop you, I said
It's okay sir.. I can manage, She said controlling her tears
Come on Navya, I said
No thanks sir, she said and started to walk..
I pulled her by her hand. Please Navya it's not safe, I said
Why do you care? She shouted
Navya what's your problem? I asked her
That's what I asked you? What's your problem? Why are you changing suddenly? She asked
Navi I.. Before I said anything. She cut me off
Don't call me like that Mr. Shiva I'm just your employee, she said
I sighed. Okay Sorry mam. Please come it's not safe to go alone in this road and more importantly the weather is too bad, I said
You don't have to care for me sir, she said again moved. This time pulled her towards me hardly she placed her hand on chest. She looked at me with her tearful eyes. Only thing I see is love.
Sorry Navi. I know Keerthi is wrong but..., before I said she pushed me . For a second she didn't said anything
Keerthi is not wrong Shiva. Everything she said is true only.. Yes I'm the one who cheated on you for your money.., she said
I don't believe this nonsense anymore, I said
Why?? She shouted
I.... I believe you, I said.
Believe me for what? She asked.
I was silent even I don't have a answer for that I just believe her..
See! you don't have a answer for that!, she said
It's not a place to talk about that, let's go, I said
No! I want to know your answer, she said firmly
Navi! I said
Just stop Shiva. You're spoiling your life for me, she said this time her voice and eyes hold only thing that love and care
I don't care about that Navi, I said
Are you mad Shiva? She asked
I remained silent. Do you know what others are talk about you? They're calling you... She stopped in middle and looked at me with crying face
They're calling you gay, impotent like that Shiva. They're talking more bad about you. Why are you allowed them to calling you with those names Shiva? Please don't do this, she said slowly
So what do you want me to do Navi? I asked her
Settle in your life Shiva married someone who loves you and care for you, she said
Then, do you marry me? I asked her
She's dumbstruck. She never expected this.
What are you asking Shiva? You know...... I'm....married then how can you? She shuttered
You only said this to me Navi. Married someone who loves you and care for you, I said..
Are you crazy what are you blabbering? She asked in fearful tone
Don't you love me? I asked her
Shiva don't change..., before she said I stopped her
Answer me Navi, I said
She looked down and shaked her head as no. I smiled at her behaviour but my trust for her is increased
Words, I ordered her
No, she said looking down.
Look at me and said your answer, I said. It's takes her minutes to looked at me but my trust building strong inside my heart.
No, she said looked at my eyes. I smiled my trust is true. She loves me now too! that's enough for me I know I'm behaving like selfish but her love for me is honest.
Okay, I said calmly
Marry her Shiva. You know how much Keerthi loves you. In fact she behaved to me like that for you Shiva, she said
You don't have right on my marriage life, I said
Shiva! She shouted
Don't Shout Navi. Truth never change for your shouting, I said
What truth? She asked
Your love for me, I said more confident. She was struck but managed to overcome that
Don't believe useless things, she said
Useless things?? I asked her
Yes, she said firmly
Let's see, I said and move towards her slowly.
Wh... What, she shuttered and moves backward. Suddenly rain too started. But it's never stop me.. Instead I snaked my hands on her waist.
Shi... Shiv.. Shiva, she said. I placed my thumb on her lips. She shuttered
Why are you doing this? I asked her slowly and closed the gap between us. My face is just an inch from hers
I miss you, I said slowly. She cried looking at my eyes. That moment told me she missed me too even more than me.
There's no gap between us. I closed my face to hers. She closed her eyes giving permission to me. I smiled pressed my lips on her forehead.
She hugged me too... It feels eternity to us. No one is moved. But deep inside I believe she's mine.. And I don't want to leave her for anyone
I slowly asked her pressing my forehead on hers.
Even now too you think you don't love me? I asked her
She abruptly pushed me like she's coming to conscious.
Wh... What.. are you doing? She asked.
I believe you Navya more than myself. I believe your eyes. It's tell me you love me now too, I said confidently.
But she smiled. Where's your trust on me goes Shiva 5 years before? Did you not see this love that day? Or you closed your eyes? She asked slowly but with lot of emotions
I don't have any answer yes she's correct. I must believed her that day, I thought
I going to regret that my life long, I said slowly
For a minute no one said anything.
It's all past Shiva and it's not your mistake too. Believe me or not it's all true I'm not that trust worthy. To be truth I'm characterle....before she said I stopped her
Navi please don't talk like that. I don't even going to believe that, I said. Her eyes glistening for a second
It's your wish. But that's true. Now I have my family and I'm living happily with them.., she said
Don't lie, I said.
What? She asked
You're not happy Navya, I said confidently
What do you mean by I'm not happy..., she asked
Again it's your eyes. I believe your eyes, I said
Hey.... What do you want ah?? Don't you understand my words? Why are you behaving like a loser? Why are you acting like you know me better? Don't you want to live happily? Why are spoiling your life for me? She asked pulling my collar.
Navya... I, she stopped me
Don't utter anywords. Do you know how much Dev love me he never split from me even a second no one get son like him.. I'm very happy with him. And krish he's the best husband that anyone could want. Do you know how much he loves his wife and how much he take care of he...., she stopped between I looked at keenly.
Why she referring like her as third person, I thought. But she continued
I mean me. Do you know how much he care for me... No one even you can't he's far better than you, she said looking into my eyes her eyes only shows truth. Other than struck in between she said all looking into my eyes
Do you think I'm lying now, she said
I was silent.
Please let me go out of your life. Live yours.
Yes you're true. I'm not happy because of you. After I saw you that guiltiness killing me every second. If you really want me to be happy, then please move on your life. Do you how much is hurting even looking at you? she said kneeling in the ground crying
I was more than shocked. These all days I thought she's not happy because she separated from me. Is she not happy because of this guiltiness did I imagine on my own that as love, I thought....
I slowly moved from that placed but my mind reminding her words. She moved on her life....... I thought.
I messaged Krish about Navya's whereabouts.... Moved some distance from her. But she never stopped her crying...... After a 10mins Krish comes to the place kneeled down to her level. They talked something but I don't know what it is.
He removed his coat and covered Navya with that. He hugged her and she too.
I moved from that place with heavy heart but I'm happy at least she's happy with her life......... And I decided my decision.......
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